" I'm sorry…" he mumbled, half wishing she didn't hear what he said. He glanced at her and she was staring at him, her eyes slightly widened. She caught herself in time, rapidly shaking her head.
" It's okay. I shouldn't have bothered you."
" No it's not. How can you say it's okay? I should not have have treated you like that." He continued, still angry at himself.
" It's really okay. But since you apologized, then I'll take it." She muttered, letting a small smile. Gerald let out a breath, feeling absolutely relieved. The atmosphere was much lighter as they continued with their food. It was then he noticed the difference in taste.
" Did you make this?" He asked and she blushed, nodding slightly. " Not really. But I helped." She replied, tucking her hair behind her ears." It's delicious." He muttered.
Serena warmed at the complement. Feeling all fluttery inside, she muttered her thanks.
Right before his eyes, she went all sad and dreary to bright and beautiful. The glow that was ever present in her eyes had returned and he felt good knowing he was the one who brought it back. Try as he might, he couldn't understand why he was so uncomfortable around her, especially when he knew she did nothing wrong. It's almost as he felt he didn't deserve her.
They soon finished eating and the maids came to clear up all their plates. Taking a sip of his wine, be watched as she stared at everything but him.
" You want to tell me what you've been up to? " He asked, and she glanced at him, confused. He raised a brow, gesturing to her and she stuttered, scratching her hair." Well... Um, nothing. Really. I've just been attending classes and spent a great deal of time at the garden."
" Garden? I thought you were weeding?" " Well, I was. But I also planted new plants. You know the garden could use a lot more flowers, it just looked so plain and..." She continued talking, absorbed in her tale. Gerald was watching her speak but he didn't really hear what she was saying. He was more interested in how her eyes lit up and the color on her cheeks as she talked passionately about her topic. All of a sudden, he realized he liked hearing her talk. Her voice was so soothing. He realized she was still and gave her his full attention." So yeah... That's what I did." She finished, staring at him expectantly. He took in a deep breath, wondering on how he would reply her.
" And you weren't bored?" He asked after a while.
" Well... It did get really quiet and it's not something I'm used to."
He nodded, unsure of what to say. Serena stared at him, wondering what's going on in that mind of his. This was the first time he had ever had a conversation with her and she didn't know what to make of it. He'd known a bit about her and she wanted to know something about him, anything. But she wasn't sure if he had the courage to." Gerald?" She called out and he glanced at her. Taking in a deep breath, she continued. " Why were you angry earlier?" She asked, her voice hardly above a whisper.
" Nothing you need to worry about." He replied but she knew it was much more than that. Clenching her fists, she stared at him. " If it's related to me..." She began, her heart heavy. " I'm sorry. I don't want you to fight with your mother. She just wants the best for you."
If not for the sincerity in her eyes, Gerald could've sworn she was just lying. That didn't she care about him, that she was only concerned about being a duchess. All of a sudden he was confused." Why did you agree to the marriage?" He asked suddenly. It was unexpected, but he needed to know. " Why? Was it because of the power?"
" No." She replied, shaking her head.
" Because of the money?"
She shook her head again. " Why are you asking this?"
" Because I don't understand why a lady like you would want to live with someone like me. This world is so complicated and all is not as it seems. So why did you agree to it? I'm sure you had a choice to refuse."
" You're right. I did have choice to refuse. But at that time, I didn't think it was a bad idea."
" And now?" She took in a deep breath, then stared at him square in the face. " I still don't think it is." She said firmly. " This is hard for me too, Gerald." She said and he scoffed." Of course it is." He muttered. Her reply did nothing to rid the uneasiness he felt. Frustrated than before, he stood up and left the room.
... The shower Gerald had did help and he was feeling slightly better. Patting himself dry, he wore his nightclothes and proceeded to her himself a bottle of liquor. He stepped out as he didn't want to disturb the maids and bumped into Serena. She was also retired for the night and hair was let down." I'm sorry..." She muttered and tried to move past him but he pulled her back. They slept in separate rooms as he didn't want to have anything to do with her when they married but right now, he was beginning to second guess that decision. She looked absolutely breathtaking.
" Not asleep yet?" He asked and she shook her head, her dark curls bouncing. Gerald swallowed, his body reacting massively to the inncoent act. His mom's replayed in his head. ' Get to know her, she's not that bad.' It wouldn't hurt to try would it.
