— Are you serious, Thiago? — I asked once I had regained my breath.
— I would never lie to those brown eyes — He responded.
— I'm not on your level — I said, attempting to gauge the reliability of his response.
— That doesn't matter! Thinking about that is almost blasphemy. How many women out there are willing for me just because of my money? What sense does that make? I don't want that anymore. I live it from my home. I don't need that, Lisa, only loyalty. Are you willing to submit?
Listening to him raised so many doubts, instead of confirming what I wanted, it left me even more confused, so I could only add, — Submit to what?
— To this game.
— Game?
— Yes, the game of loyalty, which can be very dangerous.
— I didn't notice you for your money — I added, as if he was questioning me about that.
— I'm not talking about money, but about how much loyalty you could offer, to this poor man surrounded by women who want to take advantage of him — he commented sarcastically.
— Is it necessary to sarcastically mention "women"? That's something I'm well aware of — I said, furrowing my brow.
— Loyalty, Mrs. Lisa, I ask for loyalty. I'm not interested in those other women similar to my wife. Can you give me that? — He continued with his humorous sarcasm.
— I'm not understanding you — I said, confused.
— What I need from you is just loyalty. I've discovered that your heart is noble, that you are kindness and love. I want that from you. Do you want to enter my game?
— I'm pregnant, and you're married — I repeated again because I didn't want to get entangled further or fill myself with more illusions. I felt like this was already going too far.
— Pff — He sighed. Damn obstacles! But what do you want, Lisa? Why do you look at me like that and respond to my kiss?
— Because I am kindness and love, peace and tranquility — I added, laughing.
— No, dear, really, why? How is it that you have the ability to make me sit here in a park I didn't even know existed?
— I didn't force you, you came.
— For the same reason, Lisa. What did you do to make me follow you?
— I don't know, Thiago, I don't even understand it myself. What's happening?
— You drive me crazy, how many times do I have to repeat it?
— And your wife, Thiago? — I asked seriously.
— She doesn't love me, and I don't love her. It's just an irony, a marriage for social compliance. Maybe before looking at her economic status and caring about what people would say, I should have known her cold, egocentric heart, so incapable of love.
His expression was pitiful. I saw the sparkle fade in his eyes, and his breath revealed regrets that deeply touched my heart.
— You're not happy, Thiago — I said with a sigh.
— I'm trapped in a golden cage that I no longer want. I just want to be free, for someone to finally look at me with love, like you do, like my mother did once.
— Esmeralda never did that, did she? — I commented in astonishment.
— She only sees what I possess with love, my fame, my cars, everything that can be bought with money. No matter how hard I've tried to melt her icy heart, I only end up hurting myself.
What he was saying was so intimate that it began to intrigue me. The strong and despotic man he showed at the company was nothing compared to the one I had before me. It was incredible how destiny placed us in a neutral place, so different from his world, so close to mine. I was lost in thought when he interrupted me.
— Do you want to be my refuge in this desert? — He asked.
— I'm afraid, Thiago — I said softly.
— There's nothing to fear except unhappiness.
— I know it well — I added.
— I promise not to hurt you.
— But you hardly know me — I commented and realized that even though my responses were ambiguous, or maybe almost reflexive refusals, I had to stand firm in my stance. I had to evaluate the situation well. After all, Hugo had said that rich and wealthy men were dangerous, and I couldn't let myself easily enter his game, as he casually called it, even though deep inside, I was dying to kiss him. I had already let myself go enough in the previous days.
— Since you arrived at the agency, I saw in you what I've already mentioned. You're capricious, wanting me to repeat the same thing over and over.
— No, it's not that. I just don't understand what you want — I said.
— Be my refuge, Lisa, just that. I don't care if you're pregnant, nor do I care about respecting my marriage, which is ultimately just a contract. She doesn't even respect me. The day you came to my office after the rain, I knew she had met an older man in Nuevo León. And here I was, suffering because the woman I hired to rent her womb didn't achieve fertilization. Esmeralda is just that, a precious stone without a soul. She doesn't care about what I want or how I feel — he explained calmly, as if he could trust me.
— How terrible! I wish I could tell you many things, but I don't know her — I said, somewhat fearful.
— I'm not lying to you, Lisa. Nor is it my intention to speak ill of her. But that's the truth. That's why I'd rather be here with you now than at home, where everything is empty.
