The snowy days always made Evelyn feel nostalgic and depressed. It had to do with the memories associated with them.
They were always eventful.
Stepping out of the restaurant, Evelyn sighed, watching the white and soft snow touch her stretched palm.
The day was snowing exactly like this when she first met him, fell for him, got married to him, and then left him.
Somehow, no matter how much she convinced herself she was a changed woman, a better version of herself who didn't grovel at anyone's feet, snow always brought her thoughts back to him.
It was truly annoying.
A sardonic chuckle escaped her mouth.
She was really not a person who stayed attached. In fact, growing up, the number of characters she remember from her childhood was indeed pitiful.
She hardly remembered her classmates' name from high school although she got along with them pretty well.
Every time she encountered them after finishing high school, they looked at her with those accusing eyes, most likely calling her cruel in their mind, when she failed to recall their names.
One even jokingly— at least that's what her tone indicated although it was filled with resentment— pointed out how she might have not amounted to anything in Evelyn's eyes.
Can Evelyn be blamed? It wasn't that she treated then with half-heartedness, but it's just that she had always been a social butterfly.
She loved and interacting with new people.
And from birth, she had never been called smart. Her brain didn't have the capability to hold so much information.
That's why, it probably exhausted itself by holding each and every single details of him.
Evelyn could hardly remember the content she learned the previous night for exam yet when it came to him, even if it was something she faintly heard, it stayed in her mind, etched permanently.
And at this rate, even after decades had probably passed, he would probably remain in her memories.
Evelyn really pitied herself.
"Do you need a ride?"
Hearing that voice, Evelyn raised her head. The face of a sunny and handsome man fell into her line of sight, but unfortunately, it created no ripples in her chest.
She once again pitied herself.
There was clearly this bright young man who was capable and well-off showing interest in her yet she found herself comparing him to that person.
That poison she had been given that winter when she was fifteen really has no cure.
Or else why would she be so calm at the face of such an attractive man? Everyone was envious of her for having his heart, and she envied them for having their heart moved at the sight of them.
"Aren't you going the opposite direction?" Evelyn questioned.
He flashed her a smile. It was refreshing just like him.
"It's fine. The snow is pretty heavy tonight. You wouldn't be catch a cab here, and it's not even safe for a pretty, young woman like you to return home this late at night alone."
"What young woman? Don't flatter me with words you don't mean. I am pretty sure you are showing the care for elderly," she joked before going towards the car.
She shuddered as she touched the handle before pulling it open and sitting down.
Regardless of how all the big days of her life always had to happen in winter, Evelyn hated the cold. One could see her fear for cold with how she was bundled up.
Even the temperature was at negatives, others would feel hot simply at a glance at her.
"Old and this pretty? You can only make the others envy."
Evelyn nodded her head in agreement. She couldn't really deny.
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The car ride wasn't boring. The two of them talked for long time without being exhausted and even laughed. Their personality matched well.
When the car stopped in front of her apartment, Evelyn stepped out and winked at the man, giving her goodbyes before closing the door. As she was about to leave, the young man stepped out of the car and enunciated, "Lyn."
This got her to halt her steps and look back, raising an eyebrow.
The man showed nervousness on his face. His eyes stared down at the snowy roads, and having him become so timid all of a sudden confused Evelyn.
What happened to that energetic young man whom she just saw a minute ago? What caused his temperament to change so suddenly?
"Lyn, tomorrow is a day off."
"Yeah?"
Evelyn wasn't young. She experienced a lot. That's why, she dreaded where he was going with this.
"If you are free, then would you like to spend the day with me?"
Evelyn was tempted to give this a try and make it work. But she knew that the latter part could merely be a dream to her. That's why, as much as she wanted to go along with this, she couldn't bring herself to be heartless and give him hope only to ruin him later on.
Her heart, the stubborn little thing, was stuck on one man. And she was totally helpless in the matter.
That's why, being the good person she was, Evelyn opened her mouth to convey her rejection.
"Rick, I… fuck no!" Evelyn cursed as her eyes widened.
Maverick's expression fell down fast, and those eyes of his were filled with grievances. If she wanted to reject him, then she could so.
Why did she have to be so harsh?
But when did Evelyn have the luxury to notice mood?
Her eyes fell on the figure standing in the shadows. Those blue, cat-like eyes fell on her, intimidating her. They were cold, holding no emotions, yet she felt akin to a small prey being eyed by a ferocious beast.
One that wanted to brutally tear her apart.
All her sense became alerted, and the adrenaline spread through her body, causing her to immediately flee from there as a reflex before her brain could even process the situation.
As for Maverick, the man was puzzled, wondering if the proposal he made had been this horrifying. This was bound to leave a long-lasting effect on him, seeing how this was the first time a woman acted as though he was a monster from horror movie upon being asked out.
