Alcina follows Brendan into the maze.
Brendan cannot tell if it is foolishness or naivete that compels her to do so, given that anyone with half a brain would have not followed a man they compare to nightmares incarnate, into a labyrinth of which they know nothing about.
It’s half the reason Breandan had headed in this direction, to begin with, having grown weary already of having to make pleasantries that he has no desire to make.
He had hoped the girl would have enough of a sense of self-preservation, to run away when Brendan gave her the chance.
Instead, the little lamb stumbles in after the lion into his den.
Though his back is turned, Brendan can hear with perfect clarity, the soft footfalls that come to a petering, hesitant stop a few paces away from him. Too frightened to come any closer, then, he surmises.
He spins on his heel.
Alcina stumbles back a few steps, alarmed by the sudden movement.
“A jumpy little rabbit, are you?”
Alcina jerks at the sound - a deep, baritone voice, lower than most voices, enough to mark it as distinct as the face of its speaker. She realizes, a belated moment later, that it had come from her fiance.
Apprehension and a scowl war on her feature for a moment, as she debates on how to take the comment. As a comment, or an insult.
Brendan eyes the distance that abysses between them; a safe enough distance, that the rabbit could choose to turn and run, should the predator prove to be... predatory.
He looks up and locks gazes with Alcina, whose own brown eyes widen, almost imperceptibly.
The first emotion Brendan had ever learned, as a child - at the age when one begins to decipher what human emotions are, from the ones expressed on the features around him - was that of fear.
It is, after all, the emotion he saw projected most and overwhelmingly often when people gazed upon him.
With a little hum, Brendan tilts his head. “Are you afraid?” he asks, and yet, Alcina feels as though it’s phrased as a question merely for empty politeness.
Her heart pounds a damning rhythm in her chest.
Yes, she thinks. “No,” she says.
Brendan’s eyes, as unmoving as ever, still somehow manage to seem almost- disappointed. Ridiculously enough, it makes Alcina feel ashamed.
Brendan begins to turn back around, and Alcina takes half a step towards him, impulsively. “I am trying not to be,” she blurts.
and Brendan pauses.
“Why?” He sounds faintly amused.
Did you hear? The youngest daughter of House Clair was born without a gift of her own.
None at all?
None.
Alcina clenches her hand, tight enough she can feel her fingernails digging into her palm. She had never learned the art of conversation, not in the way that others of their class are taught from an early age.
she does not know, how to phrase things prettily and in such a way as to conceal their true meaning.
She only knows a stark and ugly honesty, that her bother Nordin has constantly sighed would be her undoing one day.
She starts to think that her brother was probably, most likely, right.
“Because. I know what it feels like, to be judged by one’s gifts.”
Brendan turns back around.
Alcina glances away. “Or the lack thereof,” she adds quietly.
Brendan’s eyes, dark and unfathomable, stare at her for a long, long time.
* * * * * * * * * *
Flashback...
When Alcina is thirteen, it has been three years since she’d effectively become what might be referred to as an unacceptable person in her family.
Most Gifts manifest by age five in some way or another, though they have the potential to continue to develop throughout the individual’s lifetime. The latest a Gift has ever been recorded as manifesting is at age nine.
When Alcina turned ten, her parents came to the exhausted conclusion that, indeed, Alcina must be the first Clair in the house’s long and prestigious history, to have been born without a Gift.
It is unprecedented, and damnation.
From that moment onwards, it has been as though Alcina hardly existed in the eyes of their parents.
Alfred who was only seventeen, then, and already revered throughout the land for his famously prodigious telepathic Gifts, considered remarkably powerful even for a Clair, And it was all their parents needed, and Alcina immediately became the unusable spare.
One might think that such a dynamic would breed resentment or antagonism between the two siblings, but on the contrary, it had the opposite effect.
It was Alfred, who’d thoroughly argued for Alcina’s continued education, despite their parents’ initial considerations at dropping it altogether, after all, she’d never rule, so why did she need to be educated as a ruler would?.
It was Alfred, who’d held Alcina’s hand as she cried with abject misery and self-loathing, and had the painful but necessary conversation with her that the lack of a Gift did not mean she was any lesser.
But knowing, rationally, is not the same as feeling, in one’s heart.
No matter how much Alfred and Nordin attempt to reassure her, time and time again, that her lack of a Gift could not - and should not - in any way affect the matter of her self-worth, Alcina finds it nearly impossible.
