Mag-log inChapter Nine
The hospital waiting room smelled faintly of antiseptic and something citrusy. Maxine sat nervously, fingers laced over her growing belly, trying not to fidget. Her mother sat beside her, flipping through a glossy magazine, clearly trying to appear casual, but Maxine could sense the tension between them like a silent wall. It had been there for months now.
The nurse finally called her name, and Maxine stood up slowly, smoothing down her loose maternity tunic. Her mother followed, silent but present, as they walked down the pale corridor to the ultrasound room.
The scan room was dimly lit, the screen already humming with static. Maxine lay back on the table and lifted her top as the technician applied the cool gel to her stomach. Her mother moved closer, standing at the side of the bed, eyes fixed on the screen.
"Let’s take a look," the technician said, her voice warm. Moments later, the flickering image of a baby filled the screen. Maxine’s breath caught.
There was the baby—her baby—tiny hands curled into fists, a little spine like a string of pearls, and the unmistakable flutter of a heartbeat.
"Looks healthy. Everything seems perfectly normal for a 20-week scan. You’re doing great," the technician said.
Maxine blinked quickly. Her mother sniffed beside her and whispered, "He’s growing so fast."
Maxine turned her head. "You’re still calling the baby ‘he’ even though we don’t know the gender."
Her mom gave her a faint smile. "It’s just a hunch."
After the scan, as they walked out toward the car, Maxine turned to her.
"Has Dad said anything about me?"
Her mother hesitated. "He’s still upset, Max. He doesn't say much, but I know he’s hurting. He’s proud, you know how he is."
"I didn’t want to disappoint him," Maxine said quietly.
"You didn’t. He just needs time to see that."
They parted ways near the metro station. Maxine had classes that afternoon, and she didn’t want to miss them. The weight of her pregnancy already felt like a constant physical reminder of everything that had changed, and she needed to keep a part of her normal life intact.
When she stepped onto the campus, something felt different.
She could sense it in the way heads turned slightly when she walked past.
People whispered just out of earshot, their eyes flickering from her face to the curve of her stomach. She kept her chin up, walked confidently, but inside she felt raw, exposed.
No one said anything directly, but the shift was unmistakable. She wasn’t just Maxine Green the art student anymore. She was the girl with a belly. The girl who kept a secret for too long. The one people had started making stories about.
Her steps quickened until she reached the familiar lecture hall, where Kristen sat sprawled out on her usual seat with her tablet, chewing on the end of her pen.
Kristen looked up the moment Maxine entered, and her whole face lit up.
"There’s my baby mama," she said teasingly, standing and throwing her arms around Maxine in a warm, protective hug.
"Everyone’s looking," Maxine muttered into her shoulder.
"Let them," Kristen whispered back. "You’re stunning and glowing and a literal goddess. They’re just jealous."
Maxine laughed softly, pulling away. "Don’t lie. I look like I haven’t slept in days."
"You probably haven’t," Kristen said, ushering her to sit beside her. "But I’ll still hype you up until you start believing me."
Maxine dropped her bag and took her seat, grateful for Kristen’s presence. Despite everything—despite how her life had spun off into chaos—her best friend remained a steady, unshakable constant.
They spent the class half-listening and half-scribbling notes, occasionally whispering little jokes. The familiar rhythm helped soothe Maxine’s nerves. Being there, surrounded by pencils and sketchpads, felt like slipping into a version of herself she missed.
After the lecture, Kristen looped her arm through Maxine’s. "Wanna grab lunch? I’m craving fries. And don’t even try to say no. I saw you gagging at the smell of cafeteria curry."
Maxine rolled her eyes, but smiled. "Fries sound good."
They walked out together, past the eyes, past the whispers. Kristen didn’t let go of her arm.
Maxine realized in that moment that whatever came next, she wasn’t alone. And sometimes, that was all she needed to keep going.
