LOGIN•Miguel •
The lounge was wrapped in low lights, and smoked coiled lazy spirals above the tables from cigars. I leaned back into the velvet-lined booth, cradling a glass Lagavulin between my fingers, Damien was holding court to my left, a brunette tucked against his side, her fake laugh cutting through the lounge like a cheap perfume. The blonde on his other arm looked half asleep, eyes glazed. This used to be my scenery, my zone and where I thrived in. But damn it all to hell the moment I met My Shell, her grey eyes glazed with tears pleading that I saved her life. My Penelope. Damien clinked his glass against mine with a smirk, his cufflinks catching the gold light as he stretched his arm along the back of the booth. “You gonna make me carry this whole damn table’s energy tonight?” he asked, nodding toward the brunette who was practically purring against him. “Pick one. They’re not shy.” I took a slow sip of the whiskey, letting the smoke settle on my tongue before swallowing. “Not my type.” While Penelope was brunette, she wasn’t this loosely approachable, not even while drunk. He laughed, full-throated and arrogant. “You haven’t even looked at them.” “Exactly.” The blonde perked up for half a second, then sank back into silence when she realized I wasn’t bluffing. Damien raised a brow, clearly amused. He leaned closer, his voice lowering in mock concern. “What is it this time? You get bored of actresses and heiresses? Don’t tell me you’ve finally gone celibate.” I stared straight ahead, swirling the liquid in my glass slowly. “I already have someone in mind.” Damien scoffed. “You? Monogamous? That’s a first. Who is she? Daddy’s girl? Another senator’s wife?” He went still for a minute, then sat up straighter. “No fucking way,” he muttered, narrowing his eyes like he was trying to read the punchline off my face. “You mean that girl from the club that night? The one you explicitly said "was a nun in training now?” I let the silence speak for itself. He exhaled through his nose, then gave a low, slow laugh that curled like smoke. “She’s a goddamn nun.” “She’s not,” I corrected, calmly. “Not yet.” “You’re fucking bonkers.” “She is mine, and I know this.” I set my glass down, never taking my eyes off him. “I also happen to know she hasn’t taken any vows and if she has she’ll have to break them.” Damien looked at me like I’d just confessed being a fucking psycho and it didn’t matter. I might have moved to Turkey for two years but that didn’t mean I didn’t keep tabs on her, I watched her during her physiotherapy stage, when she felt like giving up and I watched her bounce the fuck back. I’m her fucking savior and she owes me, she already vowed herself to me. “You’re serious.” I didn’t bother to respond. He shook his head, incredulous, rubbing the back of his neck as if that would help him process the weight of what I wasn’t saying. “This is a new low, even for you,” he said finally, but there wasn’t judgment in his voice, just morbid curiosity. “Jesus, Miguel. A nun?” I leaned forward slightly, forearms on the table, voice low enough that the women leaned in out of instinct before realizing I wasn’t talking to them. “Stop calling her a nun, she’s not. She’s just trying to find a place where she can fit in. I know it, I’ve seen what’s underneath that holier than thou attire and it is definitely not nun attributes.” Damien blinked. “You fucked her?” “Not yet.” The corner of my mouth twitched. He gave a soft whistle and downed the rest of his drink. “You’re going to hell, man.” I picked up my whiskey again and stared into it for a long moment, watching the way the light bent inside the glass. “Yeah,” I said quietly. “But I’ll take her with me.” Damien laughed again, louder this time. The brunette jumped slightly beside him, clearly not used to the sudden shift in volume. “Alright, devil. Let’s say I’m not judging. Let’s say, for a second, I’m as deranged as you are. How the hell are you going to get her? That girl looks like she panics when someone curses, and I’m not saying she’s a saint but she sure as hell has her mind made up.” I didn’t answer right away. I took another slow sip, letting the taste linger before setting the glass down. “I have a plan.” He tilted his head, waiting. “You always do. But this one? She’s I don’t know, different?” “Correct,” I said. “Anyone who got into an accident as terrible as hers would be scared, and would seek comfort anywhere and for her it is the convent, and the only reason that happened was because of my absence. She believes good girls don’t get hurt but she’s wrong.” Damien raised a brow. “Are you planning to hurt her in a bid to show she doesn’t have to be a nun?” I gave him a slow smile, one that didn’t reach my eyes. “No, I’m not that despicable. I’m only going to fuck with her mind long enough to make her want only me.” He stared at me, eyes narrowing slightly. I leaned back, exhaling through my nose. “She’s already confused, her body betrays her every time I’m near and I have the perfect plan to make sure she never stops seeing me.” Damien let out a low whistle. “You’re going to play the savior.” “Play the savior?” I murmured. “C’mon Damien, I already am her savior.” He sat back and shook his head, grinning like he’d just heard the filthiest