The Bonfire

Yesterday my parents left for Russia. I laid in bed staring at the ceiling, like every morning I woke up.

Nobody has seen or heard from Cole ever since he left.

I miss him.

I keep replaying his words in my head. They cut me like a thousand knives. I'm certain that I love him more than I loved Ajay.

And now I think it's too late to tell him this. He'll probably just tell me that I'm lying.

Tonight is the night of the bonfire. The boys were right I've never been to one by myself. I always went with Ajay and when he died I simply stayed at home.

Ryan asked me to be his date so I agreed to go with him as friends. I'm waiting for Cole, I want to be with him and nothing is going to stop me from getting what I want. If I have to wait forever, I will.

I rolled out of bed, already one pm. I've been feeling depressed lately and I haven't been to school either.

Like I give a fuck.

I took a long shower to pass the time. I wrapped a towel around my body when I was done before going back to my ro