Kieran’s POV I sucked in a deep breath, allowing the air to circulate around my lungs and every other part where it was needed. My heart thundered under my chest, it had been like that for a while now. No matter what I did to try to get it back to it's normal pace, it just didn't work. The moment I thought about it, it would spike up again, its speed threatening to tear a hole through my chest. That bastard. It was all his fault.I always thought I'd healed and forgotten about all that happened, but, as I allowed my mind the liberty of going over what happened between Xander and I, a couple of hours ago, I realized I was wrong. Very wrong. A sigh slid past my lips. It wasn't his fault, neither was it my fault. I guess I just had to go through some things to fully understand my potential in life.Lies. All of that were just lies and a bunch of bullshit.How in the world were different kinds of assaults and abuses supposed to help me reach my full potential? Ever since I got here,
Xander’s POV I'd always heard the word “distractions”,but I couldn't exactly say I'd experienced it one on one. Or perhaps, I never considered it a distraction when they eventually occured. I probably saw it as a welcome escape from the task at hand, but right now, this particular distraction in the form of the new help I'd just hired for the mansion wasn't in the least welcome here.I wanted her to leave. Now. A couple more seconds passed, with neither of us moving. Alice stood quite a distance away from the fountain where Kieran and I were huddled together, but I could still see her pretty clearly. Even though the night had fully darkened and only a couple of stars were out, it didn't change that I could still her, and that I wanted her to leave. I felt something shift beside me, or more importantly, someone. It was Kieran. Since our faces were still huddled together, I could tell she wanted to leave. She'd gotten uncomfortable and couldn't be in this environment anymore. But
Kieran’s POV A long sigh slid past my lips as I laid on the bed, the comfy feel of the duvet pressing into my back. With how comfortable I was, it wouldn't take up to a minute for anyone in my shoes to fall asleep, anyone but me. Why? Because my mind was a whirlwind of emotions and for some strange reason, I couldn't bring myself to calm the raging storm that was swirling inside of me.Focus, Kieran. Focus.But no matter how hard I tried,I just couldn't bring myself to do so. It felt impossible at this point because the more I tried to forget about it all, the more the memory seemed to climb to the top of the list of the memories I wanted to forget. Xander. Alpha Xander. Ughhhh. Involuntarily, I found myself trailing my tongue over my lower lip. It had been weeks since the Alpha and I locked lips, but I could still very much taste him. He tasted like whiskey with a hint of mint and cinnamon. A whiff of vanilla too hung around the corner of my lips, but for the life of me, I co
Kieran’s POV The sound of cutlery clanging against the ceramic plate was all that could be heard for a while, and not just from me too. Literally everyone that was seated at the dining table with a steaming bowl of food in front of them hadn't said a word since lunch started and I wasn't particularly sure yet. Of course, everyone probably had their different reasons, just the way I had mine. Alice, Sabrina, Oliver and Alpha Xander were all scattered around the circular table, each one doing their thing. The only person who seemed to be a bit cheery and happy was Oliver. He munched happily on his meals, a huge smile on his face. Sabrina on the other hand, was seated directly opposite me and I couldn't help but notice her throwing some kind of weird looks in his direction.Alice, on the other hand, was being bitch as usual. I didn't pay a lot of attention to her but the little moment we locked our eyes was more than enough to send a scowl my way. From the glare in her eyes, you
Xander’ POV Red. Red was all I saw as I walked out of the dining room. I had no idea where I was headed exactly, but at that moment, I didn't care. I was too mad to do so. My footsteps echoed in the empty hallway, I knew I was being loud, but to hell with that. Anger nipped at my skin and I felt the urge to punch something. In fact, if I didn't, I wasn't sure I would be able to calm down.I shook my head as I continued walking. The lights hung up on the wall flickered lightly with each one I passed, almost as if they could sense the bad mood I was in. I even had the urge to break one of them, but I decided against it. Or more specifically, It was already too late to go back because I'd already walked past them and it would make no sense if I went back.Still without a particular destination in mind, I yanked open the first door I saw. I had not the faintest idea of where it led to, until I pulled it open. Even when I did, the scenery up front did nothing but anger me the more.
Xander’s POV I exhaled the moment the words slid past my lips. Surprisingly, after my mini outburst just now, I felt lighter. The tightening in my chest that seemed to be stuck when Oliver couldn't keep shut about Kieran, had suddenly disappeared. My head felt lighter and my vision was tinted with red anymore. I could see the world for the colors it was in and it looked beautiful. That, and the surprised look on Oliver's face was more than satisfactory. Time seemed to slow to a halt as none of us moved. Oliver who was hyper active just a moment ago was as quiet as a rock. If I hadn't seen him move his lips prior to my outburst, I would come to the conclusion that he was now mute. “Oliver?” I called out after some seconds. It was surprising how after a moments worth of silence between us, something began to churn in the pit of my stomach. Guilt. “Oliver? Are you okay?”“Shit.” Was all he mumbled. He looked lost as his eyes glazed over. He was looking straight at me, but I could b
Kieran’s POV I ran both my hands through my hair, allowing my fingers to dig deep into my scalp. It felt nice and silky until a sharp pain tugged at the root of my hair. Apparently, I'd stumbled upon a spot where my hair had tangled. Shit. I really hated when that happened. The spot where my hair had tangled was on fire as I tried to untangle the strands of hair. The more I tried to tie them loose, the more tighter the strands wrapped around each other. I adjusted myself on the bed. Maybe if I tried a different angle, I would be able to get it. Wrong. If anything, it was worse now and even the small act of me touching it hurt like hell. There was no way I could do this alone. I needed some help. Any help at all.Sabrina.I bit back a groan as she came to mind. Why did it have to be her? Couldn't I ask someone else? Maybe one of the maids, or perhaps…Alice? Ha ha. Funny. Even the mere thought of the woman was like poison to my mind. I couldn't even imagine Me walking up to her t
Kieran’s POVI knew the view of the palace was going to be extraordinary, so I'd kept an open mind while I accompanied Sabrina towards the beautiful monument. If I was being honest, I didn't expect to be blown away by how beautiful everything was. I'd heard stories of how the palace in the pack was breathtaking, but none of the stories I'd heard could actually match up to it. I couldn't reel in my excitement as Sabrina led me towards the palace. It was a hassle for me to keep my steps in check. If it weren't for Sabrina, I would have dashed towards the direction of the palace a long time ago, leaving Sabrina behind. I felt giddy inside, almost like a child who had just been offered her favorite candy on a rainy day. “Come on.” I latched onto Sabrina's hand, looping my hand around hers. With all of my strength, I dragged her towards the direction of the palace. “Come on, let's go.”“I'm coming.” Sabrina chuckled lightly. Obviously, she was enjoying my little display along the street.