I woke up in his arms. I can’t even really call them arms without it feeling inadequate. They are such huge, powerful wedges of muscles. The way he picked me up like I was nothing, his body twice as wide as mine. I’ve never known anything like it. Not once in my life, not even the cycle of women who raised me ever treated me so tenderly. Every kiss felt like a blessing. All the touches of his fingers, his hot searching mouth left me wanting more. I didn’t quake in fear or dread the next rabid crush of his flesh against mine. He was everything I never even knew I craved. By the time I asked for him to use his mouth, my wolf had ebbed into a satisfied lull. It was my craving then. I didn’t want the night to end. Watching him sleep, he is still fully clothed. The ripples of scars underneath his grizzled dark brown short beard and down his neck suggest his torso may be similar to my back. My scars are mainly from my teen years. I struggled to adjust to Corina’s sudden dislike of me. I
Little Lyra is just getting herself everywhere isn’t she. If she isn’t turning Declan into a lovesick, pining puppy for the past three weeks, now she’s fucked Howen in the Black Hall! That towel he wrapped around his hips reeked of her. Vile little runt. Except then his cheeky green eyes twinkle at me under all that fiery red hair. He loves seeing me jealous. I can't believe I called him Howdy, a pet name slipping out. I need to stop that straight away.He already knows I need him. I try to play the ice queen, like I could kick him out of my bed anytime I wanted. I think we both know that I would weep without those nighttime visits now. . I noticed Lyra giving Mara a raised eyebrow when changing my sheets the other day. Both of them want a good slap for their insolence. However, Declan and his council have banned such punishments, so I must bide my time. Howen’s straying doesn’t mean I didn’t love the Black Hall. I spent most of the time with a man who smelt of berries. Curly hai
After the shower with Declan we reluctantly parted. His hands siding over my body left me breathless when I should have been talking, telling him everything I felt. Confessing my secrets.But that would mean breaking this tiny moment of happiness. He gently stroked my cheek with a mournful expression before a batch of chefs clattered past. The Full Moon is very much over and I am reduced to being simply the daughter of his enemy all over again. Dressed in my tattered purple and gold-buttoned dress, my first thought was to give the herbs back to Reu. With a guilty, slinking walk I headed to the deputy’s rooms. Howen was thankfully not there, Corina apparently still keeping him occupied. The white-haired Reu sat hunched at his plain metal desk, scribbling in a leatherbound journal. “Hey,” he said softly. “Are you okay? You looking for Declan?” With trembling hands I placed the dried purple flowers on the desk. “I’m so sorry…I got desperate.” He shook his head, abandoning his writing
It’s only sixteen days and eight hours until the next full moon. Until I can hold her and adore her and pretend that we’re not stuck in this hellhole. Pretend that she isn’t heading for execution by my leaders when spring arrives. Pretend she isn’t the bloodline I dreamt about destroying.The more I think about it, the longer I spend smashing the home-made punching bag that has been hung in the repurposed Black Hall. Sweat drips down my body, frustration pouring out of me but never sated. Everyone here knows she is the daughter of Valdis. Howen has said more than once she is a bad seed, a reputation amongst the other workers.To try and distract myself, I attended the council meeting. Corina, dressed in a low-cut ruby silk sits at my side, assumes she is second in command. It doesn’t help that the gathering has to take place in one of Valdis’ old offices. It’s the only place with a table big enough. Standing around in a corridor is no good.“Sir…Alpha…I mean Declan,” Arlen spoke up, re
I had to seize this moment. The first time we had been alone together in over two weeks. To see him this agitated, pacing with his hands trembling awakens feelings of empathy. Over the years I have cradled Mara and others women through their suffering. I took beatings in their name rather than confirm their guilt. I did this out of guilt. I would never be in their shoes, a victim of Alpha Valdis’ savage lust. My guilt drove me to bathe their wounds and tend them, it wasn’t an act of love. I thought myself incapable of the notion, to be honest. Especially after Beta Ronan and those swirling tattoos travelling beyond his torso made it his mission to crush my belief in anything good. He once saw me tending to Mara, those long black coiled plaits trailing down his back and muttering, “rats are meant to eat the infirm ones, not help them,” before spitting on the sodden ground. Declan struggling like this, a tense beast of a man standing over me, wanting my affection, seeking my care le
I had no idea what to say, how can you describe the moment all of your dreams fall into place. I just nodded, allowing myself to smile and accept his soft kisses. “You’re very quiet, is this what you want too?” he murmured before I wrapped my arms around him huge shoulders. “Of course, I’m sorry yes. Yes!” my smile now so wide it started to hurt my face. “But we have to be a secret don’t we?” He sighed and clicked his tongue. “I may have just made a massive scene at the council about banning relationships,” and narrowed his dark eyebrows, “might have made an error there.” I shook my head, “I think I like it being just us, for a while, just…get used to the idea.” Sat on Corina’s bed I had a vision of her walking in and ruining everything. “I think we had better go, she’ll be back soon.” “Don’t go hiding from me anymore, okay? I don’t know how you manage to do it but sometimes it feels like you’ve escaped completely.” I blush, knowing that he means the occasions I am with Viktor,
She had it coming. From the instant I saw her draped all over Declan, in my room no less, she was headed straight for Ronan’s door. It was simply a case of timing. Last week I was trying to find Howen after the council meeting, wondering if he might have taken the initiative and headed to my room when I spotted them. I gasped but they didn’t hear a thing, so wrapped up in each other. Her legs wrapped around him more specifically. From the tiny slit in the door I left open I saw his dark eyes staring into her like she was some kind of innocent princess. She isn’t. She’s from the gutter. Her mother was a slave just like her. The fact her mother abandoned her and left her to the care of the other slaves, choosing to escape without her says everything. Yet Declan apparently adores her. If they are fated mates when we get back above ground I am dead meat. My father told me about Lyra’s mother ten years ago. Above ground, in his study, surrounded by trophies of war, booze and weapons
I was seething when Arlen showed me the missing food. Hastily ripped open parcels, just clumsy, selfish thieves.. “Sir, I have never known this happen before, obviously Valdis would have-” his pink, fleshy hands already quivering with fear. “I know what he would have done,” I growled darkly back before summoning everyone. Who would steal food? Who could be so selfish down here? Unfortunately, my mind initially turned to my fellow Rogues. Purely because those who have survived down here year after year know the dangers. They want the food to last. Then Fabian asked me to come check out something in corridor seven, the heating and pump rooms. Constant noise from the huge pipes and generators leaves my jaw clenched. It stinks like hell as Arlen, Sol, and the crew of identical looking shaven haired men with scared eyes constantly feed fuel and monitor the pressure. “We could have a better system. Surely they don’t all need to be in here. Especially since one pump is down. On a full mo