Return To The Past

"If it is a sin to love you then I shall gladly bear it."

"If it is a crime to desire you, then I shall gladly take any punishment given to me."

"But you must remember, Chang'e.. No matter how many times you reject me, curse me, insult me, I won't give up."

"You can run away even to end of the earth or deep into the abyss, I.. Zhong Kui, will never let you go."

"Your heart, body, soul, everything that you are, belongs to me."

The voice of a man, cold and deep yet sensually dangerous echoed in Ming Yue's mind. She didn't even know why she could hear things even though she was dead.

Was it the voice of a spirit?

But why the voice sounded familiar to her ears?

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*BAM! BAM! BAM!*

With loud knocking that could woke the dead, Ming Yue opened her eyes with a gasp of air. Her eyes spread wide, staring at the ceiling that looked familiar to her. Her brows furrowed in confusion as she kept staring at the ceiling. That ceiling was the basement inside Qing family house. Ming Yue's very own room.

*BAM! BAM! BAM!*

"Slut! wake up and make breakfast!" A shout belong to none other than her adoptive mother, Gu Sui Rong could be heard clearly from outside of the room.

"Right away." Ming Yue answered knowing that if she didn't reply, Sui Rong wouldn't let her go. Steps could be heard as it slowly disappeared, Ming Yue breathed a sigh of relief before her eyes gazing around the room.

'What exactly happened here?' Ming Yue asked inwardly. Such question was normal since Ming Yue knew she supposed to be dead.

The room she was in always had a pleasant scent even though it was a basement. Her bed was just matress on the floor and her furniture only had small table and counter made of boxes that was originally in the basement. The ventilation she had was just small window that was facing the garage.

Then Ming Yue reached for the small mirror near the counter and looked at herself. Her jaw dropped slightly as she couldn't believe what she saw. The reflection showed a young girl, around 15 years old. A pale white face with a sense of gloominess yet still beautiful nonetheless.

It seemed Ming Yue had returned to 10 years ago. Was this the so called reincarnation? Maybe heaven pitied her and granted her another life so she could restart her own life. Her lips curled upward, turning into a soft smile.

Her vow, she still remembered it. This time, she would live for herself. This time, she would not bow down to anyone ever again. This time, she wanted to taste what it felt to truly live.

Ming Yue's mind drifted to a single person. Her eyes turned cold as she closed it for a while and opened it again. This time she would not go to that man. This time she would leave him alone.

'Long Zhi Qiang.. just as I vowed, I won't fall in love with you for the second time.' Ming Yue muttered inside as she stood up and walked to the door.

'I have loved once and it was painful.'

'Now, I have no need for love.'

'Heaven.. if you hear my prayer, let my heart be frozen for eternity'

'That way it won't be broken'

'That way it won't get hurt'

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Ming Yue arrived at the dining room and saw four person gazed at her coldly. If it was in the past, Ming Yue wouldn't be able to meet their eyes. She was afraid to see the coldness that was directed at her. Now, she stared at them back with the same cold gaze. It caused the four pair of eyes startled.

"What were you doing in your room?! Can't you see that we are waiting for you to cook our breakfast?!" Sui Rong said in anger.

"Hmph! Disaster child will always be disaster child. No wonder your mother abandoned you." Sui Rong added with a sneer.

Staring at the woman indifferently, Ming Yue didn't even refute. Instead, she walked toward the kitchen and started preparing breakfast for those rotten people.

"Hmph! What rotten hag.. I am amazed you can withstand this long living with those people."

A voice could be heard and soon a figure appeared next to Ming Yue, transparent and floating. The figure was a young girl in her teens, blood stained half of her pale face, showing the state when she died.

"It's the usual, nothing new." Ming Yue replied coldly.

Yes, it was nothing new. The usual insults that happened almost every day for years, Ming Yue was used to it. Yet.. in past she kept on hoping that one day, her adopted family would accept her. In the past, Ming Yue was starving for love. Love from family, love from friends, love from special person. Still, she couldn't get any of it.

Ming Yue laughed in mockery inside toward her past self, how foolish she was for kept on hoping for something that would never come.

The young girl stared at Ming Yue for a while before stating her opinion. "Are you okay?" she asked.

Ming Yue turned her gaze to the young girl's face while staring at her in confusion, "Of course. Why do you ask, Yu Ran?"

Yu Ran shook her head, "It's nothing. I just felt there is something different in you but maybe that was just my imagination."

In fact what Yu Ran suspected was right on the mark. Ming Yue revealed a bitter smile but it disappeared quickly. She had been reborn, of course it would leave a sense of mark in her soul and ghosts were sensitive to that kind of mark.

Finished making breakfast, Ming Yue took the leftover she cast aside before presenting the food on the dining table as her breakfast. She was not allowed to eat at the dining room so she ate her breakfast at the kitchen instead.

Eating, cleaning the kitchen then preparing for school was the daily activities Ming Yue had in the past life. However she didn't want to do it anymore. Now, Ming Yue planned to break away from this hellish house. This time for sure, she would leave this house and never returned.