18 Morning bird

I opened my eyes and looked at my phone it was late. I scrambled from my bed. I felt uneasy last night was different we had meaningful conversation for the first time. I only wish that it doesn't end that day. I know this is only a plan for getting him to hold off. But I liked the part where I didn't have to force the conversation it flowed naturally. I knew there will be some form of intimacy and to my surprise I don't dread it. But I won't stay on a loveless marriage. I'm hundred percent sure. What I fear is having to lie to him on how I was going let him have his way with me. But I'm sure that he will understand in the years to come and will forgive me I hope.

When I went to the breakfast I was still late and I had missed my sixth thirty gone husband again. I was relieved though because I was feeling guilty to go on fooling around with him . I also knew that I was playing with fire and there will be a hell to pay.

I spoke with Fathima for a few seconds and immediately felt relaxed.