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PRETEND PRINCESS KISSES IN THE DARK
Creeds pov "Yuyu?"My voice came out, rougher than I intended.I felt a quick motion along my side — a turn, as though she were retreating, or hiding out.This was murdering me.I breathed in and spoke a word, quietly, as though each of my words was ripping something away."Sorry. I'm. so sorry, Yuyu. I shouldn't have let that occur. I should have defended you. You didn't have to endure that — not from Zara, not from that restaurant, not from me. I don't care what anyone else thinks. you're important to me. I don't even recall when it occurred, or how, but somewhere along the way, you. you invaded my brain. And tonight made me realize just how much."I swallowed."You didn't deserve any of it. And I hate that I'm part of the reason you're hurting. I'll fix it, I swear. Whatever it takes… I'll make this right."The silence lingered, broken only by the far-off thrum of the city outside and Suzu's breathing by the door.Then her voice — tiny, exhausted, but so heartbreakingly gentle."I
Last Updated : 2025-04-17PRETEND PRINCESS DISTRACTION
Zara's POVI didn't sleep. Not for one second. The darkness in my room was heavy, suffocating — but not as heavy as the memories eating away at my brain."Get off of me… please…"My voice had broken like delicate glass, but he didn't care. He never did.His weight pinned me to the bed, harder, heavier, more merciless.You've been playing with me, sunflower. You have no notion how much I've wanted you," he whispered, his hot, sour breath on my skin, his face buried in the hollow of my neck, snuffling like some animal ready to strike at its prey.Fear had lanced my body in waves so acute they burned like needles."Please—"And then the sound — the hard, wet rip of my panties.His hard, rough hands pried my thighs open."Just the way I like 'em… small and tight."I woke up with a jerk, sweat beading on my body, my breathing ragged.God.I hated how easily it still sucked me under. I hated how easily the past still held me in thrall.But what hurt more tonight… was him.Creed.He defended
Last Updated : 2025-04-17PRETEND PRINCESS YET ANOTHER MISTAKE
Zara's POVI heard the quiet sound of a door opening — soft, deliberate — and it snapped me out of my vicious cycle.3:00 AM.My heart jumped up into my throat."Mom?"Silence.The door groaned open and in walked a dark shadow, wide shoulders, filling my doorway like some kind of dream-creature.My gasp got stuck in my throat.Oh my God."Don't freak out, it's just me."That voice.Zed?"What the hell—" I gaped, shock slicing the room like a knife. "How did you even get through security? How did you. why are you here?"**He stood there, still, an odd softness in his eyes that had no business being there. The scent of him drifted into the room — like old books, warm skin, and something sweet, something heavy and male that lingered."I knew you weren't okay," he shrugged. "My clients don't just walk away from a job halfway through. That's not your style."Of course.Of course that was it.The money."I'll send your bloody payment once the sun rises. Now, beat it, Zed."But my voice trem
Last Updated : 2025-04-18PRETEND PRINCESS LEAVE ME WANTING MORE
Yuki’s POVIt was past 4AM.The sky was starting to soften, the faintest shade of grey creeping in through the curtains, hinting at morning. Creed lay fast asleep beside me, his breathing slow, his face peaceful in a way it rarely ever was.I stayed still, watching him… replaying the memories of last night in my head.He'd wanted to touch me — really touch me — but I'd told him it was too early. That he still needed to take me on a good second date. He'd laughed, kissed me some more, and we'd slept like that, tangled in the sheets.Okay… maybe I woke him up once or twice. Maybe I gave him another taste of my world-famous Yuyu Roman cream-sucking abilities — but who's counting?Now, though… it was too risky.The world was getting light, and anything brighter than this…my secret wouldn't make it through.And we both had to work today."Creed… wake up."I nudged him lightly. Nothing."Creed."A little harder. He grunted and rolled over."Five more minutes, angel."Ugh — cute, but no."N
