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The crash echoed through my apartment like a gunshot, splintering wood and jolting me upright in bed. It was barely dawn, the kind of gray December morning where the world outside my window looked frozen and unforgiving. My heart slammed against my ribs as I scrambled for my robe, but before I could even tie the sash, they were inside.
Two men, built like refrigerators with faces scarred from too many bad decisions, stood in my living room. The door hung off its hinges behind them, snowflakes swirling in from the hallway. One of them, the shorter one with a tattoo creeping up his neck like a venomous vine, held a crowbar loosely in his gloved hand. The other, taller and meaner-looking, cracked his knuckles and scanned the room as if appraising what he could smash next. “Where’s the money, sweetheart?” the tattooed one growled, his breath fogging the air. He had an accent, thick and Eastern European, the kind that made every word sound like a threat. I froze in the bedroom doorway, clutching my robe closed. My mind raced, Mom’s debt. The gambling loans she’d hidden from me until the cancer took her eight months ago. I’d been scraping by, paying what I could, but the interest piled up like the snow outside. “I… I don’t have it yet. Please, I just need more time.” The taller one laughed, a sound like gravel under boots. He stepped forward, close enough that I could smell the stale coffee on his breath. “Time’s up. Your mama owed us one-eighty-seven grand plus change. That’s on you now. We ain’t charities.” They weren’t wrong. The paperwork had come after the funeral, stacks of it, from underground bookies who’d fronted her bets on everything from horse races to poker games. She’d sworn it was under control, right up until the end. But here I was, twenty-five and alone, inheriting her mess. I backed up a step, my bare feet cold on the linoleum. “Look, I can get it. Just give me a month. I’ll sell the house if I have to, Mom’s old place. It’s worth something. Please, a month to sort it out.” The tattooed one exchanged a glance with his partner, then smirked. He swung the crowbar lightly, tapping it against a lamp on my side table. The bulb flickered. “A month? You think we’re idiots? We gave your ma extensions. Look where that got her.” He leaned in, his eyes narrowing. “One week. Seven days. Wire the full amount, $187,400.17, or we come back. And next time, we don’t just break doors.” The taller one grabbed a framed photo from the mantel, me and Mom at the lake house years ago, both smiling like life was simple. He smashed it against the wall, glass shattering across the floor. “That’s a preview. You pay, or we take everything. Starting with you.” My stomach twisted. I nodded frantically, not trusting my voice. They turned and lumbered out, leaving the door gaping open like a wound. I sank to the floor amid the shards, my hands shaking as I swept them away. Blood welled up from a cut on my palm, but I barely felt it. One week. Seven days to come up with nearly two hundred thousand dollars, or lose everything, including, apparently, my safety. I bandaged my hand with a kitchen towel and grabbed my phone. First, the bank. I dialed the loan officer who’d turned me down twice already. “Miss Voss,” she said, her voice clipped and professional, “your credit score is in the tank from the medical bills. We can’t approve another line without collateral, and the house is already mortgaged to the hilt.” Next, Aunt Clara, Mom’s sister, the one who’d barely spoken to us since the divorce. “Ivy, honey, I’m sorry,” she said over the line, her voice tinny from her Florida condo. “We’re on a fixed income. Maybe a few hundred, but that’s it. Your mom… she burned a lot of bridges with her habits.” I tried friends next. Sarah from college, who worked in finance now. “God, Ivy, that’s insane. I wish I could help, but we’re saving for the wedding. Have you tried crowdfunding? Or a second job?” A second job. As if waitressing nights and freelancing graphic design during the day hadn’t already stretched me thin. I scrolled through my contacts, desperation mounting. Old bosses, distant cousins, even an ex-boyfriend who’d ghosted me last year. No one had the kind of money I needed. No one could move that fast. The snow was picking up outside, blanketing the city in white silence. I paced the apartment, my mind a whirlwind. Sell the house? It was the only thing left of Mom, the creaky Victorian where I’d grown up, filled with her laughter and her secrets. But even if I listed it today, closings took months. Pawn shops? I had nothing valuable. Rob a bank? The thought crossed my mind in a hysterical flash, but I shoved it