Chapter 4: Good-for-nothing

 

Clara

Glee and excitement weren’t the exact words I could describe at how fantastic I was feeling. Being accepted as his mate has been my only prayer to the Moon Goddess, and now that it is happening, it still feels so surreal.

I am yet to process Samuel’s acceptance of me as his mate, but I trust him too much for me to agree to be married to him. After all, this is where all of this would be heading.

After packing up a few things, I headed out of my room. My father was talking to Samuel, seated on the chairs on our dining table.

Being married to Samuel as an Alpha also means responsibilities for me as his Luna, however, I didn’t even think of any of that by any chance.

With or without his title as an Alpha, I will always choose to be with him.  

I stood, not far away from them, with a smile, hearing Samuel assure my father of his love and my safety.

“I can’t believe everything happened so quickly,” my father chuckled, caressing my left shoulder. “If you ever came up with a problem there, you could go back home anytime,” he added, before pulling me for a warm hug.

My father was the only person I’ve got my whole eighteen years of life. I’m sure it will be hard for me without him.

“I will pay you a visit, Father,” I mumbled, embracing him back.

Since our Pack was led by Samuel’s older brother, it wasn’t a long time before we reached Samuel’s Pack; the White Hunter Pack.

My steps were continuous as I tried to keep up with his pace, walking behind him. I smiled at everyone we walked past while he kept his straight face. Upon reaching the wooden double doors of the Packhouse, I was confused to see a sudden bright smile flash on his face.

Not far away, I saw a woman in a long navy blue dress with jet-straight black hair hanging onto her shoulders.

Before I realized who the woman was, Samuel made his way straight to her arms.

“You’re back early,” she mumbled in between their peck kisses.

Wrapping her arms around Samuel’s neck brought me back to the day he saved me. The same feeling was there, hence way worse.

A huge lump in my throat began to build as I felt my eyes getting heavy with tears. The grip on the bag I was holding, where the stuff I brought was put, loosened. It slipped out of my hand, making a thud noise as it hit the ground.

Alice’s eyes averted to my place. Her brows furrowed, puzzled, with my presence.

“Who is she? My new servant?”

Caressing her cheeks, he said, “I’ll explain it to you later. But don’t worry about her, she’s nothing.”

No! I badly wanted to tell her the truth that I am Samuel’s mate, but no words came out of my mouth. Seeing how gentle he was towards her, made me scared.

Scared that I might consume his patience to the end and that he’d have a reason to be mad at me.

I thought that was the worst feeling I could ever have, but it is yet to come.

The wedding happened. I have my servant and my own huge room only to spend my time alone. A typical life of a Luna without her Alpha and respect from every Pack member. It felt like I was nothing here.

“What does this mean, Samuel?” I voiced out in frustration.

I’ve kept my silence for a while, thinking he’d eventually break up with Alice before our wedding. But it was done, and yet his mistress is still under this Packhouse, staying in the same room as my mate while I isolate myself in mine!

“You told me you love me. And even married me,” I paused as my voice began to tremble.

There was so much grudge I was holding back. Our wedding felt like some arranged marriage where no love was built. He didn’t even kiss nor touch me on our first day as husband and wife.

I was starting to question myself, but I knew I wouldn’t get an answer unless I asked Samuel straight.

“But we don’t even talk,” I added, barely hearing my own voice.

“What do you even want? You have our room, servant, and living a nice luxurious life because of me! Tell me, what else do you want?!”

“T-this ain’t the life I was expecting, Samuel,” I utter, shaking my head. “It is as if I am just being used.”

“I don’t have time for your dramas, Clara. Just leave the fuck out of my office, now!”

Here he is again. Avoiding me all the time. I just wanted to clarify things with him because it’s torturing me inside.

“And what is Alice still doing here? I am your mate and I should be in her place. I don’t understand a thing that’s happening.”

His eyes squinted in disbelief at my question.“Alright, then hear everything I would say, Clara,” he arrogantly scoffed.  “Alice is my chosen mate and I will always choose her even against you, my own mate. Alice will be my and my Pack’s Luna.”

My chest felt so heavy with pain lancing everywhere. But it seems like he wasn’t satisfied yet just seeing me hurt.

“And you, let’s just say you were just my need and nothing else. Can’t you see, Clara?” he bitterly laughs. “I just need you to be stronger. So you should stop questioning me again and again because you should still be thankful instead.”

Beads of hot tears began to pour down my loaded eyes.

“No Alpha in the right mind will choose a wolfless and hideous Luna like you. You are privileged to be even called my first wife.”

I firmly bit my lower lip so hard that I could start to taste blood from it. I don’t want to say anything else anymore. Samuel had made it clearer than water.

He’s just using me. It has been and will always be Alice for him and never Clara.

“Leave!”

My both shoulders shook as he screamed right into my face. My knees were wobbly, disallowing me to move any further.

I kept my eyes on the floor as more tears pooled down. Even without a wolf, I am more than hurt to hear this indirect rejection from my mate.

Seeing me not moving a bit, Samuel carelessly grabbed my wrist, pushing the door of his office open before dragging me out.

“Samuel,” I helplessly called, hoping it would make his heart soft.

He pushed me out, making me reach the ground.

“Don’t you ever come and talk to me,” he spat, loudly banging on the door.

I tried lifting my head only to see a couple of Omegas chatting, giving me disdainful looks.

If Samuel, my mate himself doesn’t like me how much do his Pack members, right?

“How dare she even think of fighting against Luna Alice?”

“She’s nothing but a servant beside her,” their mocking laughs filled my ears.

“Too big-headed to even complain.”

Before I completely lost my mind with their hateful words, I forced myself to stand back up. Facing down to hide my face, I began to walk away.

“An Alpha like Alpha Samuel cannot deserve a Luna like Clara.”

I kept walking, acting as if I heard nothing. But the truth is, I heard every single word from them. It looks like they want me to hear every bit of it.

“It’s so considerate of Alpha Samuel to marry her in the first place. But this good-for-nothing trash wants more.”