ログインI’m starting to leave things at his place. A hair tie on the bathroom counter. My cheap strawberry shampoo in his shower. One of my old hoodies folded on the chair because I got cold one night and he gave me his, so I left mine behind. Little pieces of me are spreading through his big, clean penthouse like I belong here.
I keep telling myself I don’t. It’s a Thursday night. I finished cleaning early and came straight over. Noah opens the door still in his work shirt, tie loose, looking tired but happy to see me. He kisses me hello like it’s the most normal thing in the world. We eat pizza on the couch, legs tangled, some cooking show on in the background. He laughs at something I say about a customer at the diner, and the sound makes my stomach flip. After, we take a long shower together. Water hot, steam everywhere. His hands slide over my wet skin, soaping my back, then my front. He spends extra time on my breasts—always does—thumbs circling until I’m leaning against the tile, breathing fast. We don’t even make it back to the bed before he lifts me, presses me against the glass wall, and slides inside slow. I moan into his mouth. He swallows every sound, moving deep and steady, hand still cupping me like he can’t let go. When we finish, my legs are shaking. He wraps me in a towel, carries me to bed, and holds me until we fall asleep. I wake up in the middle of the night to my phone buzzing on the nightstand. It’s face down, screen lighting up again and again. I reach for it, careful not to wake him. Unknown number. A picture message. I open it. My breath stops. It’s me and Noah. Last week. We’re leaving the building together late at night—his hand on the small of my back, guiding me toward his car. My head is turned up, smiling at something he said. His face is soft, in a way I’ve only seen when he looks at me. Below the photo, a text: Cute couple. How much does he pay you to smile like that? My hands go ice cold. The phone slips a little. I sit up fast, heart racing. Another message comes through. Don’t worry. Your secret’s safe… for now. I stare at the screen until it goes dark. Noah stirs beside me. “Lila? You okay?” I force a smile, turn the phone face down again. “Yeah. Just Jess from work.” He makes a sleepy sound and pulls me back down, arm heavy around my waist. “Come here.” I curl into him, but I don’t sleep again. All I can think about is that picture. Someone saw us. Someone knows. And tomorrow Grandma has a check-up. She’s been talking about meeting the “kind donor” who paid for everything, wanting to thank them in person. I press my face into Noah’s chest and try not to shake. Because if that photo gets out… Everything falls apart. Grandma will know. The world will know. And I’ll have to admit this stopped being just nights I sold a long time ago. To be continued…A week drags by like a month.I force myself out of the apartment. Walk to the corner store for milk. Apply for new jobs online. Sketch a little—the lines come out shaky, dark.Everything feels gray.Grandma tries to keep things normal. She bakes too much, fills the fridge with cookies and pies. We eat dinner together every night, talk about old TV shows—anything but him.But I see her watching me when she thinks I’m not looking.Worried.One afternoon, the doorbell rings.It’s a delivery guy with a plain brown box. No return address. Just my name.I sign for it with numb hands.Grandma raises an eyebrow. “What’s that?”“I don’t know.”I take it to my room and close the door.Inside: my sketchbook.The one I left at his place.And a thick envelope.And a smaller one with my name in his handwriting.I open the sketchbook first.He’s added pages.Sketches of me.One of me asleep on his pillow, hair everywhere.One of me laughing on the couch, mouth open mid-bite of pizza.One of me in h
It’s been five days since I sent the text.Five days of silence from him.I keep checking my phone like an idiot. Every buzz makes my heart jump—then crash when it’s just Jess or a bill reminder.Grandma doesn’t ask about him anymore. She just makes sure I eat, leaves tea by my bed, hugs me when I cry for no reason.I quit the diner job. Couldn’t face the stares, the whispers.The cleaning company let me go too—said it was a “conflict of interest” now that everyone knows I was sleeping with the boss.I’m back to nothing.But Grandma’s medicine is paid for months ahead.That’s something.Most nights I lie awake in my old room, staring at the ceiling. The bed feels too big. Too cold.I miss his arms around me.I miss the way he’d kiss my shoulder when he thought I was asleep.I miss how safe I felt.I hate myself for missing it.On the sixth day, I go to his penthouse.I don’t know why. I tell myself it’s to get my things—the hoodie, the shampoo, the sketchbook I left on his nightstand.
