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Chapter 19
Forgiveness
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SwitchFoot - on Fire
StacieOricco- I promise
Clara
Not all days are the same. Some days have more significance than others and others... Let's just say you need to take them as they come.
Last night was hectic emotionally. Brent has always had a habit of hiding things and it later catches up with him and he goes all dark and moody, because he feels everything intensely. I on the other hand has always had a curiosity streak and a habit of finding out what I need to know .
Over the years I've learned to be patient with Brent. It use to to make me go nuts; not being told what was going on or having Brent snap out of the blue and act out. He has always had abandonment issues,hence he struggles to let go of anything he loves go... Then again, I've always been able to gage if something is up with Brent.
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