Her honestly surprised him. As a preteen, she'd done little to hide her crush on him. At first, he'd been flattered but uninterested. By the time she'd been old enough to stir his interest, he'd been playing ball for her father's team for three years. So when her father asked him to back off, he had.
"We were?"
"Oh yeah. At sixteen, I thought you were everything I wanted in a husband."
Now he couldn't help wondering if there's been more to her crush than he'd expected. But unlike when she'd take about the store, her tone held no regret. Only whimsy.
He couldn't resist playing along. "Tell me about us. What kind of couple are we?"
Her lips curved into a smile every bit as playful as the glint in her eyes. "The perfect couple of course."
"How did we fall in love?" It wasn't the only question he had about this little fantasy of hers, but it was probably the safest.
"Over Christmas, while you were still in college." SHe tilted her head back, her eyes drifting closed. "Our first kiss was like a scene out of a movie. Passing through a doorway, we got caught under the mistletoe. You kissed me because it was tradition, but we both felt something more." She paused, caught up in the memory of things never done. "The next week, you drove Jessica and me to a New Year's Eve party. You claimed you didn't want us out on the road with so many drunk drivers. But at midnight, you made sure you and I were alone."
Her words stirred a memory. Years ago, he had driven them to a New Year's Eve party ...no, not New Year's Eve. She'd been dressed as a tawny striped cat. Her leotard had accentuated her budding curves and the tail had drawn his attention to her petite but nicely rounded bottom. The following Christmas he's made damn sure he wasn't around whenever she'd stopped by the house. At nineteen, the three years separating their ages seemed impenetrable.
Now, three years seemed like nothing and he cursed his "noble" instincts. "Then what happened?"
Her eyes snapped open. She blinked as if waking from a dream. She turned towards him again, just enough for him to see the blush creeping across her cheeks. "Just your basic falling in love and getting married kind of stuff."
But her blush gave her away. There was more, much more to that part of the fantasy. His body clamored to hear it. Logic, however, prevailed and he forced himself to change the subject.
"If I remember right, you always wanted to join the Peace Corps."
She shot him a surprised look. "I can't believe you remember that."
He laughed. "Where was it you wanted to go? Panama or something?"
"Brazil, actually. In the rainforest."
"The rainforest? Are you sure you didn't just want to vacation in Brazil? Carnival in Ro is supposed to be spectacular."
She wrinkled her nose in exaggerated disgust. "Yes, I'm sure."
He shook his head. "I can't imagine living in such poverty."
But Mattie? He could easily imagine her in the Peace Corps. He pictured her as she'd been in high school, hair pulled back in a ponytail, face free of makeup, dressed in no-nonsense jeans and a T-shirt as she lugged football equipment out to the field or helped her grandfather with the yard work.
He could imagine her like that now, the perfect complement to an exotic, lush landscape, smiling, her face flushed with exertion as she playfully goaded others into enjoying the hard work.
He could also imagine living out the fantasies he'd had back in high school. Luring her away from the crowd to some secluded spot where he'd pull the T-shirt from her body and lavish attention on every inch of her sun-kissed skin.
Forget the Peace Corps. He could imagine doing that damn near anywhere.
She eyes him speculatively and he was glad she couldn't read his thoughts. She'd kick his ass right out onto the street.
And he'd probably deserve it. He hadn't come for this. He had no intention of spending these two weeks lusting after his high school crush. He hadn't planned on even seeing her. Until this afternoon, Mattie had been safely relegated to the realm of "the one that got away."
And if they were going to spend the next two weeks in the same house, she'd probably better stay there.
Trying to remind himself of that, he teased her, "So what did you want to do in the Peace Corps? Bring medical supplies to the needy? Build schools for the impoverished? Heal the sick and dying?"
She laughed. "Hey, it was my fantasy. I could make myself as saintly as I wanted to be."
With a languorous stretch, she stood, a clear cue she was done reminiscing. But Brad wasn't ready to let her go yet. Not even close.
He stood, too, angling himself between the house and her chair. Before she could shy away from him, he gave in to the urge to touch an errant lock of her hair. As he toyed with the strand, he couldn't help treading into dangerous territory. "What about the fantasies where you're not saintly. Do you want to share any of those?"
Mattie blinked in surprise. "I didn't have many of those when I was sixteen."
The glimmer of awareness in her eyes assured him she was lying. "And now?"
