Prologue.

   " I could kill you right now" Gerald muttered against her skin, kissing the rapid pulse at the base of her throat. Serena shivered, enjoying the feel of him off as her hands sank deeper into his hair.

   " Or you could touch me,"  She muttered through gritted teeth. Even though she couldn't see his face in the dimly lit room, she could feel his smirk on her hardened nipples as he teased them with his tongue. A moan escaped her lips.

   

   " I think I like the second choice better." He drawled. Serena gulped as his hands slid to her underthings, tugging them off. Her eyes snapped open, terror slashing through her as she stiffened under him. Gerald noticed her reaction and raised himself to look at her, his dark eyes scowling. Serena swallowed.

   " Trying to back out now?" He asked, staring at her intently. Serena pursed her lips and avoided his gaze, making to leave from under his body but his strong arms held her securely in place.

   " I can't...." She began but stopped seeing Gerald's scowl deepen. How could she tell him she was terrified of being intimate with him?

    His breathing laden with desire, he pulled her underwear off anyway. Her heartbeat racing, she squirmed wildly under him, fighting the urge to pull away from him. His hands searched for and found her cl*t, gently teasing it.

   Despite her initial fear, Serena couldn't help but feel pleasure in his actions. Maybe I can do this, she thought to herself. Gerald worked his way up, alternating in his speed. Serena could feel the slow but sure pressure building in on her as she grabbed the sheets tightly, arching her back as her lower stomach started their funny tingles as she moaned Gerald's name into the night.

    Just as she felt she was going to explode, she felt something push against her sex, demanding entrance. Forgotten was her need to have an orgasm as a new kind of fear crept in... One that made her shriek and bolt away from him, shaking terribly.

    Tears clouded her eyes as realization dawned on her. Just like always, the special moment was ruined... And it was all her fault. Her face red with embarrassment, she turned to Gerald.

    " I'm sorry, Gerald... I promise it won't happen again."

    " That was what you said last time." Gerald's scolding voice replied to her. She pursed her lips as she tried to think of another excuse.

    " Believe me... I'll...I'll change." She tried again, her voice quivering.

   " For how long?" Gerald shot back.

    Serena grabbed the bed sheets against herself, her bottom lip trembling as she fought out an explanation. " It's just been so hard..."

    " It's been four months..." Gerald cut her off. " Four months Serena, and am yet to consummate my wife." He spat out in disgust.

    Guilt covered her like a cloak. As much as she hated to admit it, Gerald was right. Anyone would be mad at her. ' if only you knew what I went through...' she thought sadly.

    Gerald was already wearing his clothes, in a hurry to leave the clothes. She watched him do it, not bothering to stop him. Once he was through he climbed out of the bed and strode the door. Flinging open the door he stopped and sighed.

     " Good night." He mumbled but she still heard it anyway. The walked out and slammed the door behind him.

     Serena gathered the sheets closer and laid them on the pillow. Her lips trembled heavily and her eyes brimmed with tears. Choking once, twice, she broke into a sob and let the tears flow freely, the way they do during this kind of nights...