away. My thumb hovered over the last name in my contacts: Cassian Voss. Stepdad. Or ex-stepdad, depending on how you counted the years. Mom had married him when I was ten, a whirlwind romance with the charming billionaire who’d swept her off her feet. For eight years, he’d been the father figure I’d never had, teaching me to swim in the lake behind his mansion, funding my art classes, even showing up to my high school graduation with a bouquet bigger than my head. But then the cheating scandals hit. Mom found out about the affairs, models, assistants, women half her age. She’d kicked him out, divorced him clean, and forbade me from ever contacting him again. “He’s a bastard, Ivy,” she’d said through tears, her voice raw. “A manipulative snake who uses people like toys. Promise me you’ll stay away. He’s poison.” I’d promised. And for six years, I had. No calls, no emails, nothing. But I knew things about Cassian that Mom had tried to erase. He was filthy rich, tech empires, real estate, investments that made headlines. Two hundred grand was pocket change to him, a rounding error in his bank account. If anyone could wire the money today, it was him. I stared at his number, my cut hand throbbing. The goons’ threats echoed in my ears: Starting with you. I had no choice. My finger trembled as I hit call. It rang twice before he answered. “Ivy.” His voice was deep, smooth as aged whiskey, with that faint trace of an accent from his European roots. No surprise, no warmth, just my name, like he’d been expecting me. “Cassian,” I said, my throat dry. “I… I need help.” A pause, long enough to make me regret everything. Then, softly: “Tell me.” I spilled it all, the debt, Mom’s gambling, the men at my door, the smashed photo, the one-week deadline. Words tumbled out, raw and unfiltered, until I was breathless. He listened without interrupting. When I finished, there was another silence. I could picture him in his penthouse or that sprawling lake house up north, surrounded by leather and glass, untouched by the chaos of ordinary lives. “You’re still my daughter, Ivy,” he said finally, his tone shifting to something almost paternal. Almost. “I will give you that money. All of it, wired by end of day.” Relief crashed over me like a wave, making my knees buckle. I slid down the wall to the floor. “Thank you. God, thank you. I’ll pay you back, I swear—” “But in conditions,” he cut in, voice suddenly darker, slower, the way it used to drop when he caught me lying about where I’d been at seventeen. I swallowed hard. “What kind of conditions?” A low chuckle that curled straight through my ribs. “Come to the lake house tomorrow night.” My pulse thundered in my ears. “Cassian—” “Say yes, Ivy,” he murmured, soft and lethal. “Say yes, and by tomorrow morning the debt is gone and those men disappear forever. Say no… and in six days they come back to finish what they started tonight.” The line went dead. I sat frozen on the cold floor, phone still pressed to my ear, snow blowing through the broken door and melting on my skin. Tomorrow night I would drive six hours north, straight into the house where he once carried me on his shoulders and taught me to skate on the frozen lake. Straight into the arms of the man my mother swore would ruin me. And for the first time in six years, I wasn’t sure she was wrong. But I was sure of one thing: I was going. Because I had no one else. I stood up, grabbed my keys, and started packing. The storm was waiting. So was he.I stood under the shower for what felt like forever, letting the hot water pound against my shoulders until my skin turned pink and the steam clouded the mirror so thick I could barely see my own reflection. My hands shook as I scrubbed between my legs, trying to wash away the evidence of what I’d just done, but no amount of soap could erase the warmth still lingering inside me, the faint pulse of Noah’s release deep where no one else had ever been. I pressed my forehead against the tile and breathed through the panic, slow and deliberate, telling myself over and over that it was just once, that the odds were tiny, that I wasn’t stupid enough to get pregnant from one reckless moment.But the fear stayed.It coiled low in my belly, sharp and cold, whispering worst-case scenarios until I felt sick.When the water finally ran cold, I turned off the faucet with numb fingers and stepped out. I wrapped myself in the hotel’s too-small towel and opened the bathroom door.Noah was standing r