confession of his life. “I swear, sometimes I forget how sick you are.” “That’s because you’re too busy being loud about your vices,” I replied smoothly, flicking my gaze to the woman now massaging his shoulder without permission. “Mine are quieter. But much harder to kill.” Damien raised his glass. “To the unlucky girl who’s your new game.” I clinked my glass against his, eyes never leaving the swirl of whiskey. “To Penelope.” |•| The children’s laughter carried faintly from the back gardens, sharp and bright like bells. For a place drenched in prayer, this one had the subtle air of a battlefield. I straightened my collar and made my way to the chapel offices, a leather folder tucked beneath my arm. Father Marshall was waiting near the side altar, already mid-conversation with one of the sisters. His expression shifted when he saw me friendly, but guarded. He hadn’t forgotten the time I turned down a cathedral funding proposal because the budget was “too selfish and didn’t in any way extend to the kids.” Still, he respected power and the money I shower. “Miguel,” he greeted with a warm nod. “Didn’t expect to see you again so soon.” “I won’t stay long.” I offered a firm handshake. “Just wanted to follow up on the rural aid project I mentioned last quarter. The clinic we set up in Oakridge? They’re shorthanded. I’ll be flying in next week, but I need a volunteer to assist. Someone the patients will feel safe around. Preferably someone with community ties.” Father Marshall tilted his head. “It’s short notice.” “I understand but it’s only a couple of weeks. The town is quiet, and small which is why basic care, inventory, translation for the older locals is needed.” He hesitated and I could see the logistics working through his mind, Father Marshall was as open as a book. I knew what he’d say next. “I’ll need to check with Mother Superior.” “Of course.” First phase complete. We stepped into the main hallway just as she was descending the stairs. Mother Superior was a lovely woman, one who didn’t care for bribes or favoritism, that’s why I adored her and she loved me. “Dr. Ramirez,” she greeted, clasping her hands. “To what do we owe this honor?” I explained again briefly, and more politely. But this time using key words that’d soften her heart like God’s work, outreach and the children. She was aware of where my faith stood, I was no Christian but I cared for the community even if it meant working with the church. “Well,” she said, folding her hands, “Penelope’s schedule just cleared up this week. She’s been diligent, attentive. I believe this would be good for her, remember I mentioned her love for traveling.” I let the silence stretch just long enough to appear surprised then nodded. “If she’s willing.” “I’ll speak to her today,” she said. “I don’t imagine she’ll object.” Of course she wouldn’t. Not when the suggestion came from a woman she was trying so hard to impress. I offered a gracious smile and stepped back toward the door. “I’ll return tomorrow to finalize the remaining documentation.” They both nodded, none the wiser. As I stepped out into the morning light, I didn’t bother hiding the grin that curled beneath the surface. She’d be mine for the next three weeks and I will do everything possible to make sure she never forgets it.MatildaAs my phone captured the tension between Miguel and Penelope, I felt a trickle down my thighs. Despite how much I wanted Miguel, seeing him trust himself into Penelope made me want to touch myself. Miguel laid Penelope on the center of the bed before joining her almost immediately. He was on his knees looking up at Penelope. It made me deeply jealous to see that he was this devoted to Penelope. He was staring at her with such passion. With such want. While still looking up at her, he reached for her hand, pulling it towards his lips. Then he rested her palms against his cheek. He then shifted his focus back to her body. His hands began to slide up her calves as he parted her legs more. Once he gained access to her center, he stroked her thighs with his thumbs, gliding across her center in gentle, careful circles. I was cheesing at the fact that I was freely recording this very damning scene. I was on a heavy streak of things falling in place for me. “You’re so wet,” Miguel
MiguelAs I woke up in the morning in the hotel, the first few thoughts on my mind were about Penelope. I hoped she was okay. The doctors had assured me all she needed was proper rest and she would be back to normal in no time. However, that didn’t stop me from worrying. After making sure Rodney had taken his bath and worn the new clothes I picked up at a nearby store, I headed to the ward Penelope was at. She was still sleeping by the time I got there. Looking as ethereal as ever. I was happy she was looking more vibrant than before. Driving back to Oakridge was painful. It was pure torture. Because the finality of Penelope’s leave finally registered in my head. I may actually never see her again. She was traveling back to New York in the evening. After dropping Rodney at his mom’s friend’s place it was straight home from there. A home that would feel more empty than ever once Penelope leaves.I wanted the journey to last as long as possible. But we got home too fast. Too soon.
