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It is as if he understood and that is shocking. How would he understand? He doesn’t even know me. I let go of him as we both stand at the staircase and I let go of his sleeve that I didn’t even realize I was holding.

“I’m…I’m so sorry.” I say, am slipping on my sentences and still trying to hold onto false bravery. I look at him and wonder why he is quiet at the scene I have caused.

I need him to say something to at least save me face it his moment where all of my walls are all coming down.

“You should go back up and rest.”

“I will have the pack doctor come check on you.” He says to me and his voice is lacking arrogance or anything that shows we hate each other. As if he can sense all of my distresses and puts all of our differences aside.

I nod my head after he speaks; there is nothing to say because in this secondi have realized that Dane is not so horrible. I can adjust and find out what and who I really am if he is at my side. Maybe, it will somehow be a consolation of his brother did everything in his power to protect me.

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I received treatment from the doctor that Dane brought to treat me and I feel much better. It’s not just being physically better but I feel like my heart is in a better place than where it used to be.

I head out of the room in the afternoon of the next day in a better mood. I can hear Dane having some conversation with some others who are in the room and it is time I stopped hiding myself and give myself a chance to do life again.

I wanted to reach back to my friend but my phone has been damaged since the time I fell into the river. Dane does not see me immediately and he is still speaking to some others.

I clear my throat and he turns to my side, he was folding his hands before but now that he is facing me. He relieves his hands and adjusts himself.

Weird.

“I need a new phone.” Can I use your car? I say to him and he is quiet at first.

Is it that shocking that I am not fighting my way out of this place and have accepted that I will give my life a chance to find out why there are many things wrong with me.

“I also need some things apart from that and I do not wish to disturb you.” I say feeling a bit awkward because of what too place between us a day ago.

“I will come to with you.” We have news of packs roaming around our territory. It’s better if I come with you. Dane says and I nod my head.

In a few minutes, I head out of the house with him into his jeep and i take my place at the driver’s seat. For the first time, I realize something about him that I had never taken into notice before and that is, his scent.

The hint of lavender, forest, rain…how could I have missed a scent like that. Yesterday, when I hugged him, I got all of it and it still reminds me of the moment. I obviously, pretend like his scent doesn’t do anything to me even when it wrecks my opinion of him.

“I believe you are feeling better.” I have banished the three people who broke into your room and I have used it as an example to the rest of the pack member.

I literally forgot about that because I was so involved in the other part of what happened the previous day.

Who were they to your brother? I ask and he doesn’t take his eyes off the steering reel.

“Pack members.” He replies, bluntly and I wonder if I should not have asked anything pertaining to his brother.

“What you said about me starting again.” Do you even think it is possible? I mean…there are wolves looking for me and your pack hates me. It will be hard to keep me protected from all of these…how can I continue looking over my shoulders?

“That is why we need to help you connect to your wolf.” Dane says and I look at him in confusion.

“My father always told my brother that he would be mated to a luna, he was supposed to be the one who broke your curse and connected to be your luna.” It was decided by my father and your grandparents.

“You were luna even before an alpha chooses you to be his mate.” He says and this time he takes his eyes off the steering to look at me.

“I didn’t believe any of it was true, even at this moment, I am only believing this because my brother lost his life in the process and I cannot let it all go to waste.” There must be something special about you, be it a curse or blessing.

I am gazing at him at the spur when he says that.

How can I connect to my wolf? I can’t change at full moon or any other time but yet I carry this on my forehead. I ask as he drives into the freeway and breeze of the environment tamper with my ginger hair.

“My wolf…my wolf has to help you find yours.” Dane stutters when he says that and I wonder why.

What do you mean? I ask using my hand to put my hair behind my ear and I face him.

“One of his hands holding the steering catches me off guard because of how masculine it is and I bite my lips unconsciously before focusing on what is at hand.”

“We have to sleep…with one another.” He says and my face drops in devastation.

I am quiet after he says that. It’s not as if I have nothing else to say but really, what is the possibility that it would be to sleep with him? How can it take such a turn?

“Your brother never…” I want to say but I don’t even know how that would sound.

“Yes, you weren’t of age yet.” Dane says and my brows rise in realization.

Is that the only way? I say.

I cannot stand the awkwardness and embarrassment that comes with the moment that I just want to bury myself somewhere to hide the bloody shame.

“I guess…since my brother waited so long.” He says and I just can’t relax my back on the car seat no more. Fortunately, we get to the mall and he parks the car. I set out of the jeep immediately and wrap my hands around myself to somehow help myself.

He is walking behind me when we enter in to the mall and I just roam in to the aisle to get the things that I need. I get some essential products and then I realize that i didn’t grab a basket but when I turn around to do so.

Dane is right behind me carrying the basket that I needed and I drop the new panties that I grabbed from the clothing section into it. I didn’t realize he was following me but of course, he is protecting me.

This is another phase of awkwardness because I’m watching him stare at my very own panties in slow motion.

“I…um”

I say but he interrupts me.

“You don’t have to explain why you need this, Maria.” Dane says and I nod my head in agreement as I try to take the basket from him and accidentally touch his hand in the process.

I fidget and walk away to avoid another phase of being awkward as I legit run hoping to lose him but hey, he is alpha and I cannot lose him easily. I get a new phone and we head back into the car.

Throughout, I haven’t said another word to him from being bombarded in many occasions that are just so unbearable to her and hopefully, him too. I am surprised because he is carrying a bunch of what I got from the mall and keeps them in the booth of the jeep.

I wait to make sure he can do it all on his own and when I see that he is very capable of doing so, I enter into the car and watch as he heads to the driver’s eat and begins the ride.

And to be honest, looking back to what I’ve been running away from two weeks ago, it doesn’t seem like a bad idea that I was caught. It really doesn’t.

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