30. The Paintings

Amanda

This was my second time painting freely without any inhibition. I was having my ups and downs, my emotions were all over the place. I was painting freely, canvas after canvas.

At some stage I was raging on to my canvas, brushing colors on top of another. I was trying to get it to the right shadowing effect that I wanted, then switching it to another canvas and slowing everything down as my heart desires. Then I started the process all over again, I didn't stop until I was down to my last smaller size canvas.

It was almost five in the morning, when I finished everything then I moved back and hugged myself. I slowly slumped down to the floor, all the nothingness that I was felling the whole day was bubbling up to the surface.