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Zara's POVIt was already 3:30pmI had overheard my mum knocking a few hours earlier, saying she was off to work. I hadn't responded. I didn't get up. I just lay in the bed like some kind of lifeless object, watching shadows creep on the walls. My only friend was the heavy lump in my chest.Zed had left about thirty minutes earlier, informing me he was going to get snacks, something stupid he claimed I "had to try." He was crazy.And for getting myself tangled with him like this I was a lunatic.Because here I was — smearing my class, my name, my damned childhood, messing with someone like him.We did not have sex.I kissed him.And kissed him again.Then. like some pitiful, isolated idiot, I paid him an additional five thousand just to hold me.Hold me.God, how pathetic. Made me sick to my stomach.A light knock on the window shattered my cycle of self-loathing. I turned my head slowly, and there he was once again. Zed.Back already.I rolled my eyes but pulled myself upright, my ni
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Creed's POVThe office was practically empty when I came onto her floor. Lights were off everywhere, a handful of cleaning staff moving about, and some low-key chatter in the far corner.Her office door was open, the quiet humming leaking out.There she was.Yuyu Roman.Half bent over, stuffing her things into that ridiculous pink bag with bunny pins on it.Her hair was loose tonight, spilling down her shoulder as she struggled to close the bag."Departing without a farewell?" I remarked from the doorway.She jumped up with a gasp, eyes wide. "Holy shit, you nearly gave me a heart attack!"Then she smiled, cheeks slightly flushed. "You can't creep up on a lady like that, boss man. Thought you were some office ghost."I smiled. "If I was a ghost, you'd be the first I'd haunt.""Wow. That's really. kind of sweet in an creepy kind of way," she laughed, grabbing her phone.The rest of the work team had dispersed — the whole floor felt strangely quiet without her whirlwind personality hang
Last Updated : 2025-04-19PRETEND PRINCESS FIRE TO THE FANTASY
Zara's POVRaw, unadulterated excitement coursed through my veins like lava as I tore through the city streets to Creed's house. Every red light, every bump in the road seemed to be personally sent to stop me, but nothing could quell the fire that burned inside. I was on pins and needles. I was alive.I could barely maintain my seat in the car.The night had finally arrived.I wanted to be the first to tell him.I wanted to be the first face he saw when the truth smacked him in the face of his stunning, clueless face.I wanted to be standing there, front row center, when his heart shattered and the tiny dream world he'd built around his precious Yuyu crashed down in front of his eyes.Ved moved out of the way — I made sure.I did it perfectly well. As usual.I got to Creed's house around five.A little too early, yeah — but I didn't mind. I wanted to wait.I wasn't waiting to mind, not for this one.The office let out at six. He'd've been home at six-thirty, seven latest. Eight at a s
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Yuki’s POVYou know that feeling when the sun’s out, your playlist is hitting every single mood right, and your hair decides to cooperate like it’s on a paid commercial shoot?Yeah — that was me this morning.I slid into my emerald jumpsuit — one of those slinky, sparkly, hug-you-in-all-the-right-spaces kind of numbers. Gold sparkles winked across the fabric like miniature stars, catching light as I shifted. Damn, Yuyu, you're a work of art, I thought, making a goofy pose in front of the mirror.And the shoes. The gold heels. Four inches of pure, blinding hazard. I still thanked all stars and planets for Lily, who basically terrorized me through a bootcamp of Heels 101: How Not To Die While Serving Looks. For real, my ankles were on life support due to her.But being there — standing like a walking disco ball with cheekbones — something odd crossed my mind.What does a hot diva like me do with all these heels when this mirage is over?I didn’t linger on it. Not today.“Okay, sparklebu
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PRETEND PRINCESS NOT WHAT I WANTED
