Lya
I came to in a familiar place - exactly the opposite of what I hoped. We needed to be far, far away from here. Curled up in front of Trevor’s apartment door was not that.
I heard footsteps down the hall, but I didn’t even have the mental fortitude to move. Maybe I could just be arrested and sentenced to death. That’d be one way to be rid of this parasite.
'I’m not a parasite.' That damn voice.
'Go away,' I retorted.
'No.' Great.
The footsteps got closer. I would sure be a sight - a naked little girl covered in blood just curled up on the floor. This would definitely get some attention. Why couldn’t I move?
Trevor rounded the corner. He was the only person I wanted to see, and the last at the same time. I stared at his shoes as he came to stand in front of me.
“Oh, Lya…” he sighed. I offered no response. He helped me stand up, unlocked the door, and guided me inside. I stumbled across the apartment to flop down at the kitchen table. I didn’t want to sit anywhere where the blood would be impossible to get out.
Trevor sat down across from me and stared intently, probably taking in the absolutely horrific condition I was in. Why wasn’t he freaking out? I was sure he had so many questions, but I couldn’t think of a way to answer any of them. “Do you want to tell me now, or take a shower first?” he asked.
“I… I think something is wrong with me,” I said quietly, refusing to look up at him.
Trevor chuckled softly. Even in the most serious of times, he always found a way to try and lighten the mood. It was what garnered him the spot as my closest friend here. “That is just a matter of opinion.” He paused, and I finally met his gaze. “I do not think anything is wrong with you. But I do know you need help.”
I let out a sigh. If only he knew what was really going on…
“Why don’t you go take a shower, and then we can talk.” It was a welcome suggestion.
I got up and wandered to the bathroom, leaning against the vanity while the shower heated up. Trevor was one of the kindest, most accepting people I had ever met. He deserved better than to be around someone like me. When my relationship started to fall apart for reasons I refused to divulge to him, he was there for me with absolutely no questions asked. Just a shoulder to cry on, and a couch to crash on.
Ted had asked once or twice in the weeks before if I was cheating on him, and Trevor was the main culprit he had in mind, but I tried my best to ease his worries regarding that. Trevor would never cross that line, and I had absolutely no interest in going anywhere close to it. Besides, even if Ted couldn’t believe it, it was really truly an “it’s not you, it’s me” situation. Probably the epitome of them.
The hot water beat down on me, the blood washing away down the drain, but it did nothing to wash away the guilt and shame that was my life. The gashes on my arm stung as the water and soap ran over them.
This wasn’t anywhere close to the exit strategy I had planned.
'This is our life now.'
'Not if I can help it,' I retorted. If you can say something through gritted teeth to the unwelcome resident voice in your head, that’s what I did.
I hadn’t even noticed Trevor slip in and leave a pair of sweats and shirt to borrow. I suppose I could have told him I had stuff in my car, but I should probably leave those there for when I can inevitably escape again. Thinking about it, maybe the best way to get out was to actually tell him the truth. If he knew what I really was, he’d probably be excited to see me get away from him. And it’d be a guarantee that none of my friends came looking.
Once dressed, I glared at myself in the mirror. My amber eyes stared back at me. I used to think they were a unique, exotic looking color. Now, though, I just resented them - they looked animalistic. Completely inhuman.
But that was the truth.
Time’s up, Lya. Gotta go ruin my life some more, I told myself.
I left the bathroom, making my way over to Trevor’s living room. Sinking into his couch, I appreciated the creature comforts he splurged on. This would probably be the last time I’d get to sit on something as comfortable as this. I’d be on the run or in prison for the rest of my life. I gave it three days before there was a well check on Ted. People would notice he was missing from work, not showing up to the climbing gym, and not responding to any texts and calls. I wondered if anyone would bother to check on me.
Trevor’s eyes hadn’t left me since I sat down. I really couldn’t make out what exactly his expression was. Worry? Fear? Curiosity? The silence was getting more tense by the moment, but I refused to break it.
Trevor sighed and sat back, lacing his fingers behind his head. “So when did you first shift?” he asked.
