Chapter Fifty Eight

My throat seems to close up but I can't possibly escape the situation now. I've already put it out there that I have more to say, that's not exactly something you take back. I release a soft sigh and pull my hand away.

"I…..". It suddenly seems like a herculean job to find the right words to say. "I…. about what Anita said…you know it's not true right?". He stares at me emptily and I resist the urge to squirm.

"Of course". He says flatly. "After all we aren't even a real couple". I wince at the coldness of his voice.

"That….that was probably an unfair thing for me to say….".

"It's not if it's the truth though".

"Yes it's the truth but….". I dart a tongue across my bottom lip and run an agitated hand through my hair. "I don't know what to do, Alex". I can't look at him. I keep my gaze fixated on the far wall behind him, scared that I'll give away too much emotions. And yet I feel his eyes boring into my face, it feels like he's looking right into my soul and if I look at him back j