Zayan's Point of ViewSomehow between me not wanting to fuck up but still wanting to fuck her and setting some boundaries, I fucked up anyway. Kamari's face had contorted into shame. Guilt.I could have slapped myself when her eyes dimmed.Her smile faltered.But I had wanted to set boundaries with her from the beginning. Maybe bringing her to my mother's old cottage was a bad idea to start with. Although I needed to get her somewhere that wasn't her home. That was still with me. We should have spent the night together here. I should have been gentle but firm. Instead, I acted like a fucking turtle and climbed into my shell.Should I have run after her when she left? Yes, I should have. Was I too stunned to even move a finger? Yes, I fucking was. In all my time on this earth, I had never seen a woman more poised to run away from me than I had Kamari. Even Eris had taken her time to leave. But the girl had been a cracker shot from its pipe. Eager to move her limbs and run into a bustl
Kamari's Point of View We were busy in the garden. Plucking out weeds and freshening up some roses. My dad wanted to start planting some vegetables in the back corner. Neither of us mentioned the time my mother finally left. I had gone up to my room and slammed the door shut. The two of them resigned themselves to whispering. Sometimes I could still hear my mother's entitled voice plead with him to make me reconsider. Sometimes I could hear my father getting annoyed with the woman. But as of right now, neither of us dared to speak about her. "We can plant various tomatoes and chillis. Throw in some green beans. They all have their set needs, so we will have to start a greenhouse. But we can start small and work our way up." He explained and chucked the last few weeds into a black bag. Weeds weren't meant to go in the compost pile. If they had seeds on them, they would wreak havoc on the heap we had already started working on. So, we threw them away. There were times I wondered i
Kamari's Point of View He instantly started pacing around the room when I let him in. Walked from one point to the other repeatedly until my neck refused to follow him any longer. It was aching. Threatened to break off where my neck met my spine. Sometimes it felt like the room was too small for Nolan and me combined. As if he needed more space to trek and fume. The behavior was so unlike him that I had resigned to just staring at him. My dad had made an appearance about half an hour ago. Noticed Nolan's distressed state and decided he better head off. With a long look sent his way, I silently begged him to take me with. I had never seen Nolan in such a trance. Had always known him to be a level-headed individual. Not this brooding mumbling beast in front of me. As if the notion of his best friend sleeping with the likes of me undid him completely. "Are you going to take a moment to calm down?" I finally asked, feeling my throat tighten. After last night's conflict, I wasn't feel
Zayan's Point of ViewThe trout taunted me with their slow movements. Swirling. Gliding. Ignoring my fucking bait that was right in front of them. Hell, I even whipped the fly fishing rod the way my dad had taught me. Nothing. They remained unphased by my effort. Which infuriated me more. "Unclench your jaw, Zayan. You are scaring the fish." My dad mocked, a taunting smile on his lips. We were about knee depth in the pond. Could feel the cool rush of water against the rubber fishing suit I wore. It was uncomfortable but so was this entire experience. I wasn't a waiting type of person. Hated fishing to my very core.And my dad adored it. So we compromised and promised to spend at least one afternoon a week fishing. A nice relaxing afternoon with just the two of us. Even my phone had been switched off. Which was torture, considering my current predicament with Kamari."They hate the lure I am using," I growled out. This led to my dad chuckling beside me. Effortlessly, he whipped his
Kamari's Point of View The universities deeper into the country seemed more promising than the ones close by. Mainly because they were human-run and not wolf-run. My odds of getting into a wolf university were scarce, seeing as the color of my fur was now on my permanent record. Like some fucking criminal charge. But several human universities had promising programs. The first step I had to take in becoming a psychiatrist would be to study medicine. Which wasn't a walk in the park but at least I had decent enough grades to enroll. A scholarship wasn't even close to being on the table. Up until now, I had thought my dream of going to study would never come true. Then Zayan came and gave me a way to realize it. For that, I would always be thankful. Seven years in medicine. One year in a public hospital. Then specialization for another three years. Eleven years of my life, gone in a flash. My dad wouldn't move with me. I had an inkling he had something on with the sweet barista from
Kamari's Point of ViewJust inside the treeline, Zayan finally shook himself out of his daze. In two or three pumps of his legs, he was beside me. Grabbed my elbow to keep me from going in deeper. When he spun me around, he was faced with a smile on my lips.Because this felt oddly like a teenage movie. The brave heroine was sneaking out to meet her love interest. Normally in a teenage movie, that meant the jock or the rich kid that wasn't supposed to like her. In my case, it meant a brooding wolf that looked like he just stepped off the vogue cover. But also looked ready to kill anyone that might interrupt us.A heady combination that I couldn't always wrap my mind around. "What if someone sees us?" He whispered. His face was a mask of concern. Eyebrows pinched in. Lips tugged into a thin line. Which was a fucking shame, seeing as he had the most kissable lips."How do you always come into the pack without being detected?" I asked again and raised an eyebrow at him. Zayan rolled hi
Zayan's Point of ViewFuck. Fuck. Fuck.I snuck a look at her back there. Her ass. The curve of her spine. Fuck. She was perfectly sculpted. Her hair fell so lovingly to her ass. I wanted to groan when I saw it. But then she was turning and staring at me so that I couldn't even breathe. Having her attention so fully on me set fire to my insides.But standing here in this cave with her, all I could think about was how that patch of moss over there could be the perfect bed. How she could hold onto the rock behind it when she sat on my face. And once we were spent. Happy and trembling. We could dive into the pool to clean ourselves. Maybe even end up having another round in the crystal clear waters."This is the kind of place you can only find in story books," I murmured but felt stupid the moment the words left my lips.Story books? Really? What the fuck was I even thinking? I wasn't, that's the fucking problem. I was too lost in thoughts about her. How her skin would taste. How it wo
Kamari's Point of ViewThe kiss took me off-guard. Curled my toes into the damp earth.But what he had said before was even better. I was wanted and needed. He craved me more than I craved him. Zayan was just restraining himself. Until this moment. Until this cave and all these emotions between us. His hand held my hip tightly to him. Tugged me in close whilst the other wrapped around my cheek. His tongue lapped at the inside of my bottom lip. Asked permission to enter. I granted it. Savored the feel of him.It was my first kiss. My first real kiss. Not some kiddy joke that we did after school back when boys had cooties. This time around, the feel of him pressed into me, I couldn't imagine that I had ever been so fucking dumb to think I could die from this. From this desire that lit something in my soul on fire. Zayan moved his lips over mine. Changed his tempo every so often. The sensation was driving me wild. The slow followed by a hot swirl of need and breath. His hand dropped