He stepped closer, and she looked away. He just hates it when she does that. Why can't she ever meet his gaze!? Tilting her face up, he stared at her. He half-expected to see fear in her eyes but what he saw got him off guard. It was desire. A muscle ticked in his jaw. Leaning in, he could literally her heart racing. She licked her lips unconsciously and he almost lost the fight. No, not tonight. He couldn't bare another rejection.
It was on the tip of his tongue to ask if she was scared of him. But somehow he didn't.
" I should be going now..." Serena whispered, throwing him out of trance. He didn't want to let her go, he wanted to pull her closer to himself and kiss her senseless, take her into his room and do unimaginable things to her. All through the night, all through the next morning.
Serena was in a turmoil. She didn't know what was going on his head. Why is he staring at her like that, more importantly why is he staring at her lips like that? Does he want to kiss her? She gulped, she couldn't answer that. All she knew was she wanted this man. So bad it was beginning to ache. If only she could get past that night... That pain.
" Go to bed." He finally said, brushing her hair off her face. " You'll get a cold."
" O-of course." Serena stuttered, moving backwards. " Goodnight Gerald." She whispered before walking past him, hurrying towards her room. Closing the door behind her, she sagged against it. Nothing happened, she hoped something did. Her insides were stil liquid. She wasn't sure she would be getting any sleep tonight.Laying on her bed, she let out a breath. No matter what happens, she's not giving up on Gerald.
Gerald stood outside his door long after Serena has disappeared into her room. Ruffling his hair, he let out a groan. What's wrong with him? Why does he have this thoughts only when he's with her? He stared at his hands, confused as hell. He didn't know what to do with the emotions that he had and they were beginning to scare him. He has never felt so out of control.
Staring at her door, he took in a deep breath, closing his eyes. He needs to find a way to get her away from him before things get out of hands. He just had to.
... It was the next day and Serena was having breakfast alone. When she woke up that morning, Gerald was nowhere to be found. She had been especially hurt about his disappearance sine she felt they were making progress. Or she thought they were making progress. She couldn't sleep until the wee hours of the morning as her mind kept replaying the incident back to her.She groaned, gripping her spoon tightly. Last night has been confusing. She spent all night thinking about it and still couldn't make anything out. The sounds of approaching footsteps distracted her from her train of thought and she looked up to see Gerald in front of her. But he wasn't smiling. If anything, the dark circles around his eyes indicated her hadn't slept at all. Serena felt chills run down her spine. Something about Gerald didn't feel right.
Her gaze dropped to his hands and she discovered he was holding some papers.
" What's that?" She asked and he placed it in front of her, going ahead to sit. She glanced at him, confused.
" Go on, read it. You can read can't you?" He asked and she nodded. Serena heart was pounding as she picked them up but she opened it anyway. Her eyes were scanning the words but her brain didn't understand anything. What the hell were this things saying?!
" I'll be divorcing you." He finally announced. Serena froze, her heart skipping a beat. Surely, she didn't hear right. There's no way Gerald said that. She looked at him to confirm her thoughts but the look on his face broke her. Tears welled up in her eyes.
" What!?"
" What!?" Serena muttered, her voice faint. She glanced at him but he just looked at her, the grim expression on his face. With blurry eyes, she turned to the papers. It's true, she thought as her heart kept breaking. Gerald does want to divorce her. " Why?" She asked, her voice barely a whisper. Swallowing, she tried again. " Did I do anything wrong?" Gerald shifted in his sit but he looked at her. " We both know this isn't working. We're both not ready for it." " But it's never something we can't work out." She stressed. " Well, I don't think we can." Gerald muttered with a note of finality. " It'll be much better if we divorce now before things get messy." Serena took in a shaky breath, cleaning off a stray tear. " Does your mother know about this?" She asked and Gerald stiffened. " What has she got do with this?" 
