My heart is already beating. I don't know why but the moment I open my eyes and look onto the ceiling I just don't want to get out of i.And that there is no need for me to let out another bit of my energy because I've come so far to be disappointed. And even when I feel as if I've struck something, something that looks like healing. It isn't. Oftentimes, I feel so confident like I'm at 95% but when but when in reality of exposes where I am comes, it back to me. I feel alone. “Tired, frustrated.” Words cannot express how I feel at this moment. There is a slight knock at the door when I'm busy in my morning thoughts that wish to cripple me. At least that is what they're good for. I raise myself up from the bed and push the blankets away. I do not bother to change into something the night before because of how horrible I feel. I'm just in the same position as I head to the door and I open it. For some reasons, I am not surprised by the person standing right in front of me. He look
He lets me go the moment he sees what I have turned to. I can already guess what he has seen.I have been so stupid with myself, vulnerable in front of me, but I did not think that my powers will show up once again, while I'm busy in act which it is no as I expected. It just happened. It looks to me. There's no word that has escaped from his mouth. And I bet because he's trying to understand what the hell I am and why I am the way I am. I cannot even begin to explain what I think it is. I wonder if it is fear or shock that is in his eyes as he looks at me. Then, he takes his finger slowly lifts it up to my face and touches to glow on my forehead. It touches it and there is this look in his eyes that gives off the hair of infatuation of admiration and just surprised of what he's saying it makes it feel as if what he's seeing right now is splendid.“It is beautiful. “And I'm looking short of it. He then takes a look into my eyes. I don't think I'm aware of I say to him, and this is
“When you are ready to talk about what that means to you, then maybe I will be ready too.“To talk about what we mean to each other and why you think we must stay together to be attracted to one another.”I'm not saying we have to be attracted to one another. “I'm just trying to activate…” He says, and I stop him from speaking.Activate, whatever! I really don't care what word you use to put it in. It is the same thing that you think you even gave a right to. It may not matter to you because you're a guy or maybe it's a guy code or whatsoever but I really do value myself. “It may not seem so because I've tried to kill myself on many occasions, but I love myself so much that I will not watch myself.”“Go, hop and jump around life alone doing god knows what just to survive.” “So, I'm just going to say to you I do not trust this thing that you think is going to set me apart from others.”“Yes, even after all of these they have shown me I don't know what to believe.” I say to him and I
So, after listening to their conversation for about a minute, I can see that there is silence between the both of them and at this point, they're both waiting for the next person to say the wrong thing. And neither of them wants to be the one who's bold enough to put what they feel in their mind out there. I believe it is time they deserve privacy and I should have given it since the very beginning of their conversation. In fact, it feels like Elena hates me and has been pretending. I simply cannot blame her for pretending to like me. I mean, I don't even know myself enough to like myself. So, hoping that someone else is able to manage my presence here is unbelievable. I can understand it. I've come here and I've stolen what used to be a hers and honestly it is an impeccable thought. How could I think so? I wonder to myself. Am I really capable of taking something that belongs to someone else? Especially when all the things I've ever wanted has never come to me? It is such
I have been in my room throughout the entire time after the conversation/witness.Honestly, everything that happens is just like some kind of drama. And today's a new episode, and I've decided not to go to school. So, as I listened to it, it's just that I don't have the strength to actually take myself to school once again, and be part of the bullies and Max stone and everything surrounding being the high school student. Of course, I didn't miss it sometimes, but I've just realized the disadvantages that actually come with school, when it is actually tiring to have to be strong every single day. What unfolded between Dane and Elena today is nothing more than a horrible eyesore to me, honestly. She can tell swiftly that doesn't want to have anything to do with her. And if anybody did have something to do with each other, it is past. I hate to be the one to break it, but it's not as if I have such a shot at being in his life. I'm just something he met at the way and stuck. I don't
My heart started racing immediately the moment I remember what happened. I open my eyes and I try to move my fingers immediately to remember, if I can feel myself. This is the worst thing that could ever happen to someone. It is such an insane amount of pressure, electricity and power, it came right through and still thinking that you're not able to stop yourself.I against everyone that comes in my way but then I was saved and rescued by someone who I definitely hated. He is someone that definitely makes me question my defenses and I do not even know how to talk myself out of what I'm feeling right now. I thought I had nothing to do with him anymore. I thought this was the end of our story, especially when I told him that everything he said was false. All he said about being attracted and being able to call upon my wolf. I told him it was all lies, but it turns out it wasn't, there is something magnetic about that brings me towards him and I have gotten the better idea of that b
Are you okay? This is the first thing on my mind as Dane walks into the room, and he looks at me for a very good time. I wonder what he is about to say to me but then, he says nothing immediately. He is not going to shout at me and tell me that I have done messed up. I should have stayed inside and controlled myself and any of that but when I remember the way he came towards me and helped me.I realize that he's not hold bad as I think he is. I want to think of him in the worst way possible. I truly do want to but every single time he finds a way to make me feel different about what I set my mind upon. It makes me look back and just see the good in him and so, he steps into the room. I look at him and he smiles at me.How do you feel? He says and I'm so shocked by the fact that he's smiling at me. I don't even know what to say in this moment. I'm just truly shocked about the whole thing and I have nothing else to do than to watch him. Watch me! I'm perfectly fine. I say to him e
Why is it that you feel suffocated? Dane says to me, and I let go to folk to look at him.“I don't even know how to reply to that question because my whole existence has been suffocation.” I've been suffocated by everything and everyone at every single area of my life.It has been nothing new. “It has been nothing different and neither will it be by this time.” I want to answer that question and tell him…obviously.I do not even have the strength to make him not see through me. I am obviously going through something tremendous and I don’t need words to let someone else see it. Instead, I nod my head and I agree with him, it is what I'm going through. I’m stupid for asking! “Of course, I know what you are thinking about.” Dame says.I nod my head so that he cannot know how it feels. It's not some kind of thing that everyone is able to understand. I wouldn't even wish it on my enemy. “That is how bad it has gotten.” I think to myself and push the plate aside because at this point I