When I was nearly seventeen, I lost my heart. To the world, it's barely the start of my life, which is ironic because I only saw a brick wall and nothing to live for. I finally had reasons to give up on life. My fears of never being able to escape from my father's assualt were assuaged. I could not care less, so long as I was leaving the earth. I was going to... do it.
With enough years gone by, I look back on them and smile, not truly though. You know that smile you give yourself just to make yourself believe that things may get better in the future. The past few years of my life hasn't been funny enough to allow for a single smile. I've grown to believe that's how 'life' is and will ever be. I've thought a lot about the cause of my problem. It's hard to discern who is to blame. I blame myself most times (so thoughtless of me). A part of my mind maintains that I caused it. I did many things, most of them not worth any punishments but in my world, everything single thing counts. My sudden misfortune started the day I decided to go against my father's stringent rules. Another says it began when I got a diary. Maybe having something to talk to made a difference.However, if I take a broad view of things, I'd say it began when the first day I got into my eighth School, Mcade high. Eighth school? I'm not a bad student and I've never gotten expelled. Jude Kam changes my school whenever he wants to.That cold summer morning, I stood outside my new school, with little hope of a good day. I've had numerous 'first days' and I know how they usually end-- bad.At sixteen, I was a bit older, five foot eight, a thick brown hair and ugly brown eyes. I couldn't understand why I was so conspicuous. My cat eyed glasses makes thing worse. I wasn't the only one who lingered at the concrete pavement in front of the school and it all seems like they were all chitchatting about me. A loud buzzer had rang to remind us that we were in school. I trotted along the school aisle, adjust my eyeglasses at every interval, my bad habit. That gets people thinking that I'm a nerd but they always get disappointed when they realize I have nothing upstairs—i mean my brain's empty. My class, senior high-class three was the last room on the main block. There was a security man at the aisle, dress more like a policeman. His gaze was fixed on me as I approached him and that only got me nauseous."New student?" He asked." Yeah" he ran an hanhepd scanner up and down my body." Student ID?" He questioned.I was puzzled. " What? ""Your identity card. Where is it?"I had no idea. I've never used any. It's the first middle class private school I've ever attended. "I don't know what you are talking about and I don't have it." I blurted out.The guard frowned. " You should always be with your ID. What kind of student are you?"I was dumb." What class…""Senior class 3"He picked up his cb radio and spoke into it."Class president, come take one of your students to detention now. Hallway 3G5."Weird."Wait here. Don't move." He addressed me. I wanted to argue or at least ask what detention meant but my guts didn't let me. After a while, a guy, also a student, joined us."New student without her ID. take her to the principal."The guard instructed him and he just nodded."Newbie. Follow me."He said. He had this cold but stunning look that could sweep any girl of her feet. As I walked behind him, I could not help but notice his stylish or rather arrogant gait. He's a class president anyway. "Where are you taking me to?"I asked. He was walking too fast and I wanted to slow him down a bit with small talks. Besides, it's my first day and I'm getting into 'detention', how unlucky? "Principal's office. You'll get your punishments there."He said nonchalantly. There's something about his voice, or maybe the way he speaks that irritates me. I saw myself getting more pissed as time passed. No, it's not him. It's the school, I haven't spent a day in it and I was already getting into trouble. I had a feeling it's going to be the worst school ever. " Well, I'll be done with highschool soon" That was enough consolation.He stopped at a glass door and turned to face me."I'm Damien. Your class president."He said. "Your name?""Paige."I winced. He pushed the door open and walked in. He sat on the couch at the reception area and asked me to go into the office myself."I'll be waiting here for you."He had said.A blonde woman, probably in her fifties or sixties sat at the table. Her black hair was tied in a ponytail and her face -- revealed her make up was done by a quack. I felt a little pleased that I've found someone who I can brag to be better than in looks. She had this stagnant frown on her face that made my heart shake at the realization that she would have to give me a punishment. She had her eyes fixed on her laptop and I had to announce my presence."Good day. I..." I trailed off while her huge almond eyes met mine."What do you want?"She asked."I was asked to come here. I don't have an ID."I paused, waiting for a response but she had resumed back to her typing. 