Zara's POVZed was over at my place again.He made himself way too comfortable, sprawling on the couch in my room like he owned the place.Tonight, he brought over some weird Mexican something.I didn't even catch the name. He said it twice. Maybe three times. But it just sounded like sounds to me.He kept trying to feed it to me, holding a forkful in front of my mouth like I was some stubborn kid with medicine to swallow.I shook my head so hard."I don't want anything to do with that," I grumbled, folding my arms across my chest.Zed glared at me, still chewing.I could tell he didn't get it.Not the food.None of it."I don't know why you're upset," he said, setting the container down on the coffee table."You got what you wanted. The imposter was exposed. You should be dancing. Celebrating."Celebrating?Celebrating?I let out a panted laugh, a laugh that did not sound anything like a laugh."This wasn't what I wanted," I whispered.Zed blinked, confused."You wanted the truth—""
PRETEND PRINCESS MY HEART HURTS
Creed's PovIt was past midnight.The bottle that I held was almost empty, but I did not mind. I was not drinking to be joyful. I was not even drinking to forget. I was drinking because it was the only way I could make the silence that greeted me endurable.I reclined slumped on the couch in my living room, the sole item of furniture that was more like a cell than home. There were shadows everywhere. The clock chimed out so loudly it sounded like a hammer in my head.And still.Still, I couldn't stop thinking about Yuyu.Fucking Yuki.With that goddamn smirk and those fuckin' sparklin' bright eyes and the way he looked at me like I was something, anything when he had no idea who the fuck I even was.I hated him.I missed him.I hadn't the fuck idea what I was feelin' anymore.Was I gay now? Did I swing this way? Did I just FUCKIN' happen to be feelin' desperately for someone, anyone, to look at me like I weren't a damned monster?Jesus Christ, no.I tipped the bottle to my lips again,
PRETEND PRINCESS NEW BEGINNINGS
Yuki's pov The flying part wasn't scary.I wasn't terrified of airplanes.I wasn't terrified of turbulent flight or height or any of that.I was terrified of beginning again.Terrified of seeing myself.For three weeks — almost four — I had done nothing but rot. Fault myself. Cry. Break things. Apologize to specters.That was enough.I couldn't keep going on like that.Mom wouldn't have wanted me to go on like that.Grandpa wouldn't either, even if he didn't always recall me.I stared out the plane window, clouds streaking across the horizon like wet paint, my chest aching.Memories ripped at me — Creed's voice, his smile, then the shock in his eyes.Grandpa's laugh, the way he used to call me his "boy."Lily's hugs.Small shattered pieces of my life slipping further and further away from me as the plane flew east.I bit my lip hard enough to taste blood.No more tears.No more pity parties.I can do this.This is my new start.Mom would be proud.I hugged myself hard, wrapped the th
PRETEND PRINCESS GOOD BYE
Lily's POVThe ride to the airport was too short.I continued to sneak glances at Yuki beside me, soaking him in—his dark, messy hair, the nervous drum of his fingers against his jeans, the nervous bounce of his knee.As if if I stared long enough, I could burn the picture of him into my head and never forget.He caught me staring and smiled weakly. "What?""Nothing," I said quickly, attempting to smile. "Just. don't chicken out."He grinned, but it wasn't natural. "Too late to run now, huh?""Way too late," I taunted softly.The problem was, I wished he would run.I wanted to bang the car doors closed, drive us somewhere a thousand miles from here, and wish he wouldn't be going.But I couldn't.He had to go.He needed this new start.Even if it killed me.We pulled up to Departures. Yuki opened his backpack, fiddling with the straps like they were the most fascinating thing on earth.I pulled up and turned off the engine.We sat there, neither of us moving, for a moment.Then Yuki le
PRETEND PRINCESS TAKE CARE OF HIM FOR ME
Yuki's POV"You're leaving today."Lily's voice was gentle, but it hit me like a punch.I crouched at the foot of the bed, staring at the carpet. My fingers tapped on the frayed cuff of my jacket, pulling at loose threads as if I could somehow roll back time and stay here in this cramped safe room, stuck forever.I didn't look at her. I didn't move."Yuki," she said once more, coming to kneel beside me. Her hand lay lightly on my knee. "Then I think it's time you saw your grandfather."I shook my head."No, it's not," I grunted. "I'm not ready."She let out a tired, aching sigh, the kind you do when you don't want to cry. "You've been here for a month. You're better now. You're stronger, plus do you really plan on going halfway across the world and not seeing him before you go.""Stronger?" I laughed roughly. "I'm still a mess.""You're recovering," she amended. "And you have to — you'd just have to visit him before you go."Her words sliced through me more deeply than I cared to ackn
