Chapter 22

I think Nick could sense something was off with me today. He has constantly been asking me if I was feeling ok, causing me to lie through my teeth and say yes. I knew I should've canceled, and called him earlier to do so. But he begged to see me and there was no way I could say no. And when I arrived at our park meeting, he surprised me with a picnic set up for us. He packed a blanket, pillows, and mini electric fans, along with food and plenty of water.

How could a man be so thoughtful and sweet?"

So when I saw the sweet gesture, I stuffed down my depression. Smiling and joking with him trying to be light-hearted. Yet, finding myself failing miserably. I wanted to listen to him speak as he talked of his family and homeland. But it was almost as if my brain was rejecting the idea. I would accidentally tune him out, his voice fading from my ears. While I stared into space thinking about my husband and becoming sad. His words from the other night ringing in my ear.

You don't deserve to