'Bit what's with this woman?!' I screamed in my head."I was asked to get punishments from you.""What's your name? What class? Have I seen you in this school before?""No. I'm new. Paige Kam." I saw her face brighten, a sly smile played around her cheek."Kam? Have your sit kiddo" She shoved aside her laptop. I wasn't surprised. She must have met my dad."It's not your fault. Your ID card is here."She opened a drawer and brought out the 'Almighty' identity card that almost got me into trouble on my first day in this strange school."Keep it well, huh? Welcome to Mcade high."She smiled. "You can go back to your class now.""Send my regards to your uncle."She said as I unlocked the door to get office.That got me off the hook. Uncle? Jude Kam is so unpredictable! I was lost in my own maze of thought that I forgot they was a chair at the reception and I tripped on it, falling on cold flesh. It's Damien and I fell right on his chest, our innocent eyes locking in a funny knot. Time stopped.His black hair reached his shoulder. His skin -- olive tone. His grey eyes...my heart skipped multiple beats. It wasn't until he snapped his fingers across my face that I realized the position I was.I jumped off his body. Embarrassed, I hurried to the door. School that day wasn't any better than I'd projected but a bit different. I had something to think about, my brain only had one question in it: "What was that Paige?"It was later that day I discovered that Damien was actually my neighbor. He lives directly opposite my house and I watched him all day through the window. It's the first time in a decade that I actually felt alive. I had a feeling and to me that's an achievement. My first day in mcade high, though marked as the beginning of my problem, isn't really is. I had mixed feelings and they remained mixed because Jude Kam was on a business trip and I was all alone at home. I escaped his defilement for that day and that pleased my soul, then the stunning but arrogant class president ends up becoming my neighbor. I was pleased that I'd be able to watch him, anytime I like (stupid, haha) and also scared that I won't be comfortable once he finds out. One more thing changed about Paige. I wrote in my diary. I miraculously had the guts and I made it an habit.About Damien, I was sure of one thing: we might never cross each other's path again. I've never had issues with class le
"Hei, hey! What's your plan huh?" Damien banged his fist on the table in fury? All eyes fell on us. I felt like I was going to shrink away that moment."Calm down bro. You have a reputation to protect." Liam jeered. "I know you Damien. You are not the girl type. So why the newbie huh? Our almighty top student suddenly got a heart huh? "Damien's pointed nose turned bright red. His fist clenched, he was seething."It's not what you are thinking. She fell. That's it."I knew he wasn't the type to explain himself. That was visible enough, from the way he acted. "She tripped over a...""Over a knife? Hahaha!"Liam laughed. I was dumb, nothing to say. I knew deep down that was no explanation that could convince liam. I attempted to leave but he stopped me just in time. His tough hand harshly dragged my arm, hurting my tender skin."What?! Ah!"I gasped."You can't leave now. I'm not done talking." he yelled. "You go around poking at guys on your first day. Who the he
"Here's an individual project for your first assessment test this term. Prepare a presentation about your family. This is not a nursery class so be creative. You've been art students for three years not, represent the idea of what your family is artistically. Then there'll be a live presentation here by third week." Teacher Nam said after her long and breathe taking lecture about the roman art and how it originated. So boring. "You have enough time. There will be no excuse that I will accept. Good day class." She walked out like a programmed semi human robot. It's barely a week in a new term and she's already giving project. I could not take my eyes off the class President thorought the class. He was way too normal like nothing ever happened. Or maybe he really didn't care. That broke my heart. I felt alone. I made a lame deal with Liam, that wretch. "Fairy baby!"His hand was on my head. I cursed beneath my breath. This school, why would so much calamity be