I don’t go to work the next day.I call in sick to both jobs. My boss at the diner says it’s fine, his voice careful like he’s seen the news too. The cleaning supervisor just says, “Take the time you need.”I stay in bed at Grandma’s, curtains closed, phone off.Grandma brings me soup at lunch. Chicken noodle—the kind she made when I was little and had the flu. She sets the bowl on the nightstand and sits on the edge of the bed.We haven’t talked about it yet.Not really.She smooths my hair back from my face. Her hand is gentle, but I flinch anyway.“Eat something, baby.”“I’m not hungry.”She sighs. “You’ve lost weight these past weeks. All that running around.”Because I was running to him, I think.Every night.The silence stretches. I wait for her to ask. To yell. To say she’s ashamed.Instead she says, “He seemed nice, from the pictures.”I sit up fast. “Grandma—”“I’m old, not blind.” Her voice is quiet. “The way he looked at you… that wasn’t just money.”Tears flood my eyes ag
:I can’t keep the phone quiet anymore.The messages come faster now. Every few hours. New pictures. Closer ones.One from inside the elevator my back against the wall, Noah’s hand under my shirt, my head tipped back, eyes closed. You can’t see much, but you can tell what’s happening.Another from the penthouse window blurry, taken from across the street with a long lens. Just shadows, but it’s us on the couch, me straddling him, his hands on my hips.Each one comes with words that cut deeper.Whore.Gold-digger.He’ll get tired of you soon.I delete them all, block the numbers, but new ones come.I stop sleeping.Noah notices. Of course he does.“What’s going on, Lila?” he asks one morning over coffee. His voice is gentle, but his eyes are worried.“Nothing. Just stress.”He doesn’t believe me. I can tell. But he lets it go.That afternoon I’m at Grandma’s. She’s in the kitchen making her famous apple pie—the one she hasn’t had energy for in years. The smell fills the whole apartment
I haven’t slept. The phone buzzes again under my pillow at Noah’s place. I grab it fast so it doesn’t wake him. Another unknown number. This time it’s a different picture. One from inside the building lobby two nights ago. Noah’s hand is low on my back, almost on my hip. My face is turned up to him, eyes soft, lips parted like I was about to say something sweet. He’s looking down at me the way he does when he thinks no one’s watching—like I’m the only thing in the room. The message under it: He used to look at his fiancée like that. Wonder what she’d think of you now. My stomach twists. I delete it quick, hands shaking. I’ve been deleting them for days. They come from different numbers. Always at night. Always with a new photo. Someone’s following us. Noah stirs beside me. “Lila?” “Go back to sleep,” I whisper. “Just work stuff.” He pulls me closer, arm heavy across my waist, and falls quiet again. I stare at the ceiling until the sun comes up. --- Tha
I’m starting to leave things at his place. A hair tie on the bathroom counter. My cheap strawberry shampoo in his shower. One of my old hoodies folded on the chair because I got cold one night and he gave me his, so I left mine behind. Little pieces of me are spreading through his big, clean penthouse like I belong here.I keep telling myself I don’t.It’s a Thursday night. I finished cleaning early and came straight over. Noah opens the door still in his work shirt, tie loose, looking tired but happy to see me. He kisses me hello like it’s the most normal thing in the world.We eat pizza on the couch, legs tangled, some cooking show on in the background. He laughs at something I say about a customer at the diner, and the sound makes my stomach flip.After, we take a long shower together. Water hot, steam everywhere. His hands slide over my wet skin, soaping my back, then my front. He spends extra time on my breasts—always does—thumbs circling until I’m leaning against the tile, breat