She didn't flinch. "Now, those are the fantasies I don't share with anyone."
But he saw in her eyes a hesitation, as if, despite her denials, she wanted to share those fantasies with him.
He could have just asked...allowed her the chance to say more. Instead, he gave in to the impulse that had been driving him all afternoon. The impulse to pull her into his arms. To taste her mouth. To find out if she really was as sweet and as hot as he'd always imagined. To just kiss her.
Her lips were pliant, and he could almost taste her surprise as they opened beneath his. Her mouth still held the lingering flavor of her last sips of beer, the hint of hops; pleasant but unexpected. Faint, but powerful. Just like the scent of her.
He felt her hand reaching up to rest on his arm, her breath quickening to match his. Her body arching towards him in a gesture of unconscious acquiescence. He pulled her closer to him, one hand at her hip, the other burrowing into her hair at the nape of her neck. Her skin was velvety and warm, so soft he wanted to taste everywhere he touched. And everywhere he hadn't yet touched.
A potent rush of excitement washed over him as he felt her reaction to him. It mingled with his desire, heating his blood, driving him to deepen the kiss. To mold her body to his, to explore not only her mouth, but all the secret, dark places of her body. To possess her until she surrendered completely.
As soon as his control began to slip he pulled back. Dropping his hands, he stepped aside t let her pass.
In the moment it took her eyes to flutter open, he had to tighten his rein on his reaction to her. Bathed in moonlight, she was so damn beautiful. So damn vulnerable.
He ached to both take her and protect her. Too bad he couldn't do one without sacrificing the other.
When her eyes finally opened, they were filled with questions. He gave her the only answer he could. "I probably shouldn't have done that."
Her eyes flashed from sensual compliance to frustrated annoyance. "Why? Because I'm like a sister to you?"
No.
Because she'd never been like a sister to him. And because he'd never again be able to lie to himself and claim she was.
With a shake of her head, she started back for the house. "Boa noite."
As she moved, he grabbed her wrist, her pulse leaping under his fingertips. She looked sharply from her arm to his face, her fleeting expression of intense longing momentarily stealing his word.
Finally, he asked, "So did you ever join the Peace Corps?"
She extracted her wrist from his grasp. "No."
"Why not?"
"I married Mike instead."
And apparently her husband, unlike the imaginary one she's dreamed of at sixteen, hadn't been willing to give up two years of his life so she could fulfill her dream. It sounded like a dream she still harbored. Boa noite sounded like Portuguese, the language she would have spoken had she joined the Peace Corps. Part of her must still yearn for everything she'd given up for her husband.
Selfish bastard. Mike, whoever he was, deserved to be sot.
Brad couldn't help noticing the irony, though. Ginger had called him a selfish bastard more times than he could count. And now...when he was trying so hard not to be a selfish bastard...he couldn't shake the feeling he'd done it again.
Suddenly he felt the need to make amends, not only for his own failings but for her ex's as well.
"Mattie, I..." She paused by the door and turned to look at him again. "I'm sorry your life didn't turn out as planned."
Her face was half-hidden in the shadows, obscuring her expression. Her lips twisted into a smile, but unable to see her eyes, he couldn't tell f humor or bittersweet regret fueled it.
"I'm not," she insisted. "Remember? No regret. Besides," she added, "like I said before, we don't always know what's good for us."
Ain't that the truth.
This time, she slipped through the door before he could stop her. For a long time after she'd gone in, he stayed by the pool watching the reflection of the ascending moon.
She was right, he realized. The young didn't know what was good for them. At twenty-four he'd married Ginger, attracted to her beauty, social poise and appetite for sex. He thought she was everything he could ever want, gracious and charming n public, passionate in private.
God, had he been wrong. He'd tried to make it work. For seven long years, he'd stuck with her, burying himself in his work to make up for his unhappiness at home. But the only thing more important to him than his business was having a family.
Not like a cold, sterile family he'd grown up in, but a real family. The kind that played flag football on the front lawn at Thanksgiving. That had birthday parties with crazily decorated homemade cakes. Silly Fourth-of-July celebrations, with hot dogs burning on the grill and jumbo packages of firecrackers bought by the side of the road. And honest-to-God real apple pie, fresh from the oven.
Who was he kidding? He wanted Mattie's family. Her family was unconventional. She'd lost her mother at a young age and then she'd been raised by her father and her grandparents. But her family had still been more real to him than his had. Her family had a warmth that his family...with all its wealth and social prestige...simply couldn't match.