" You plan to seduce me?" Gerald asked, amused. Serena nerves were all over the place but she managed to keep her cool. Breathing out, she nodded. " Yes." " How?" He asked. Serena rubbed her arms then, avoiding his gaze. Mulling over it for a while, she looked up at him. " I don't know yet. But I promise to think of a way." Gerald chuckled despite of himself. He couldn't believe he was listening to this. " This is most absurd thing I've ever heard. I can't believe I'm listening to you." Serena smiled, her chin raised. Her eyes sparkled as she spoke the next words. " I know you're attracted to me, you deny it but it's there. I plan to use it to my advantage." " What if it doesn't work?" Gerald found himself asking. " Then, it'll be my loss. But I do
Chapter 7Serena stared at her, unable to say something for a while. Scarlett moved closer, the smile still on her face. " Remember me?" She asked and Serena pursed her lips, her hands clenching into fists. She took in a deep breath and let it out, calming herself." Should I not?" Serena replied coolly, her features relaxed but with her blood boiling." Well... Of course you do. I'm not someone to be forgotten so easily." Scarlett replied, fluttering her lashes. Serena resisted the urge to scoff." What are you doing here?"" Well, I came to have lunch when I saw the two of you walk in. I was really surprised. For one thing, you two really look the part." Leaning in, she muttered the last bit quietly " The question is though, do you feel the part?"Serena stiffened, remembering the first time she met Scarlett.**Flashback**It was at the party where Gerald's mother announced she would be getting married to him. After a
(Few days later) Serena stared at the mirror, watching as Lana dressed her up. It's been days since her last encounter with Gerald and she can't say she's forgiven for it. Her body still tingles when she remembers that night and sometimes she has the overwhelming urge to walk up to Gerald and ask him to finish what he started. If only it would end well. He's been leaving to London more frequently now, especially before she wakes up but she feels their relationship has improved because he no longer gives her cold shoulders anymore. Or once again, that's what she thinks. She really hopes so. She's not sure she likes this rollercoaster of a relationship. " I'm done, madam." Lana spoke out, pulling Serena from her train of thoughts. Serena gasped softly, surprised at the way she looked. From the mirror, she could see Lana grinning proudly and she smiled back. Lana did take c
Chapter 9Whimpering, Serena sniffed, tears slipping out of her eyes. She'd never been this hurt before... No, this wasn't hurting. It was killing her. She didn't know how she would face the world after this. She wanted to die." You monster..." She groaned, anger and pain mixed as one. A body hovered above her and she squirmed in fear. It placed a kiss on her cheeks and Serena would have swiped it off if she had strength left in her body." My name is not monster. It's Thomas. Remember that. Thomas." he whispered to her ears before turning her forcefully to face him." Let me go!..Let me go!! " She screamed but of course, he didn't listen...no one ever heard her...Serena opened her eyes, panting heavily, sweat dripping from her forehead. Sitting up on the bed, she looked around her. There's no one in her room. Closing her eyes, she palmed her forehead. She did not just have a nightmare about that night. That horrible night.." It's okay... i
Serena picked on her food, spaced out. She barely had any sleep last night as the thought about the possibility of that monster being Gerald's brother and the fact that he fell out of favor from the family makes everything worse. She thought about telling Gerald about that night but she has no idea how he'll take it. Sighing softly, she stared at the food on her fork, unable to eat. " Is everything okay?' Gerald's low rumbling voice brought her out of her train of thoughts. She glanced at him, her mind empty at first before slowly nodding. " Yes..." She mumbled, twirling her fork. " You've barely eaten anything." He muttered, pointing at her plate. She stared down at it, indeed she really hadn't eaten much. Forcing out a smile, she placed her fork gently on the table. " Guess I'm not so hungry." She replied, chuckling. It had no mirth.
Serena was caught off guard by the kiss. She didn't expect it at all. But there was Gerald devouring her lips like his life depended on it. Maybe his did. Angling his mouth, he slipped deeper into her mouth, tasting her. She smelled so good. The vanilla and cinnamon scent he had come to love. His hands grabbed her tiny waist, pushing her to him. Her head tilted back, she let him kiss her, her head feeling light. He sucked her lower lip before pulling apart, breathing heavily. The fire didn't abate at all. It only got worse. He wanted this woman… way too much. But he feared rejection, he couldn't stand another rejection from her. He glanced at the stairs and wondered why the hell is room was so far away. Taking her lips again, he took with the same fervor, only slower this time. Serena had her arms around his neck and he picked her up like she weighed next to nothing, walking all the way to her room while he kissed her.
Days passed and their relationship kept improving. Gerald found out he looked forward to their evening walks when they talked about everything and nothing. The empty mansion didn't feel so empty anymore with someone beside him. Besides she was doing a good job running the households and the workers in it so Gerald could focus on other things. Dinner was a special time for the two. Then, he saw Serena the way in a more different light as she told him about her activities of the day and plans for the next one. And for some reasons neither could explain, they began spending the night in the same room. Hands wrapped around each other, they fell asleep cuddling. This particular day seemed like it would play out like the last ones. They were out in the balcony and as usual Serena was talking while Gerald listened with rapt attention, a glass of whiskey in hand. " So, you fell asleep