My life went back to normal when my dad returned. I became cold and retractive as I've always been. I was back to my own darkness, all I could do was embrace it. No one, not even Liam's troubles could take me away from it. The first two days I spent in Mcade was just a manifestation of my fantasies and to my sacred memory, it's like it never happened. The life I live with my dad is enough to rub off any memory.It was third week already and I only remember I had an assignment from the semi robot teacher when I stepped into the class. There was artworks everywhere, like the whole world remembered except me. Even Liam, he had his. I was taunted by own self, oppressed by the wonderful sight of unimaginable artistic representations of the damn word "family" The title alone was enough discouragement for me. What "family" do I have?I watched everyone talk about their art and how it related to their family structure or whatever. There were paintings, pen art, embroidery, carved imag
I sat at the large window, the best spot in my room, in solemn silence. I sat there hoping I could watch Damien like I used to. He strolls around the estate with an elderly man, his dad possibly, every evening. I've seen him once with a boy on a wheel chair, maybe his brother. I believed he hasn't noticed that I lived opposite his house. He wasn't out today and I felt more empty as minutes passed.A light flicked from the window opposite the street. With the help of the streetlights I could see clearly who it was -- Damien. My heart melted , though I wondered how long he had known, how long he'd also watched me. Gosh, I am imagining things.He waved at me and I waved back. He had a blue polo on and his hair was packed up in a dough."How are you doing now?"He wrote on his window. I just nodded. He smiled and wiped it off."Where did you go?"I did not return to class and I know he must have searched the whole school for me. I wonder if that's really the work of a class mo
I hide beneath a stair case. It was very low so I was not noticeable. The whole school was in chaos and I could hear threats from students who were searching for me. I also heard Liam had been transferred to the hospital. I felt like I needed to die. I deserved it this time. I could not cry, could not think. I just focused on the darkness that enveloped me beneath the stair case. Darkness-- that's where I belong.After some time, I saw a figure join me in the darkness where I sat. I was shocked that I've been found and I froze in place. To my surprise, the person only couched beside me. I could tell from his smell who it was. Damien."Enough of the hide and seek Miss Kam. Your uncle is at Principal Dane's office."Ideas or rather questions rushed through my head. I wished I could see his face. He would hate me forever for what I have just done. That was heartbreaking enough.I was also curious that he found me. Was he watching me? Oh my… I'm a mess. I felt like plu
"Master Kam, The new robot has caused problems in the Macrigo branch." Jude's manager said. He had taken the first flight to Albany to report the strange incidents in the company's branch that he headed. Jude came up with an invention that could change the workd forever. A robot that sends electromagnetic waves as nervous response to the human brain. It has the ability to control anything. (Anything it's programmed to control). Jude had kept it in his youngest branch to hide it from prospective creativity hackers and also to test run it. Since the robot was installed in that branch, it had brought more customers and more sales for them (he programmed "attraction of clients and dealers in it"). It has worked for three months, boosting his sales five times the usual each month, until reports of insanity came in." Currently, five of our employees have gone nuts. They behave out of this world, some even cut themselves for no peculiar reason. The Secretary now has schizoprenia.
"What was that about huh?" Miss Roona questioned when she finally had the chance to. "What was that story about?" "Anything, Miss Roona."Riley giggled. "Teach', it was just a game, you won't punish us for that." "Of course I won't. It better not be what I'm thinking..." A guy with a bottle jumped into the circle. "Woohoo! It's time for the bottle game!"Everyone jeered. I saw miss Roona stand up to leave. "I'll leave you guys to do that." "C'mon teach', you should stay."Damien countered. "I'm not a teenager. I'll go join the other guy teachers. You guys have fun!" She left. The noise died down and soon the bottle was spinning. At first it started with truths being revealed. I was glad it didn't get to me. A girl confessed her crush on her class president. Another confessed that he still peed in his bed sometimes. It as hilarious but no so hot until the dares started. Truth and dare games always go this way and sinc