Trust
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He just called me by my name! He just called me Kira! Many people call me by my name but it felt so nice when he said it.
I have never felt anything like this before. It is such a simple and small thing yet it makes my mind and heart spin around in chaos. Why is this happening?
How is he doing this? Is this even normal?
I don't feel the same when Josh calls me by my name. So, why? Maybe something is wrong with me and it's time for me to go see a doctor?
Maybe I should. I just hope that I'm fine.
Also, now that I think about it, I haven't called him by his name, right? What would his reaction be if I were to do it? Would he think and feel the same way? Or maybe,
it will be normal for him? Not a big deal? Gosh, Kira. Why would he feel the same as you do? He is pretty healthy
Feelings• • • • •"The more you hide your feelings, the more they show. The more you deny your feelings, the more they grow."-Unknown• • • •"Cute." He pinched my cheek which I ignored and asked."We will go home already?""Yes. Why?""I want to ask Bia about the matter that you mentioned a while ago." My eyes are only glued at the floor indicator where the light went to the fourth, third, second, and to the last floor."It's no use asking her and you know why." I probably know only half of what he really means.Because Bia has a rude personality? Feeler? Plastic? Snake? Chatterbox? What else? Uhm,Always fantasizing that Neal loves her? and that she owns him? Ugh, I should really slap her back to reality."Kira."To be honest, I really could have done it b
Adorable• • • • •"No. I can't let you see—let anyone see this defenseless side of me. It's mortifying.""But I want to see! I really want to see those blushes! Pretty pleaseee? And also, I don't see anyone around so, it's safe to say that I'm the only one that could see it." I gave him the puppy eyes and pouted. He looked down at me and heaved a deep sigh while his hand was still covering half of his face."You're tempting me and I won't fall for it.""Hmmph. Okay then. I guess you want me to announce it to everyone in this company that you can blush? And then--""And now, you're blackmailing me. That's cheating.""No. I was just being cunning." I smirked. He sighed in defeat and placed his hands down, showing me his adorable red face.I stared at him, adoring how his slightly tanned skin glistened
I Know Her• • • • •I unconsciously stopped from walking any further and looked up at him. He halted upon noticing that I wasn't by his side anymore and glanced at me with great confusion and curiosity in his eyes.I just can't believe what he just said.Did I really make him happy with just that? Being beside him all the time? Even with all the horrible things that I did to him? It may not be a big deal for some but it is already for me.Making a distant and cold-blooded Neal, happy with just a simple gesture? I never thought of that. It's totally new and thinking about what he said over and over makes my heart beat crazily.I could feel stirred up emotions starting to form in my heart but one sensation dominated all the other emotions that I was feeling.Joy.I was happy. I'm happy because he is happy.
Uninvited Guest• • • • •I was about to turn around and walk back inside the house when she shouted at me with her high-pitched voice."You little piece of shit! Open the goddamn gate NOW!" A little piece of shit? Me? Then, that makes her a big piece of shit.I ignored her but she begged and begged, thinking that there's no way that she will definitely stop so I turned around and rolled my eyes at her."I'm sorry! But please, open the gate! This is very important! I need to talk with Mr. Babe! Please!" Ugh. I guess she has left me with no choice.I approached and looked at her. She's now on the verge of crying. What a nuisance. I know that she wouldn't just go away even if I ignore her, right?"What do you want from Neal?" I asked her. I know I sounded so irritated because she pursed her lips together and looked down at the folder that she wa
And I Despise You• • • • •She looked at me unbelievably and shook her head. "I can't believe that my Mr. Babe is stuck in here with you. My poor babe. The woman who was supposed to be his future wife doesn't even know how to cook? What do you feed people? Just some disgusting stuff?" She exaggeratingly said, mocking me.She even wiped an invisible tear on her eye as she looked at me with pitiful eyes. "I bet he's tired of you, Kira but he is just hiding it. Maybe the truth is that he doesn't really love you, well, look at you! I don't see why he should see you as his future wife. You don't deserve to be loved! Ugly! Short! You're just too boring for his likes and I am better! I know that he'll choose me."Nye nye nye. Can someone please shut this woman's mouth!?She really talks a lot. I just want her to leave so that I could sit on the couch and rest my hips that were still hurti
Thinking of What?• • • • •"Ughhhhh." I exhaled and stretched my arms, feeling peaceful once again.As I was about to close my eyes, the image of the folder that Bia was tightly holding a while ago came to mind.What was in that folder?I suddenly opened my eyes as my forehead became sweaty and my hands shaking nervously.I have a bad feeling about it.I feel like it's very important—very important to Bia so, maybe it doesn't concern Neal's modeling company.Whatever the content of the folder was, it has to do something with the both of them. It is probably about them.Bia and Neal.But what though? Is asking Neal about it the right thing? But what if, only Bia knows about it and no one else? Or what if,Neal knows but chooses to hide it from me? Well, it is possible. It may happen again and
Childish• • • • •He sat down beside me and held my chin to face him. "I knew I was right. You should have just told me the truth, Kira. You don't want me to be in a bad mood, right, darling?" He grinned at me.This man."So that means that it's okay with you whether I am in a bad mood, too? Tsk, you don't know how mad I am today. Especially at you." I said with gritted teeth as I move away from him, crossing my arms over my chest. He'll probably think that I'm joking. Hah! We'll see.Well, what I said was still a bit true since he didn't arrive sooner when Bia was still here. I wouldn't be this mad and anxious if he didn't leave."Why's my darling mad at me?" He moved closer and wrapped his arms around my waist. I tried to move away again but he's not letting me so I let him be and pouted."Hmmph. How would I know? Why don't you talk to yourself? Maybe by doing i
Date• • • • •He's making me more helpless and I really should do something right away. If he thinks that he gets what he wants that easily, then he is wrong. He may be dominating me right now but it won't last for long. I'll be turning the tables and show him how it's professionally done.Something that would leave him wanting for more.Wow, Kira. Coming from someone as innocent and as inexperienced as you. Duh, I'll trust myself on this.I smiled at him seductively as I moved closer to him, kneeling on one knee and with a sweet tone, I whispered in his ear,"You're not doing it right, darling. How weak."I moved away from him to see how he would react and laughed at the view. He looked at me with wide eyes, couldn't believe with what I just said and did but reverted to his calm demeanor and sm