When he and Ginger dated, she'd seemed perfect. At parties and social events, she'd been the center of attention. She was always so warm and charming, and he'd believed she'd be both the perfect asset to his career and the perfect mother for his children.
But after they married, something changed. She'd grown more and more dissatisfied with their life together. Colder and more withdrawn. When she'd finally made it clear that she had no intention of carrying a child and even less interest in raising someone's brats, he'd called it quits. He'd never been sure if she'd genuinely hated children or merely said what she'd known was guaranteed to drive hm away.
Looking back on it, he was surprised he'd lasted as long as he had.
No regret, Mattie had said. He had nothing but regrets. And now, after listening to her weave that fantasy of hers, he had even more.
Mattie as a teenager had been delightful. Fun, open and loving. But her father had told him beyond a doubt that she was too young for a serious relationship.
Mattie had made it clear she no longer mourned the life she'd once imagined them living together. She'd fallen in love with someone else. Married and lived with another man. A man who'd hijacked her dreams and a broken heart. She must have loved her husband very much to have no regrets about the sacrifices she'd made. Maybe she still loved him.
All of which only complicated their situation more. Seeing Mattie again after all these years only stirring up the attraction he'd felt for her back in high school. He was no longer her father's quarterback and she was no longer too young. But whether she knew it or not, she was still emotionally vulnerable.
With the kind of chemistry they had, a few simple kisses would lead to hours...if not days...together in bed. But what if she wanted more?"
Marriage to him had already made one warm and loving woman miserable. There was no way in hell he'd risk having Mattie look at him with the same kind of contempt Ginger had.
So as tempted as he was to follow Mattie back into the house and explore that sassy little mouth of hers, he just couldn't risk it. He had to keep his hands and desires under control. Which meant the next two weeks were going to be hell.
No regrets? No regrets my ass.The thought echoed through her mind with every heart-pounding, knee-rattling step Mattie took along the bark-strewn jogging path. Squinting against the morning sun, she caught a glimpse of the last mile marker.Okay, you can do it. Only one more mile. One. More. Mile.She shoved aside thoughts of the pain and concentrated on putting one foot in front of the other. But no matter how she tried, she couldn't shove aside thoughts of Brad as easily.Every time she pushed his image away, it crept back in when she wasn't looking. Mercilessly, relentlessly. And annoying as hell.She'd spent most of her life dreaming of what it would be like to be kissed by Brad Sumners. At eleven, she'd imagined a chaste peck on the cheek. At fourteen, she'd longed for a romantic kiss, like something out of a movie. But last night's kiss wasn't at all what she'd bargained for. It was neither chaste nor charming. She hadn't i
Giving in to her body's demands, Mattie slowed her pace to a walk. A few more twists in the path and she'd be back where she'd started at the entrance to the park, just a few blocks from Jessica's house. She rounded the next bend and saw Brad heading straight towards her. Mattie stopped. Propping her hands on the top of her thighs, she bent over, struggling to pull air into her lungs. She blinked her eyes into focus, staring at the toes of her white Reebok cross-trainers. She tried to slow her breathing by inhaling through her nose, and the astringent aroma of the cedar mulch hit her nostril. Slowly she straightened, until she stood upright, propping her hands low on her back. She twisted to one then the other to loosen her muscles. Jeez, this was just her luck. At least yesterday under the towel, she'd been clean. Today she was just sweaty. And she harbored no illusions whatsoever that she merely "glowed." Unless he had some weird sweaty-female fetish, she'd have to put off her b
Are you crazy?"Brad considered her question as he slid the laminated card back into his wallet. Crazy? He didn't think so.Confused? That was another matter entirely.He achieved every major goal he'd set for himself in the past fifteen years. Now, when it mattered most, he'd failed. What he couldn't figure out was why it pissed her off."Look Mattie, all I..."She cut him off with a firm shake of her head. "No. Absolutely not.""But...""I am not going to help you find a wife.""Find a wife?" It took him a second to comprehend the conclusion she'd leaped to. By that time, she'd already spun on her heel and stormed off down the street.He caught up with her in a few steps, but she refused to look over at him. "I don't need..."She jerked to a stop, then whirled around. "You don't need? This is all about what you need, isn't it?" She glared at him, her eyes shooting daggers. "What about what I need?"It was just as well she didn't give him a chance to answer. He didn't have the slight