The moment they stepped out of Noah's room and closed the door quietly behind them, Thomas pulled Maxine into his arms. Before she could react, he kissed her. It was rushed. It was the kiss of a man who had been waiting all week to see her.Maxine froze for a heartbeat before she kissed him back. She could feel the smile tugging at his lips."I missed you," he murmured against her forehead."For this whole week."The confession warmed her heart. A few months ago, if someone had told her she would be standing in Thomas's house, hugging him willingly, she would've laughed at them. But here she was.She didn't regret it. She smiled softly."Let's get some fresh air."Thomas nodded. He followed her to the backyard beside the living room. The rain had stopped hours ago.The ground was still damp. The night air was cool.The garden lights illuminated the neatly trimmed grass and the newly planted flowers that Maxine herself had chosen during their shopping trip.Thomas noticed her looking
Maxine and Noah got into Thomas's car as they had planned to spend the weekend with him. The moment Thomas saw her walking toward him, a grin spread across his face.Maxine shook her head."Why are you smiling like that?""Because you came.""As if I had a choice. Noah has been counting days to see you."Thomas glanced at Noah through the rearview mirror."Is that true?""Yes!" Noah exclaimed. "I even drew a calendar."Thomas laughed.Maxine couldn't help smiling.She leaned closer and placed a brief kiss on his cheek.Thomas froze.His eyes widened slightly.It was such a simple gesture, but it caught him off guard.Maxine immediately regretted it."I—"But Thomas was already smiling again, this time like an idiot."You kissed me.""Drive the car.""You kissed me first.""Thomas."He chuckled and started the engine.Before leaving, Maxine turned around.Her mother stood at the porch, watching them.The older woman smiled knowingly and waved.Maxine sighed.Ever since she returned fro
Maxine returned to her ordinary life. Or at least, she tried to convince herself that it was ordinary.Every morning she woke up, prepared Noah for school, drove to work, talked to her parents, and returned home in the evening. Everything was exactly the same as before.Except her heart. It had become restless. Sometimes while sketching, she would suddenly remember Thomas speaking fluent French to a waiter in Paris.Sometimes she would remember the way he held Noah's hand while crossing the road.And sometimes... she remembered the way he looked at her the night they made love. As if she were the only good thing he had ever found in his miserable life.Maxine sighed and closed her sketchbook. This was ridiculous. She was living in some kind of fairy tale.A dangerous fairy tale. The hero wasn't a prince. He was a criminal. A man who carried scars on his body and secrets in his heart. A man who had enemies she couldn't even name.The first time she met him after years, someone had trie
Thomas opened the champagne bottle. The soft pop echoed in the balcony. He poured a glass for her."Thank you."She took a sip. The drink was sweet.The city sparkled before them. And suddenly, he asked, "You said once that you wished things were normal between us."Maxine froze."If they were..."His voice softened."Would you choose me?"She looked at him. Those eyes. That sincerity. That impossible longing.Slowly, she nodded.Thomas stared at her. His heartbeat became uneven."You still like me?"Maxine laughed quietly."I don't know why.""It's stupid.""It isn't.""It is."She sipped her drink. Avoiding his gaze."But it's not significant.""It is."His voice was firm. She looked at him."I love you, Maxine."She froze."Ever since the moment I saw you."His eyes never left hers."I wish I could be with you and Noah.""I wish I could have that family.""I wish for that normal life too."His voice broke ever so slightly. Maxine looked away. Because she wished for it too. And that
The rest of the morning passed like a dream Maxine hadn't planned for.Thomas insisted on taking them around the city, and somehow she found herself agreeing without much protest. Perhaps it was because Noah was excited beyond words, or perhaps because Paris had softened her heart enough to let her forget her fears for a while.They first visited the museum Maxine had wanted to see ever since she booked this trip.The Louvre.The glass pyramid gleamed beneath the pale morning sky, and Noah tilted his head so far back that he almost lost his balance."It's huge!" he exclaimed.Thomas caught him by the shoulders. "Careful."Maxine smiled watching them.Inside, Noah quickly grew bored of paintings and sculptures, but Maxine didn't.She wandered through the galleries in awe. Ancient Greek statues. Massive oil paintings depicting wars and kings.Portraits so lifelike they looked as if they would blink at any moment.Thomas followed beside her patiently."You like paintings?" he asked."I d
The next morning, Maxine woke up to the faint sound of rain tapping against the hotel windows.For a few blissful seconds, she forgot where she was.Then she saw the unfamiliar ceiling above her, the soft cream-colored curtains swaying with the breeze, and the Eiffel Tower peeking through the glass doors leading to the balcony. Paris.A smile slowly appeared on her face.Then, like a stubborn memory refusing to leave her alone, Thomas.She sat upright on the bed.Last night. His call.I'm in Paris too.Maxine groaned softly and covered her face with her hands.Why was he here?More importantly, why was she nervous about meeting him?She wasn't supposed to care.She had spent months convincing herself that Thomas was dangerous, unreliable, and someone she should keep away from.And yet... the moment she remembered his voice from yesterday, her heartbeat became slightly irregular.Annoying. Very annoying.She reached for her phone on the bedside table. No missed calls. But there was a m
Maxine sat in the driver’s seat, staring at the road ahead with both hands clenched tightly on the steering wheel. Her knuckles had gone pale, but she barely noticed. Her heart had been heavy all morning, weighed down by the thought of what she was about to do. Noah, sitting in the back seat, swung
Kristen reached out her hand as soon as she saw Maxine, her eyes bright with the kind of warmth only an old friend could bring after years apart. But instead of pulling Maxine into an embrace right away, Kristen crouched down and opened her arms wide toward Noah.“I missed you!” she exclaimed, her
Maxine sat in the library with her laptop open, her textbooks stacked high around her, but she wasn’t reading. Her pen had been hovering above her notebook for the last ten minutes, unmoving. The words on the page blurred in front of her eyes, replaced by the same relentless thought that had been h
Maxine sat in her room with her books scattered across the desk, but her eyes weren’t focused on a single word. The notes in front of her blurred into meaningless scribbles, her mind preoccupied with the weight of everything that had happened in the past few weeks. The confrontation with Thomas at