How could she, given that everywhere she turns, she is confronted with the fact that she alone has failed the proud name of their house.
That of all the generations of Clair's before her, it is she, alone, who was born without a Gift; that she is the only one, who’d been born defective.
Alcina spends most of her free time, in plenty, now, given that her parents have altogether stopped most of her societal duties and expectations, imagining any and every power she could have, and would have liked to, be born with.
Anything at all.
No matter how trifling, mundane, or useless the Gift is, she’d have given up her very soul if she could have it.
When she’s thirteen, she confesses to Alfred, once, that this is how she feels.
As if she is defective in some way; the spare that cannot ever be used, even if the occasion called for it.
This time, Alfred is silent for a long, long while, simply holding Alcina’s hand in his own in restful silence. When he speaks next, he tells Alcina a story.
“Do you ever wonder, if it is truly coincidence, that so few are born with Gifts, and yet, of those, so many are members of the Six Great Houses?”
Alcina has never thought about it much if she’s being honest. Of the fact that, although less than 1% of the population is born with a gift, and yet, every Great House invariably has several members who are born with one, in each generation.
“Did you know, that there are some - many - who believe that it is because of these Gifts, that the Houses remain in control of their kingdoms. That these Gifts are akin to a divine right to rule - irrefutable proof of their god-given right to rule as kings."
"House Walton is among those believers. The King fervently believes that his Gift is the sign from the heavens, that he has the absolute right to rule as the monarch.”
Alfred taps a gentle rhythm on Alcina’s hand. “But I think they’re wrong.”
Alcina starts.
“I think that we - all of us - have become so preoccupied with the notion of these Gifts; of the intoxicating idea that we are somehow better, because we hold these Gifts - that we are like gods. But I’ve always thought that it was foolishness.”
“We are not gods, Alcina. These Gifts, they do not make some men better than others; it does not make one a better person, nor a better father, nor even a better king.”
“We are all just men,” Alfred says.
“We are not gods, nor are we divinely blessed with an absolute right to rule over others, without regard to whether we are truly the best person suited for such a great responsibility."
"And to be honest, I truly believe that these Gifts have made us lose sight of the things that are truly important.”
Alfred raises his free hand and taps once on just to the left of the center of Alcina’s chest.
“Heart.” Alfred smiles.
“As humans, it is our hearts that define us, in the end, whether that be for better or for worse. Not whatever Gift we’ve had the random chance of being born with.”
The walk ends shortly after, spent primarily in the same stilted, awkward silence as the trip there.Brendan leads them to the east wing, where the royal families’ bedrooms are located, and now, Alcina’s.Alcina’s room is a spacious, lavishly-furnished room, of velvet drapes and wide windows, with a small but ornate chandelier glittering from the center of the ceiling, in essence, the same as the bedroom she’d just left behind.She can’t help the mild surprise, at how normalit all seems, how similar, to her own home.She knows it’s a ridiculous thought, but--She doesn’t know why or rather, she does, but she’s ashamed to admit it, but the truth is she’d been imagining something less... something less like home.Something that resembled the dark lair in which she’d be kept, imprisoned until the shadowed beast found a use for her.As Alcina stands
Alcina cannot help but lock the door that night. * * * * * * * * * * The next morning, Alcina is greeted first thing by Mary, a bright-eyed fourteen-year-old girl, who is to be her primary attendant from House Warner. She is young but endearingly eager in her youth and clearly skilled in her tasks. Alcina, for one, finds a small measure of relief in the fact that her personal attendant is such a courteous lass; she much prefers Mary’s ruddy-cheeked vivacity, to an older and somber one. “I am most honored to be serving you, my Lady,” Mary says. Alcina manages, despite the circumstances, to muster up a smile for her. She sits at the vanity while Mary gently brushes her hair, deft and nimble hands working quickly to arrange her locks into a presentable appearance. Alcina allows herself to be lulled into a moment of rest, as Mary’s babble - about the weather, and other such foolish things - provides a pleasant backgroun