Surprise ricocheted through her and all Mattie could muster in response was "Huh?" followed by a long pause and then an equally ineloquent "Well, no."Sure, she'd fantasized endlessly about him asking her out, but she'd never wondered why he hadn't. "I was the scrawny best friend of your kid sister. I figured I was too young and you simply weren't interested." "When you first moved to Palo Verde, when you were ten? Yeah, you were too much young." He put his glass down and pushed away from the counter to step nearer to her. "When you were thirteen? Yeah, you were just the scrawny best friend of my kid sister." With two more steps, he closed the distance between them. He stopped, with his feet planted on either side of her own. Mattie's heart began to pound at his closeness. She inhaled sharply, trying to catch her breath, but that just pulled Bard's warm, masculine scent into her lungs and did nothing to clear her head. "By the time you were fifteen? You weren't scrawny." His focu
Clearly, she’d caught him off guard.Brad blinked in surprise, then said, “I told you before. I don’t want another wife.”“Who said I want another husband?”“You did. Last night by the pool. Whether you realize it or not, you still harbor some fantasy about us ending up together.” He stopped backing away from her and before she knew it, she was standing close enough to touch him.“Those were the fantasies I had as a teenager. Don’t you want to know about the fantasies I have now? The ones where I am not saintly? The ones you asked about last night?”She brought her hand to his cheek. The jutting bone of his jaw rested squarely in her palm, and a day’s worth of beard stubble brushed her skin. The only thing more erotic than these blatant reminders of his masculinity was the heady knowledge of her power over him.All those years ago she hadn’t been the only one harboring secret fantasies. Tonight, she wouldn’t be the only one finally acting them out.“Mattie, this isn’t a good idea.”“I
Fifty pounds of pressure bore down on Brad’s chest as he struggled into consciousness. His head pounded. His body ached. His tongue clung to the roof of his mouth— a mouth so dry, it felt like someone had poured a bag of cat litter into it. To make matters worse, he had the distinct feeling that put in a good dent into Jessica’s bottle of Scotch wasn’t the only stupid thing he’d done last night.Why the hell had he thought it would be a good idea to come clean with Mattie? Why the hell hard he thought she needed to know how he’d felt about her back in high school? And why the hell had he given in to the need to kiss her?As if that would ever be enough. As if he’d ever be able to kiss her again without wanting to touch her. Without wanting to stripper clothes from that luscious body. Without needing to see—once and for all—the body that had fueled his teenage fantasies. Needing to explore every responsive inch of that body. Needing to drive her completely over the edge again and again
She flashed him a smile full of audacity. “Oh, Brad, but you are a nice guy. Last night only proves it.” She took another bite of the apple. “You see, nice guys always do the right thing.”“They do?”“Oh, yes.” There was something unconsciously erotic about the sight of her white teeth sinking into the mottled red skin, about the crunch and the crisp, fresh scent.“Back in high school,” she continued, “ you stayed away from me, because it was the right thing to do. And last night, you didn’t take me to bed because you thought it was the right thing to do. Undoubtably out of some misguided notion that you were protecting me.““I—“ he tried to protest, but she cut him off.“The point is, again you did the right thing. Because that’s what nice guys do. And that’s exactly why you will not be leaving today.”“It is?”“Yep.”He was sure she hadn’t moved, yet she seemed closer— more tempting— than she had been even a few minutes ago.“You see, Brad, I need your help. Or rather, my shop need
“What?” Lucy had somehow made it down to her knees and was holding the incriminating book in both hands, staring at the cover in confusion. When she heard no response, she looked up. Great. Just great. Mattie thought. How has she managed to hire what had to be the only nineteen year old in northern California who would never heard of the Kama Sutra, and the only eighty year olds, who apparently had? She struggled to her feet, Then reached for the book with one hand and pulling Lucy to her feet with the other. “ It’s nothing. Just a library book I checked out. By accident. Just a silly mistake.“ Now that was the understatement of the century. “A silly mistake, my behind,” Edith cackled. “The Kama Sutra. The Joy of Sex. Dating for Dummies. The Multi-Orgasmic Couple. The Girlfriend's Guide to Great Sex.” Edith pointed to each of the books as she listed off the titles. Picking up the books, Mattie said, “This is my business. My personal, private business.” “Poppycock.” Edith stood, h