The beginning

The blood rushed into his mouth and down his throat in a rush of pure ecstasy, bliss filled him as he took a mouthfull of her strong blood into him a rush of pain following the bliss. He stopped there letting go quickly. Head back as he took in the flavor of her feelings, my god this girl felt with all of her heart, he had never felt anything like it, yes she was in pain, but it seemed the pain wasn’t just there it lived in her it was part of her it soaked into her bones and pulled everything in her together, the bliss had been the same it had filled her to the brim a pleasure so deep it had sunk into her bones and pulled as it rushed through her, she moaned in need as she pulled his face down to her her lips on his hard as she tried to shove her tongue in his mouth he stood still, letting the desire rush over him but not in him. Finally she gave up as he didn’t move a muscle to reciprocate her desire. She let go of his mouth, those lovely lavender eyes wide in surprise as she stared

“you really aren’t going to fuck me are you” she whispered her mouth had come away with some of her own blood and before he could stop himself he pulled forward licking it off her lips, her eyes dilated as desire filled her but he only answered her question

“no i will not fuck you” he said standing and slowly letting her stand on her own, her body slid down his and he enjoyed the feel of it but did nothing else

“your body says...” he stopped her with a finger under her chin so she was no longer staring at his hard on

“i feel desire because you do, stop feeling it and so will I" he said

“you will?” she asked eyebrows low as she frowned

He growled into her face making her jump the desire flying out the window, and so did his hard on. She blinked

“you said you have never growled in your nine hundred something years” she said crossing her arms in anger

“theres a first time for everything, i wanted to show you the truth and i know when in deep hunger vampires will growl at their victims, i knew it would frighten the desire away” he said shrugging “for the first, two days i will only feel what you feel but then i will develop my own feelings so try not to get too worked up” he said softly

She nodded “thank you” she whispered and he felt her thanks rush through him a well of gratitude, my god she even felt this all the way to her bones

“im not sure you should thank me, i have never felt this well of feeling before, how do you live with such emotion everyday?” he asked

That made her smile “im not sure, i just do i guess” she said shrugging

He felt her smile cross his own lips even though he had a need to crawl into a hole and die as his insides filled with pain again. Her eyes teared and so did his

“i know its alot to come to terms with my little ava but... could you not make me look like a whimpering fool in front of my people” he said as he felt the warmth of the blood that dripped down his cheeks

“im sorry my king” she whispered a smile breaking out even though both their lips trembled

“fuck!” he said running a hand through his hair as more tears ran down his face, suddenly there was a wailing from the door as the vampires that had come to make sure she was okay erupted into crying fits, shit, that was fast.

“maybe its better to cry it out now” he said softly as he looked at the door and the surprised look of bethany as she tried and tried to console vampires that didn’t really know why they were crying.

“will mave...?” little ava asked making him look back at her

“no she’s not completely mine yet but she will feel this melancholy thing you got going once she is, how can i help my little tank... tell me what i can do to make you feel better” he said taking a couple of steps and grabbing her hands, as more tears made their way down both of their faces

“your doing it you proved him wrong i just need a couple of days to get past it... i...” she stopped unsure

“what?” he asked

“i...i wanted you after you bit me but... not anymore... when i was with....i always wanted more , right after, more bite.... more sex.... i don’t understand” she said

“i can control how much of the bliss i give you” he said

Her eyes widened “thats a thing?” she said

“it is for vampires over five hundred or so” he said he realized the tears had slowed and there wasn’t so many howls of pain anymore so he kept talking “we all learn differently but young vampires can neither control their bliss or themselves if you throw a particularly strong half breed at them well...” he stopped as a rush of sadness and shame shot through him

“so i am the reason...” she stopped that lip trembling again

“no my little tank, i am just explaining the circumstance, that asshole had been torturing sisters long before you I’m afraid, when i killed him, he had two sisters just like you and mave one of which was on the verge of killing herself.... the fact that you and your sister survived and even thrived is a miracle” he said

“which one?” she said

“what?” he asked

“which one was on the verge?” she asked

“the one that suffered like you” he whispered. She looked up at him those lavender eyes hurt but... underneath now was a small well of strength

“you beat him my little tank thats all you need to know” he whispered

Making another small smile appear and he took a breath of relief as the chasm of sadness seemed to shrink and he was no longer hanging on from the edge of it.

Bethany came over brown eyes wide “everything okay?” she asked

He nodded “the blood has been given now i just need to give her some of mine and its sealed” he said

“i have to drink your blood?” little ava asked