My eyes bulged. That was far from the question I was expecting. He didn’t seem surprised.
“Wh-what?” I choked out.
'You don’t get to run forever.' I refused to engage.
He leaned forward, honey colored eyes boring into me. “We know, Lya. And all we want to do is help.” Trevor smirked. “Come on now, an anomaly like yours? You had to have known you weren’t the only one. So when did you first shift?”
“Fifteen.” I pulled my knees up to my chest, feeling much more vulnerable than I did when I thought I was just having to justify a murder.
He nodded. “That’s normal. So why didn’t your parents help you out with it? At least one of them has to be full blooded for you to have gotten it.”
I shook my head. “My mom found out.”
“Found out? So was it from your dad? She still should have known if it was from his side. Are you adopted?”
I shook my head again, my eyes not leaving the floor. “She was scared, so I tried to get rid of it…” He motioned for me to continue, so I just held out my arms. Scars from years of cutting myself with a silver blade to shut that thing out covered them. “Suicide attempts didn’t work, but silver blades would make it go away for a while.”
He leaned his head down, eyes scrunched closed, and ran his hands through his sandy hair. I looked past him at the suggestion of dawn streaming through the window.
“Lya, there’s nothing wrong with you.” Trevor looked back up, this time it was clearly sorrow in his eyes. “You should have been told, educated. That is a failure of all of our kind. You’re a werewolf, Lya. Not a monster.”
Oliver It had been four hours. I really hoped he had a handle on where she was by this point. For the first time in a long time, I actually called Trevor. The phone barely had a chance to ring before it connected. “Yeah?” His voice was gruff. “Update?” “Oh, y’know, pulled an all-nighter. Not the fun kind, either.” I waited for him to continue. This wasn’t exactly a joking matter. “It’s bad, and we will be headed to you as soon as we can.” “We knew it was bad,” I pointed out. “What other information do you have?” He sighed. “Do you want to know now, or wait for her to tell you?” “Now.” “Well, her mom at least clearly had no idea what she could be. I don’t know if it was a one night stand or she was adopted, but clearly her dad isn’t in the picture, because the wolfiness could have come from him and he wasn’t around to help her.” That bombshell caused pause. Werewolves don’t let humans adopt their pups for this very reason. It’s too dangerous to go through a first sh
Lya I sat in the passenger seat of Trevor’s Lincoln. I was curled up small, staring out the window. Every time he tried to get me to talk, I stayed silent. Really, I had probably told him too much. I just needed to get out and away from here. Trevor insisted there were others like me. I had a hard time believing it. He wanted to take me to what he called a pack. They could help me, get me acclimated and adjusted to the life I was supposed to have. That wasn’t going to happen. There was no way something like me was supposed to have a life. “Are you like- like me?” I asked after a good half hour of silence. “Yes,” he said with a laugh. “I am. It’s how I kept an eye on you the past couple weeks.” “You what?” I asked, shocked. “C’mon, Lya,” he chided. “I knew something was wrong. Do you remember a couple weeks ago when you stayed late at the bar, actually got drunk, and then crashed at my place? I knew something was wrong.” He gave me a sideways glance, quickly reverting hi
Oliver I hadn’t even been thinking twice before answering phone calls today. Already, I had sent out my best three scouts to check out the area surrounding the girl’s former home. I had an analyst digging up what he could about the hunter family she was enmeshed with, and had calls out to packs anywhere within 500 miles asking about hunter activity. So far, the consensus had been that hunters had been quiet recently, almost worryingly so. There were only a few primary factions of hunters throughout the country. They tended to work together, forming their own pack of sorts. It was usually a side gig for them while they maintained otherwise normal lives as well. Years ago, they tried to make noise about the things that went bump in the night humans should be scared of, but they were quickly written off as mentally unhinged. That served us well, resulting in a large number of our threats being locked away and dubbed insane. In a roundabout way, it also secured the idea that we were j