After all the teasing around and Evelyn being constantly flustered, she finally managed to cook the soup. Fortunately for her, Landon couldn't sit idle.He had his company to take care of. Therefore, he dressed up and left for his work, looking extremely regretful. It brought relief to Evelyn.She wanted to spend time with her baby Sophia.Although the girl was weak and pale, she stared at Evelyn with animated eyes as she fed her. After the girl was done eating, Evelyn patted on her head. Her heart tightened.Keeping her away from her daughter for so many years, Landon wasn't a good thing for sure.Seeing all the needle marks on her daughter's hand and how the girl could hardly walk made Evelyn's heart sink. After the little Sophia was done eating, Evelyn accompanied the girl to watch cartoons. Evelyn ate her breakfast while Sophia excitedly introduced her favorite characters to her mom.Evelyn listened in full interest.The little girl then raised her head and, staring at Evelyn exp
"That I can, but raising a family takes a lot of money. That's why, it is better to save money as much as possible," he voiced out.Evelyn's teeth dug into her lower lip, and she clenched her hand into a tight fist. Seeing the amusement twinkling in his eyes made her feel more aggravated.She wanted to bunch that face, but afraid of having from worse repercussions, she held back her action. Taking in how he acted these days, she was afraid of being told to do something ridiculous to make up to him.She raised her hand and pushed his chest away with her palms. He didn't resist and took a step behind. She took in a deep breath and pressed her forehead."Do whatever you want. Don't talk to me or else, believe it or not..." she trailed off, starting to think of a decent threat.Her eyes wandered around the place when she spotted the kitchen knife. She reached out to pull it out before pointing it towards Landon's throat."I will stab you. I really will. Even if I have to spend a lifetime
Sitting on the chair, Evelyn dozed off. Her head wobbled due to lack of support, and when it was about to fall down, Landon entered the room.He noticed her position. He hurriedly stepped ahead and placed his palm forward, letting her head rest on it. His eyes then fell on her face, unable to move them away as he saw her sleep peacefully. However, then her eyebrows furrowed.Those dark eyelashes fluttered as she opened her eyes. Her vision was hazy at first, and only upon focusing did Landon's tense expression fell into her line of sight.She quickly reacted by moving away from him, removing her head from his palm. Although Landon felt a sense of loss, he didn't let it show on his face.He placed his hand down and cleared his throat."Are you hungry? You haven't eaten dinner," he pointed out.Now that all of her intense emotions settled down, she could feel the hunger gnawing inside her stomach. But she kept her expression indifferent."No, I am fine. Where will I be staying?" she vo
Landon's words made her think.She couldn't deny that she felt happy and free during this period of three years. She thought she almost moved on, putting everything behind.If Landon gave her a couple more years, the past wouldn't even hurt her, and he will be erased from her heart entirely.But did that matter now when the truth came crushing down on her?All she felt was regret, hurt, and anger. Maybe she should have acted more stable back then. That would have probably given Landon the chance to tell her about everything."That would have been fine. According to you, in order to not let me be hurt then, you hid the matter from me and took away the option of having a choice from me. I could have endured that agony. At least that would allow me to stay by my child's side and support her through the pain. As her mother, that's my right and responsibility. Who are you to snatch that away from me? How would you feel if I did the same to you? Kept your child hidden from for years and m
Landon took in a deep breath and started, "In the beginning, even I thought that she didn't make it. The doctor, he colluded with Stacey and let the entire family believe she died.At the same time, Stacey hid her away. I didn't notice in the beginning, but she left behind enough flaws for me to catch on to it. This made me panic, and I knew if I wanted to find our baby, I needed to hurry and do it in a way that didn't alert Stacey.That's why, I said those hurtful words to you in the hospital back then. I can never be sorry enough. I had to gain Stacey's trust, and that was the best way to do it under her watch.Your state was fragile then, and I was afraid of you alarming Stacey. It was wrong of me to withhold the information from you, but that was the best I could do.When I managed to find our baby, I planned to tell you all about it, but your mental state worsened. You became suicidal and wished to divorce me.The psychiatrist told me to let you go, but I didn't want to be sepa
The next second she felt him grab her hand and drag her out of the room. She couldn't resist against the force applied by him."What are you doing!? Let go of me!"She was brought into another room. Before she could look around it, a door was opened. Then, she was pushed into her washroom, and a gasp left her mouth at his next action.He turned on the shower, letting the cold water fall on her head and drenching her. As it touched her skin, she shuddered at the temperature and glared at him.Has he completely lost it?What was he even doing?"Are you crazy? Aren't you going too far? This—"Before she was able to carry on forward with her words, he placed his finger on her lips and enunciated, "Do you feel cooler now? Did all the heat dissipate? Are you ready to listen to me?"She was baffled.She was freezing right now, but that did work as great distraction. However, Evelyn wasn't great at enduring low temperature, and after that pregnancy, her body weakened considerably, making her