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The apartment had finally learned how to be quiet again.After a week at Jessy’s, the walls didn’t feel so sharp when I came back. She refused to leave me alone for the first few days—set up her laptop beside mine, cooked enough food for an army, filled the silence with random stories until the ache in my chest began to soften.Now we both worked here, side by side. Two writers, two screens, one long stretch of healing disguised as productivity.I occasionally helped Joaquin but I was politely honest with him through work email that I need space and he acknowledged it with “Noted with thanks.”It had been months since I’d last touched the draft of my new manuscript, but my hands remembered the rhythm. Letters turned into words, words into something like purpose. Jessy said work was the best kind of therapy.Maybe she was right.The afternoon light poured through the window, warm against the scattered pages on my desk. My phone buzzed every now and then—emails, messages, deadlines—but
I woke to the smell of brewed coffee and rain. Jessy’s home was quiet except for the hum of the refrigerator and the steady tick of the clock above her stove.She set a mug on the table in front of me. “You look like you didn’t close your eyes all night.”“I didn’t.” My voice came out raw.Jessy didn’t press. She just sat across from me, folding her legs under the chair. “You don’t have to talk, but if you don’t, it’s going to eat you alive.”The words cracked something open. “I ruined everything, Jess.”Her eyes softened. “Then start from the beginning.”So I did.I told her about Javier showing up bruised and broken, about the conversation that had felt too heavy to breathe through, about the moment the distance between us simply disappeared. Then Joaquin’s voice—his face—those flowers scattering across the floor like an ending I hadn’t seen coming.Jessy listened without interruption, her hand finding mine when my voice shook.“I didn’t mean to,” I whispered. “It just happened. He l
The air outside was sharp, heavy with the scent of rain that hadn’t yet fallen. My chest felt tight as I stepped onto the porch, half-hoping, half-dreading that I’d still see one of them.I thought Joaquin had left. I’d heard a car earlier and the sound of tires fading down the street. Javier, I assumed, had gone the other way. Maybe that was for the best.But when I turned the corner, both of them were there.They stood a few feet apart on the cracked pavement, the distance between them pulsing with tension. Neither moved, neither blinked. The way they stared at each other—it wasn’t just anger. It was everything they’d never said, years of bitterness waiting to break loose.I froze. My breath caught in my throat.Joaquin’s voice cut through the quiet first. Calm. Cold. “You still can’t stand to lose, can you?”Javier’s tone matched his, low and edged. “Depends on what game you think we’re playing.”“This isn’t a game,” Joaquin said tightly. “It’s about her.”“Yeah,” Javier muttered. “
The door clicked shut, and the sound rang through the apartment like a gunshot. Then nothing.Just the faint hum of the fridge and the soft, uneven rhythm of two people who had run out of words.The lilies lay where they’d fallen—white petals crushed against the floor, stems snapped, water pooling near my shoes. The smell was sweet and wrong, clinging to the air like guilt. I stared at them because I couldn’t bring myself to look anywhere else.Javier hadn’t moved. He was standing where Joaquin had left us, shoulders rigid, eyes fixed on the closed door. For a long time neither of us spoke.When I finally found my voice, it was barely a whisper. “You should go.”He turned toward me slowly, as if he hadn’t heard right. “Haven—”“Please,” I said. “Just… go.”He took a step closer, voice low and raw. “Let me explain. It didn’t mean—”“Don’t,” I cut in. “Don’t make it smaller. Don’t make it sound like it wasn’t real.”He flinched. The quiet stretched until it started to hurt.I pressed a
The silence between us stretched so thin it felt like a held breath. Javier sat on the couch, elbows on his knees, head bowed slightly as if the weight of everything was pressing on his shoulders. The morning light had shifted, softer now, tracing gold against the bruises on his face.I stood by the counter, unsure whether to walk away or reach for him again. But I couldn’t move. Something in me stayed tethered—to him, to this ache that never stopped hurting.He looked up suddenly, eyes finding mine with a kind of desperation that rooted me to the floor.“Why are you still here?” His voice was low, rough, trembling at the edges. “You should’ve walked away hours ago.”“Because you looked like you needed someone to stay.”His throat bobbed as he swallowed hard. “And if I said I needed you?”The question tore through me. My heart kicked painfully against my ribs.“Don’t,” I whispered. “Don’t say things like that.”“I can’t help it,” he said, standing slowly. The exhaustion in his body did
The light filtering through the curtains woke me before I was ready. My head throbbed faintly, not from alcohol since I didn’t drink, but from everything that had happened the night before.For a moment, I didn’t move. I just lay there, staring at the ceiling, trying to steady my breathing. My mind kept replaying it all.Javier at the door, his voice breaking as he begged me not to leave, the way his tears had soaked through my shirt.When I finally sat up, I caught sight of him in the living room.He was still asleep on the couch, one arm draped over his stomach, the blanket half slipping to the floor. The bruises on his face had darkened overnight, the dried blood at the edge of his lip stark against his skin.But even with the evidence of violence, there was something heartbreakingly innocent about him in sleep.I padded quietly to the kitchen, pouring myself a glass of water. The soft hum of the refrigerator was the only sound in the room.What was I supposed to do now?He’d said t