Lya I sat down on the embankment overlooking the river. The sun was high in the sky, and I had probably been making steady progress for a good four hours, maybe more. I peeled off my sweatshirt and spent a minute just enjoying the feel of the sun on my skin. The now melted snow had engorged the river, and the high waters rushed by. Off in the distance, I could hear four wheelers. The thought that someone else was at least enjoying the first tastes of summer brought a sad smile to my face. I’d have to remember this place, and maybe come back someday. There hadn’t been much about this state that I had liked, but this place was akin to my little sanctuary. Just a lot bigger, and no trees. A lot of people had told me that I would enjoy the Black Hills, and they would remind me of the Appalachian Mountains in New England. I highly doubted it, though. Nothing could ever compare to those. I sat and thought about what to do now. Choices were exceptionally limited. I didn’t have any mod
Oliver I pulled into the gas station parking lot, next to Trevor’s car. Rose was standing with him, leaning against the trunk. They were somber. I was sure Trevor had filled her in on the recent happenings. Rose had already gotten the rundown of who Lya was, why things needed to be followed up, but I don’t think she expected the girl to truly be as resistant to everything as she was. “Any leads?” I asked while getting out of the car. “North, along the river,” Trevor said. “I made it a good three or four miles, but turned back when Rose got here.” I nodded. “Let’s go. Get out of town and then we will shift. It’ll be faster that way.” They were quick to follow, and soon enough, we were shucking our clothes and shifting. Wolves tended to mimic the appearance of their human counterparts, resulting in some very interesting wolf colors. We can’t gain or lose weight when we shift, so our wolf weight corresponds with the human weight. Adair was on the small side for an Alpha wol
Lya 'Hey,' a voice echoed through my head. I ignored it. Everything was so dark and disjointed. I had no perception of what was going on. 'Hey,' it repeated. It was a feminine voice. Flowy and soft, but also demanding respect and to be heard. 'What?' My own was groggy and cracked. 'A thank you is in order,' she said. 'And why would I do that?' 'For taking over and protecting your ass when you would never return the favor,' she scoffed. I had no idea what was going on. I felt completely out of my own body. That feeling intensified as images from the past started to come into focus. 'It doesn’t have to be this way,' she whispered softly. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I sat in my old childhood bedroom. It must have been late, because the curtains were drawn and a lamp was on. I looked on at a younger version of myself, smiling and giggling to herself. I remembered this night, this conversation. I had just turned 15 two months ago, and
Oliver I walked down a footpath leading away from the back of the packhouse. I had my head down, looking at my feet. This path wasn’t anywhere near as worn as it should have been. I wasn’t making my way out this direction enough. I felt guilty at that thought. I couldn’t really claim it was because of how busy things were with the pack; we had had peace for so long, and the hierarchy operated like a well oiled machine. I could take a couple hours to pay this particular Elder a visit more often. She lived alone now, her mate dying five years previously from the slow decline of heartbreak, after their son had passed. I often wondered how the death of their only child and the death of her mate didn’t take her, too. Her mental fortitude was one of the things that garnered her a place as an elder. I came up to her cottage. It sat about a mile away from the packhouse, a few hundred yards inside the forest that surrounded the town, but still well within our territory borders. She defi
Lya My eyelids were heavy, and it was a monumental effort to just crack them open. I was surrounded by white, and everything smelled sterile. I tried to shift positions, but searing pain ran through me. I gasped. “Hey, take it easy, kiddo,” a familiar voice said from the corner of the room. I turned my head to look at him. Trevor gave me a half smile. “You certainly do like making a scene, don’t you?” “I’m sorry,” I croaked. He reached over and handed me a cup of water from the bedside table. “Had to expect something like that with the bombshell I dropped on you,” he muttered. “Where are we?” I asked. He looked at me with a sad expression. “You are in a hospital. My first aid knowledge doesn’t quite cover bullet holes.” I gulped. I guess I wasn’t in any condition to run. When they found out about Ted, it’d be really easy to just waltz up and arrest me. Or maybe it would be really easy to suggest he shot me and I killed him in self defense. I breathed out. I had a defense, at