My thighs burned with every rise and fall, muscles trembling from the relentless rhythm I’d set. Noah’s hands gripped my hips—not guiding, not forcing, just holding on like he was afraid I’d disappear if he let go. I rode him harder than I ever had, hips snapping down, rolling forward, grinding in tight circles that made him groan deep in his throat every time I took him to the hilt.The couch creaked beneath us, springs protesting the frantic pace. Sweat slicked our skin, making every slide smoother, hotter. My breasts bounced with each thrust, nipples tight and aching from the cool air and the friction of his chest hair against them when I leaned forward. I didn’t care how desperate I looked. I needed this—needed the burn, the stretch, the way he filled me so completely I couldn’t think about anything else.“Fuck—Ivy—” Noah’s voice was wrecked, strained. “Slow down, baby, I’m too close—”“No,” I gasped, nails digging into his shoulders. “Don’t you dare hold back.”I clenched arou
I shifted in his lap, straddling him properly now, knees on either side of his hips. His hands automatically settled on my waist—gentle, careful, the way he always touched me when he wasn’t sure what I wanted.“Ivy—” he started, voice soft, uncertain.I didn’t let him finish.I leaned in and kissed him—hard. Desperate. Like I was trying to pour everything I couldn’t say into his mouth. My tongue pushed past his lips, tasting the faint trace of beer and mint, tasting him. He groaned low in his throat, fingers flexing on my hips, but he didn’t push. He let me lead.I broke the kiss just long enough to grab the hem of his T-shirt and yank it over his head. He lifted his arms to help, eyes wide, pupils blown dark with surprise and want.“Ivy, wait—” he tried again, hands coming up to cup my face. “You don’t have to do this. I know your head’s full of him. I don’t want to be—”“Shh.” I pressed two fingers to his lips. “Don’t mention anyone else’s name. Not tonight. There’s only us here. Ju
I thought Noah would want me the second the hotel door closed behind us. I expected him to push me against the wall the way Cassian so often did—hands rough, mouth demanding, fingers already tugging at my clothes like he couldn’t wait another second. Part of me wanted that. Needed it, maybe. The raw, physical certainty of being taken, of letting someone else decide the rhythm so I didn’t have to think. So I could drown the confusion in sensation and forget how torn I felt inside.But he didn’t.Noah just looked at me for a long moment, eyes soft in the dim hallway light, then reached out and pulled me into his arms. Not possessively. Not urgently. Just… gently. Like I was something breakable he wanted to keep safe. His chin rested on top of my head, one hand cradling the back of my neck, the other wrapped low around my waist. I felt his heartbeat through his T-shirt—steady, calm, nothing like the frantic racing of mine.I stood there stiff for a second, waiting for the shift. For the
The hotel room felt smaller now, the lamp on the bedside table throwing soft amber shadows across the walls. Rain tapped against the window in a steady, gentle rhythm—nothing like the violent storm from a few nights ago, just a quiet reminder that the world kept moving even when everything inside me felt stuck.Noah sat on the edge of the bed, elbows on his knees, hands clasped loosely in front of him. His shoulders were tense, but his face was calm—too calm, like he’d practiced this moment in his head a hundred times. I sat beside him, close enough that our thighs touched, but not touching. The space between us felt careful, deliberate. Like we were both afraid of breaking something fragile.He took a slow breath.“I really missed you,” he said quietly. “Not just for the sex. Not even mostly for that. I missed… this. Just sitting with you. Hearing you breathe. Knowing you’re here.”I felt my chest tighten. I reached for his hand, lacing my fingers through his. His palm was warm,
I sat on the edge of the bed for what felt like hours, phone clutched in both hands, staring at Noah’s name on the screen. The room was dark except for the soft blue glow of the display, casting shadows across the walls that made everything feel smaller, more suffocating. My thumb hovered over the call button again—fourth time in the last ten minutes. I’d already tried three times. Straight to voicemail. Each unanswered ring felt like another little cut, another reminder that I’d hurt him. Really hurt him.I could still see the look on his face when he’d walked away from my apartment door—the way his easy smile had cracked, the way his shoulders had stiffened when he saw Cassian standing there like he owned the place. Noah hadn’t yelled. Hadn’t made a scene. He’d just looked at me, long and quiet, like he was trying to decide if I was worth the pain. Then he’d turned and left. No goodbye. No “see you later.” Just gone.I hated myself for it.The guilt sat heavy in my chest, th







