NOVAI spent the weekend locked in my room, I didn't want to see anyone or speak to anyone. May kept blowing my phone off and also Kelsey, it got so bad that at some point I had to turn off the phone. I was so overwhelmed with a lot of emotions that I couldn't process. I shouldn't be mad at Kelsey . She didn't have anything to do, it was her mom who was mean to me not her but I still didn't want to say anything to her and that made me feel like a horrible person.I got ready for school, the week ran by really fast and the Monday that looked so far away was finally here. I decided to keep going, I havent gotten a reason to call it quit just yet. I was optimistic about the day, I decided to lock my mind and thoughts out and just go on with the day, put everything behind me and act like they never existed. I cried and cried and nothing changed. I couldn't keep wallowing in it.“Morning Mom” I greeted not looking her in the eyes as I walked out“Nova” she called my name, I turned to look
DYLANIt had to be a miracle that I survived a month of misery and still kept my sanity. I have never been happier to return to school seeing my father every day and riding with him to work and just being around him made me feel like I was losing my damn mind. He was down my throat every time and was at every corner I turned to. I kept hoping he would leave and be out of my face soon but the whole month went by and he was there. I was counting the days as they slowly went by like someone locked up in a jail cell. Every day felt the same and I kept counting down the days on my calendar hoping it would go by faster. I wanted to leave that place so badly.Being around him and seeing what his company was really like only made me more sure of one thing, I didn’t want anything to do with it. It was hectic and cold. Everyone walked around like robots doing whatever they were told without a smile or even a word. It felt lifeless. Like the only thing that mattered was getting the job done and
I didn’t wait for May to catch up with me. I didn’t even look back. My legs moved faster than my thoughts and my heart was pounding like it was trying to get out of my chest. My hand was shaking as I raised it to wave down a taxi and when it finally stopped in front of me I yanked the door open and got in. I could hear her voice calling out to me from behind but I didn’t answer. I just slammed the door shut and mumbled my address to the driver. I curled into myself at the back of the cab, my fists clenched on my thighs so tight my nails dug into my skin. My eyes stared blankly out the window but all I could see was her face, her voice, the hate and anger in her eyes, the way her words pierced through my heart. It repeated over and over again they echoed in my head until I thought I would lose my mind. There was a tightness in my chest like something was pressing down on it and I couldn’t breathe properly, I kept staring at the window to distract my mind but nothing was working. I di
Somehow I survived the week without much scratch to the heart as days went by the buzz surrounding me died away little by little, the eyes and whispers reduced and by the middle of the week everyone was busy doing their own thing and didn't care about my presence anymore, I couldn't be more happy. The only thing that still stood out was bumping into Caleb or Elliott and they try to act friendly or when they have their eyes fixated on me like they were watching me. I wanted to shake it off but it was there and obvious as hell. So I did the best thing I could do, ignore them every chance I got.I was not so positive about returning to school for good because the suspension was ending the following week and once Amelia and Dylan were to return. I couldn't predict what was going to come out of it but one thing I was certain about was the stares I got would return and my name would return on every freaking person's lips.“What do we do this weekend?” May asked“Stay home and recharge from
I said my goodbye to May and headed for my first class, I sat in corner with eyes glued to my desk but that didn't help I could feel the eyes thatfollwowd me as I took a seat and their whispers clouded my mind, I tried to block the voices out but it was got louder and louder. I kept tugging at the sleeves of my sweatshirt to avoid any peeking of the scar left on my wrist.The bell rang and more people rushed in their eyes traveling in my direction as they trooped in. Some looked surprised to see I even showed up at all. The teacher walked in and stood in front of the class, his eyes scanned the class for a moment then landed on me“Welcome back” he simply said making the whole class head to turn to my direction, I cowered where I sat hoping the chair would swallow me.Even when the teacher started taking the class, some people were still taking peeks at me and whispering, not paying mind to what the teacher was saying. I couldn't even bring myself to focus when my heart was racing a
May agreed to stop by my house early so we could ride to school together. I needed to learn how to drive so I could stop being an inconvenience to others.“Mom I am out” I rushed downstairs after getting a call from May that she was outside“Is the driver taking you?” she asked“No, I am going with May,” I told her“May? Here have your lunch” she handed it to me and I just tossed it in my bag not checking what she packed for me“That is an extra hour drive for her just to get here,” she told me“I know, she offered,” I said“You need to get your license,” she told“ I know that too Mom” I rolled my eyes “Have a great day” she called after me as I rushed through the door“Hey love,” I said as I got into the car“Thank you for picking me up” I smiled“Nah it is all good,” she said“You look so good,” I said smiling at her, She looked a lot more relaxed and like herself again. She had her hair in two high ponytails and the purple highlights she had in the front and at the tips of her ha