PRETEND PRINCESS CURSED
Creed's POVI slammed the office door shut so hard that the walls vibrated. The secretary outside yelped as if she thought the damn ceiling was going to come crashing down."Get me the quarterly reports," I barked. "Now."She rushed out of her seat, almost falling over her own feet. Pitiful.I paced in front of my office like a wild animal in a cage, blood pumping hotter each passing second. All of this was pissing me off every day now. The terrible coffee. The creeping elevators. The godforsaken interns' breathing out in the corridor.Five weeks. Five weeks since I let go of that imposter, yet my heart clenched at the thought of her…of him !Anger boiled in my veins over and over but today a particular anger took over me, one o couldn't explain but already had ties to That imposter I didn't need him and I wasn't gay!There was no going back for me. And I felt the whole office knew that from the very moment I resumed, a week ago Besides they couldn't blame me for their incompeten
PRETEND PRINCESS NOT WHO I REMEMBER
Lily's POVToday became tomorrow.Tomorrow became next week.Next week became three endless weeks.And somehow, despite all the promises I made to myself, I still hadn't met Yuki.I don't even know how it all tightened up like that — how every small detail became so hard. Between caring for Grandpa Roman, going back and forth to the hospital for meds, doctor appointments, dealing with his therapies — life had gotten tangled around my neck with no mercy. I didn't have space to catch my breath, didn't have time to think. And amidst all of this, something gnawed at me:Yuki trusted me.I had been entrusted with Grandpa Roman — with one of the only people he loved — and deep, way down deep inside me, I knew I didn't want to let him down.But today. today was different. Today was the day. I was really going to fix all of it.I was going to go see him, apologize for whatever stupidness drove us apart, tell him about what he'd seen that day with Dan, tell him everything.Dan.He officially m
PRETEND PRINCESS AGAIN
Zara's POVThere's regret.There's pain.And then there's anger — thick, bitter, wild anger.I didn't deserve this.I was the last person in this damn world that deserved this.He wasn't supposed to push me away.He wasn't supposed to treat me like… like I was nothing.I was supposed to be by his side.I was supposed to be the one to fix him. To save him.I paced back and forth in my chamber, my hands in my palms, trying to contain the storm raging inside me.The walls were closing in, the air heavy, and my mind was filled with his face. His eyes. His lips. His voice when he'd instructed me to leave.I hated him.I loved him.God — I loved him.I couldn't take it anymore."Call Zed," I barked at one of my servants.She stopped. "Now, ma'am?""Now!" I screamed.My hands were trembling. My heart thudding. I was unraveling, going crazy and I didn't give a damn anymore.Within minutes, Zed arrived.Tall, dark, as calm as ever.He always had been.The man who took orders quietly, who had a
PRETEND PRINCESS ALL ALONE
Yuki's POVTwo weeks.That's 20,160 minutes. Twenty thousand, one hundred and sixty minutes of pure torture.I'd texted Creed so much. Too much, really. Sorrys I couldn't phrase correctly first, things I didn't have the courage to tell him out loud before, little things I knew he didn't want to hear. I texted anyway, hoping for a crumb of a reply.But there was nothing. No dot. No word. No fucking breath.So I made up my mind. I'd made it up the day everything went wrong—the day everything went in the opposite direction of my plans, like some sick cosmic joke. I was leaving New York. Done. Finito. Finished.Lily hadn't called me for two weeks either. It was as if my world had burst wide open, and I stood in the middle of a great emptiness. Grandpa Roman… two weeks of nothing from him too. Two weeks of not hearing his shaking, bewildered voice, of not chasing after him when he got me mixed up with my mother. Two weeks alone, tearing myself apart, living on my own regrets.I was complet