I could perceive the sincerity in his eyes and in the way he spoke to me. He seemed so desolate, so lacking in love. Yet, at the same time, it was like getting to know the real Thiago, the fragile, human side of him that, beyond being a millionaire, was just a man like everyone else. Weak and, in the end, suffering just like me. All of this gave me enough confidence to ask more about him.
— And your family?
— I'm an only child. My father died when I was little, around 8 years old. From then on, his agency was transferred to my name. My mother died when I turned 20, on my birthday. That's why I married Esmeralda, as it was my mother's last wish. I married her two days before her death. She didn't want to leave me alone, as if that were the cruelest thing in life. Now I think that would have been the best. Then I could have you, and you could see me without fear — he said, getting closer to my face.
Listening to him was suffocating. One part of me compelled me to believe him, while another made me resist any illusions. — I'm not afraid of you, but of what I might feel — I said nervously.
— Just be my refuge — he whispered, his words like a purr in my ear, and he continued.
— A hidden refuge, Thiago — I replied, almost in tears.
— Why? — He asked, his eyes piercing me with anger as he stepped back.
— Because you're married, damn it! Whatever the reason, you're married. I'm not from your world, and soon I'll have a swollen belly that anyone will know is pregnancy. We could never be together in public, and I don't want that — I shouted.
— Yes, here together where no one from your world is seeing you. I don't want to be just another toy in your collection, Thiago. I also don't want to hurt your wife. Even though she's married to you for money, she holds the title of wife, and I don't intend to be your mistress — I replied, more upset. I even forgot when I had wanted to keep them apart. Everything was overwhelming now.
— My refuge, Lisa, my refuge, not my lover. Come on, just give me a kiss with those small, pink lips — he said as if what he was saying didn't matter, and once again, he stood in front of me with those eyes that felt like bullets in my chest.
I didn't know how to act around that man who had been driving me crazy from before and who now, so close to me, filled me with so much fear and confusion.
I woke up surrounded by luxurious lights and Thiago by my side.— What happened? — I asked after opening my eyes.— Oh, my dear, you're back. You fainted — he replied.— Why are you here? — I asked, puzzled.— I'll explain later, rest — he added in his sweet voice as he drove.I stabilized in no time; his voice transmitted peace and serenity to me. Then, I remembered the situation in the park, and once I regained my strength, I spoke.— Leave me here; I need to go home — I pleaded, still drowsy.— You need to rest, I can't leave you here. You'll come with me to another place — he replied, stroking my hair.Fear began to invade me, and even though I was madly in love with him, I knew that being together anywhere was dangerous for my emotions.— No, take me home — I yelled desperately, trying to open the door. He yelled too.— No, don't be like a spoiled child, listen to what I say.— What about Esmeralda? What if she sees us together? — I said, desperate.— Calm down, Lisa. It's not go
Who was I now, without cameras, without a cellphone, and without Thiago? I felt my stomach churning, the cold of loneliness. How was it possible for that wealthy man to ensnare me? It was already six in the morning when I decided to leave the park; going home wasn't a good idea. I could only make my way to Laura's house.— It's Lisa, open the door, please! — I shouted after knocking on the door repeatedly.— You're crazy! How dare you interrupt my sleep! — Laura said, still with disheveled hair, more asleep than awake.— I'm definitely crazy, — I replied and sat down sadly on her small couch.— You look like death, — my friend commented, looking at me perplexed. — Where did you wake up?— At a villa, I don't even know where, — I answered mechanically, as if I were a robot, completely absorbed.— Lisa, haven't you realized you're pregnant? What kind of mess are you in? — My friend scolded me, somewhat incomprehensible or incredulous.— In the mess called Thiago and his damn smile, — I
The cold of the early morning woke me up, filled with hallucinations. I rushed to the bathroom; urinary incontinence was bothering me. As I walked, I also felt nauseous and vomited like a dog. I looked at myself in the mirror and washed my face. That's when I decided that it would be best to accept Laura's proposal.— It's not your fault, Lisa, you won't be able to handle this, — I said to myself, looking pale in the mirror.When the clock struck seven, I got up, took a shower, found decent clothes, and styled my hair. Convinced of my decision, it was best to have an abortion to get my normal life back. That would be the only way to determine if I really had a place in Thiago's life, even though he was married.I headed to Thiago's office, but Madeline, the secretary, stopped me.— You can't go in, he can't see you right now, — she said, looking at me over her glasses.— He told me to come today for a photo session, — I said confidently, feeling strange because I usually entered witho