Brendan is already waiting outside by the doors when Alcina and Mary reach the castle. As usual, he cuts an intimidating figure simply by standing, an utter stillness that’s almost unnatural and seemingly displaces him from the rest of his surroundings. His dark eyes lock with Alcina's from a distance, and Alcina has to, clench her jaw to fight the urge to look away. Aren’t young children taught not to look evil or bad things in the eye, for it will doubtlessly consume them whole? “Good afternoon, my Lord,” Alcina greets politely, dipping into a graceful and proper little bow. Brendan seems amused as he returns in kind, though far more muted than Alcina's own greeting. “I am to escort you to be introduced to the Captain Commander,” Brendan says instead of any further pleasantries. At Alcina's blank stare, Brendan adds, “He is the commander of the kingdom’s armed military forces, as well as the royal guards’ chief - and ther
Alcina's lips part in surprise. “The nomadic tribes, as it turns out, were more like a scattered - but numerous - group of companion settlements of horse-mounted warriors who were unnaturally skilled at the battle. In fact, many of our military’s leaders were killed in that conflict.” Brendan gazes off to the side, in Lincoln's direction. “Commander Lincoln, a low-ranking officer at the time, came into a leadership position of his own regiment.” “He won every single battle.” Alcina's gaze, wide-eyed and disbelieving, joins Brendan's on Lincoln's figure where he stands at the head of the training. “At eighteen, he managed to single-handedly turn the tides of a losing battle. Every brawl, every charge he led his regiment into, he emerged victoriously.” Brendan's lips twist into an amused little curve, as they come to a slow stop just a few feet behind Lincoln. “Lincoln is not known to possess a Gift, no.” Brendan's eyes fli
In the south, in a castle fortress that towers atop a rocky terrace, three men commence the planning of the war.“So House Clair has chosen to align itself with House Warner, then, with those animals” Duke Cedric drawls, a silken murmur. At the table’s head, he sits elegantly upon his chair, draped comfortably along one arm with his legs crossed.“It is more than I expected from them,” Lord Casper, Duke Cedric's younger brother, hums. “For a while, I rather surmised they’d attempt to refrain altogether and would have to be put down like the dogs they are once we’ve settled the dust.”Cedric's lips curve into a small, amused smile.For two men who’ve just learned that the last player on the board has chosen to join the other side, they are remarkably, unnaturally calm. To an observer, it may even appear that the members of House Albrecht seem almost pleasedat the outcome, as puzzling as it m
In the days following, Alcina tries to catch a moment alone with Lord Brendan to properly thank him for the books but finds the man’s presence to be difficult to find, you can as well describe him as almost nonexistent.She searched for the man in Library, at the battlegrounds, even in the Maze where she spent a minimum of time alone with the man, but it was like he has vanished into thin air.She doesn't even catch in during the night. When it's time for sleep, he is already in his side of the room, with a closed door.And Alcina still doesn't dare to enter the monster’s lair all alone in the darkness of this deadly night. Who knows what might be waiting for her at the other side of the room. So meeting Lord Brendan in his lair is out of choice.The only times she ever sees him are the spare few dinners they have together, forcibly ordered to by Alpha Warner, whose overwhelmingly jovial presence at dinner looms over any and all possibil
“Did she like the books, then?”Clang.Brendan grits his teeth and just barely manages to bring his sword up in time to avoid an untimely and particularly grisly death at the edge of Lincoln's blade.Lincoln - as per usual - is in irritatingly top form, as he whirls elegantly in circles around Brendan.Brendan's a skilled swordsman, and easily one of the most talented even among Lincoln's army’s ranks, but Lincoln himself has always been in a league of his own.On most days, it’s the reason why Brendan chooses Lincoln to be his sparring partner, to keep his skills sharp.On days like today, however, all it does is irritate his nerves at thebeaming smilethe Commander wears while they spar as if it takes no effort at all to strike Brendan to the ground.“I would think so, yes,” Brendan huffs, more out of breath than he cares to admit.He ducks, just a second before Lincoln's blade g
“I was wondering if you would like to visit the night market in town tonight.” Brendan askes.Alcina stares.Brendan shifts minutely. “It is an outdoor market, open twice a week at night. They have an interesting selection of stalls and crystal wares if you’d like to go.”Alcina's, eyes widening, nods her head so furiously, that Brendan mildly worries her neck might snap.“Yes, please,” she says, sounding painfully earnest. “That sounds magnificent, I’d love to-” Abruptly, Alcina's cheeks color, and she folds her hands carefully in her lap.“Yes,” she coughs, clearly embarrassed at her eager display.“Thank you for your kind invitation, Lord Brendan."* * * * * * * * * *The two of them take a small, compact carriage into town, manned only by their driver.A typical protocol would command at least a few guards, but Brendan had said that having