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Even if every step I take causes me to feel ill and exhausted, there is nothing I can do except walk and continue until I reach my objective, where there is no end in sight.

"This is a miserable existence." Laughing, I sit in the beach, staring at the blackness of the sky and every wave of the sea that soothes me, and with a cool beer in my hand and a cigarette by my side, I enjoy the moment.

I grinned and reached for my lighter, the cigarette lighter that doubles as a nightly warmer for me.

Perhaps my physical strength is superior to my emotional strength, but when it comes to emotion, I am lacking. I still remember the girl who made me feel weak in the knees. I became unexpectedly weak, and sometimes much worse, I was able to demolish things in a short period of time.

Unquestionably my first love, Shello was an important part of my life, but although she already had him and me, he decided to leave and go with that other lady.

Scott is still in my possession, but I feel sad for him.