I despised myself for feeling that his sweet words were overpowering my strength, courage, and even my decisions.— Do you promise not to abandon me? — I said, completely submissive to his will.— Neither you nor that baby, — he replied, still holding me in his arms.— It's too heavy a burden, — I clarified, feeling sorry.— It doesn't matter; together we can bear it, — he said with his loving voice. That was the only thing that made me change my mind, to understand that if life had given me the chance to be a mother and had put someone in my path to help me, I shouldn't reject it. After all, I wasn't as alone as I thought.— I don't want you to break my heart. I don't want to feel tied to you without reason. This situation is so confusing, — I repeated, pleading.— Lisa, just understand that my intentions aren't to hurt you. I just want to help you. For now, I can't do more. I also like you, but I don't know if it's temporary or if it means something deeper. I'm also afraid you'll fa
I got out of there straight to the parking lot, but just as I was about to start my bike, I heard a voice:— Hurry up - He said to me almost in whispers from the window of his car.— I'm on my bike — I explained nervously.— Don't insist, we already talked about that you must take care of yourself, you can't use the bike for now — He explainedUnwilling to follow my strength I got on his Ferrari, full of nerves and completely anxious in case someone was watching us, he raised the car windows.— Calm down, everyone has already left — He said and his clarification bothered me a little.— So what are you hiding? — I askedHe couldn't answer me and just asked another question — Where do you live?— Main street, 42nd avenue. I'll give you directions when we're close.Thiago looked at me with anguish, I saw on his perfect forehead a little sweat, maybe he was afraid that someone would see us, or simply also for him it was incomprehensible what was happening to us, the great attraction we fe
— I can't, Thiago — I replied as I pushed him away from me. He got up angrily from the couch and walked towards the door. I remained seated, looking at him. I felt a knot in my throat choking me, and I silently cried after the sound of the door. The sound of the car confirmed his departure, and I felt devastated. The cold attacked my nakedness, and my strength as a woman was defeated. It was so difficult to give in to my instincts, and so easy to heed my conscience, to let the opportunity of my life slip away feeling completely rejected. I know what had happened wasn't right, but the truth was that nothing that was happening was right anymore. Still, I couldn't become just another one of his lovers, especially because, at his request, I had decided to continue with my pregnancy.I got up slowly, completely numb, and turned off the lamp. I picked up my clothes in frustration and headed to the bedroom. I lay down and felt a heavy weight on me. I reached out my arm to the empty space on
I took a shower, and I felt fresh—though not entirely beautiful. My self-esteem was faltering more and more, but it was my night, and I had to make it the best of all. Amidst all the chaos, there was something good, and that was the prize.Once ready in the most casual clothes I had, convinced that the agency would provide me with the right outfit, I took a taxi that promptly took me to Siluetas. I entered but didn't see Thiago anywhere. I went straight to Fernando's studio, who would be the one to get me ready. Sandra and Laura were also getting dressed for the award ceremony. They glanced at me as I passed, but they didn't dare say anything. They knew that I was now succeeding beyond their taunts and scorn. Their venom couldn't defeat me, and thanks to the photos I had taken of them, they could attend the most anticipated event at the agency.— Lisa, dear, congratulations, — Fernando greeted me with indescribable joy.I thanked him as I sat down. — Before we begin, I want to clarify
The ballroom was incredibly elegant with floor-to-ceiling glass windows, dazzling red carpets, a gleaming stage with massive floral arrangements on either side, and a sea of golden chairs. I had never imagined I could be in a place like this, that I would actually have the opportunity to win the Fotomodel award, a highly coveted accolade among photographers in the country. It was an overwhelmingly pleasant feeling, with butterflies in my stomach. I couldn't tell if it was because I had the most handsome man by my side or due to the anticipation of hearing my name in that beautiful hall.— This is Lisa Miere, a photographer from my agency and winner of the Fotomodel award, — he introduced me to each person. I shook hands with them, feeling very embarrassed, and smiled.Once he had greeted all his partners and friends, we took our seats in the front row, where a spot had already been reserved for us. Sandra and Laura looked at me with anger and envy. He introduced them too, but for most