PenelopeI was extremely touched by Miguel’s recent streak of care. He had been very insistent that I stay in the hospital overnight to rest. It touched my heart that he was not willing to back down. The next morning, he was already in my room, to check up on me. I was completely fine now. Seeing Miguel so warm and caring made me thirst for him even more. It was like each part of Miguel I learned about, the more I longed for him. The drive back to Oakridge was torturous for me. It had finally dawned on me that I was truly returning back to New York and I would never get a chance to be with Miguel again. All the guilt I had been feeling before deciding to call Mother Superior telling her I wished to return to New York was now turning to regret that I had even ever picked up the phone to call her.I was now wondering if it was still possible for me to cancel the whole thing and tell Mother Superior that I was doing way too much good here to leave now. I was thinking about ways I could
MatildaThe nuns had been assembled by Mother Superior.“Sister Penelope will be returning back to the convent on Sunday evening,” she said, before continuing, “I gathered you all here to inform you of this.” She finished.While a few nuns chatted, she continued, “However,” the nuns stopped their chatter as her voice was incredibly commanding, “I would still be sending another nun to Oakridge as her replacement. Which is why I will be needing someone else fit to go and assist Dr. Ramirez.”I did not hesitate to offer myself as a substitute. The opportunity was a prime one. An opportunity I did not need to waste time seizing. It was my golden ticket to finally being with Miguel. And this time, it was even better because Penelope would not be there to foil my plans any more. “I can go,” I raised my hand, “I can go to Oakridge. I have been there before, so I’m familiar with the terrain. Even the hospital and some of the staff. It makes the most sense for me to go.” I made my case. “Of
MiguelI was at Penelope's side, watching her sleep. It was so scary to witness Penelope stagger and fall to the ground. I regretted not going after her faster. Maybe I could have caught her before she hit the floor. A series of scenarios where I could have saved her from falling on the ground flashed in my head. I also hoped she hadn’t suffered any injuries to her head, skull, or her brain. I would not be able to live well after learning that fact. Learning that I could have prevented such a fatal, life changing injury.Part of me could not help but wonder if I was the cause of all this. Had I stressed her so much that she could not take it anymore, and fainted? The doctors had confirmed that she fainted due to a sudden spike in her blood pressure. “An acute syncopal episode brought on by a massive, sudden hypertensive spike. Severe emotional distress triggered a massive surge in her blood pressure, and her body simply couldn't handle the strain. Her nervous system overcompensated
PenelopeAs I walked into the confession box, I had one goal. That was to let it all out of my heart. I had a heavy heart and I was walking in to offload everything. I had been carrying this burden for far too long. I needed to let it go. I was entering this confession box to confess my sins and leave a new person. Devoid of all worldly things. “Bless me father, for I have sinned,” I whispered. The crack in my voice in addition to the lack of audibility were results of my internal battle with the crushing weight of guilt. “May the Lord be in your heart and upon your lips, that you may truly and humbly confess your sins,” The priest responded. “Speak, my child.” I braced myself for the terrible truths I was about to drop. It had been one thing to internalize my faults and realize them, but to actually put them to words and say them out loud to a spiritual figure, was a task I had not properly braced myself for. “Father... I have harbored deeply impure thoughts. I have surrendered
•Penelope • The bell rang three times for afternoon prayer, and I was halfway through shelving the hymns when I headed the footsteps that didn’t seem to belong to any of the children. I stayed facing the shelves. Maybe if I just kept working, whoever it was would go away. But Mother Super
•Penelope• I ignored the tingling between my thighs all evening. It didn’t help that during mass, Father Marshall, bless his soul—suddenly looked like Dr. Miguel Ramirez from the side. Same silver hair, same calm, unreadable expression. I blinked hard, looked back down at my prayer book, and
•Penelope•“I said no glue near your mouth, Noah.”I pulled the bottle gently from his hands before he could make a second attempt. The boys at Saint Jude’s Orphanage had a creative streak, which was a polite way of saying they spent most mornings testing how close they could get to trouble before
•Miguel• “Try this.” I held up the cream-colored blouse, half amused, half annoyed she hadn’t picked it herself. Penelope wrinkled her nose. “That’s something a kindergarten teacher would wear.” I arched a brow. “You work at an orphanage, you teach the children.” “okay, fine.” She snatc







