Looking at him, I am in awe. I cannot cook, not at all.“I never see you cooking. Why?” He looks at me while mixing the food.“I can't cook. We live on takeaways, restaurants and well, ready meals.” I can't help but laugh at it - me, Georgina and Liam cannot cook, yet here is Jackson, like a chef. How is that even possible? His eyes look up at me. He looks shocked.“Seriously?” Yes, he certainly is in shock.“Really, none of us can cook, so we just got used to eating what others cook and deliver.” It really isn't a big deal, yet he looks astounded by the thought. I can cook, just it always gets burnt. That is one thing Max hated. I would be so worried he wouldn’t be happy that I would mess up.“You can't live like that, seriously. At some point, you will need to learn to cook. You can't exactly be healthy eating that junk.” He begins opening cupboards, serving up the food. He puts it on the plates, carrying them to the table. Sitting, we eat, his eyes on me the whole time. I can sense
Arriving at the graveyard, I can't help but feel relief. Liam leads the way. Jackson is holding my hand as we walk behind Liam. The woman at the grave looks old like she has aged far quicker than she should have. She walks towards us, her arms wrapping around me, a smile on her face.“Hi Alena, I'm Helen, Jackson's Mum. You look well, all things considered.” She is smiling, hugging me tightly; she seems nice. Liam had her sound scary and mean. Her Scottish accent clearly stuck.“Hi, Mum.” Jackson smiles as he says the words, and she lets go of me, hugging him. Jackson kisses her cheek.“You look well, Jackson, really well.” She smiles at him. Turning, we walk to the grave. I watch as they lay flowers down. Standing, they are reminiscing and discuss what has happened recently. I feel out of place like I shouldn't be here. I have no idea who Katy was, and I never met her.Her grave reflects someone who is loved dearly. Next to it lies Jackson's daughter, her grave equally as beautiful.
“This is the only time I will do it, and I wouldn’t be doing it now if you hadn’t gone on about needing more so much during sex. This will be the only time Alena. After this, we need to talk. There are rules to this.” His lips gently kiss mine.What rules come with this? I will agree to all the rules if he does it again, and I don't even know what is coming yet. Looking at the chair, it is scary. There is no seat.He moves my body, sitting me down so that my body is balanced on my legs and feet. Jackson’s hands are slowly tying my ankles and wrists to the chair as his mouth kisses down my neck slowly. Reaching my breasts, his lips kiss my nipples, then gently suck them in his mouth. He keeps going, his mouth moving down, settling between my legs as his tongue teases my wet pussy.His hands checking the straps are tight enough, my body already craving more of him, the leather straps making me moan.“We will stick with red for now. Red is your safe word, Alena. Later you can pick anothe
"So, what was all that about, the only time you will do this?” My voice is quiet, weak as my breathing is slowly steadying.“Well, usually when I do things like that, I have a contract, or at least a list of what people are willing to try and not try, rules in place, but kind of hard to sit there and sort that shit out, when you're screaming during sex ‘you need more’.” I can't help but smile.“We will sort it out, and then I can play without the worry that I am going to use something or do something you don't like.” He is weird, so kind, yet so different in the bedroom.“I like just about everything.” Laughing at myself, I loved all that. Why would I not like everything else?“You say that now, but when there is a list in front of you, I am sure your mind will change. Right now though, it doesn’t matter. Light bondage from now on until it's sorted.” His lips pressed against mine.“Let's get cleaned and eat.” I love his cooking; how can I refuse? Getting out of bed, we get showered, t
The music is loud. Looking around I can easily see his friends. The table seems intimidating. The men are not small. Walking towards them, Jackson's smile grows bigger. I am amazed by how much these men can make him happy.“Here he is, Jacko, late as ever.” Someone stands up looking at him, his eyes glancing at me. I thought Jackson was big, but this guy is bigger, my eyes trailing along his body, taking in his looks. His tattoos are amazing as well.“Hey, lads, sorry, got a little delayed, and I am never usually late. This is Alena.” The guy in front of me smiles.“Hi Alena, I am Marcus.” He looks up, smiling at Jackson.“I see you found a new sub.” My eyes flicker to Jackson as his head shakes.“Not a sub, not this one, although she might be in time.” I have no idea what they are talking about, but something about Marcus makes me smile. Sitting down, Jackson introduces me to the other guys. Everyone is talking and being friendly.“So, Alena, can you keep this one in check? He likes
“So, you're not his sub?” Looking at him, I shake my head. “That is a shame. So you're not into the whole ‘being tied up, and dominated’ thing then?” Looking at him, I am not entirely sure if I should be talking to him about this. I am not sure if he should even be asking me these questions, but I don't want to seem rude either.“I am, I can't say I did a lot of it before Jackson, but I am.” He nods, his eyes looking into mine. He is so big compared to Jackson, my mind wandering and thinking about him, his tattoos all over his body. I wonder if he has them on his chest and back?Why am I getting so caught up with Marcus and what he is like? He is Jackson's friend; I am with Jackson.“I know, Jackson talks.” I look at him shocked. Jackson honestly already has told them about this stuff?“Wow, don't freak, I don't mean what you do in the bedroom and stuff. I mean your ex, Max.” My body freezes at the sound of his name. Of course, Jackson will have told him. I didn’t want to think of Max
Shock is overtaking me, standing here looking at him, and it feels like I have limited time left in his presence. Why do I feel like this is going to be the end? Will I ever see him again? Why does he have to agree to go on this mission?“Alena, everything will be alright.” He walks over to me, his arms wrapping around my body, cradling me, trying to comfort me from my own thoughts.“We’ve been going on missions together for years and have never had any problems. I will be coming back to you, I promise.” I look up at him. How can he be so calm and so sure? It is possible he will not be coming back, no matter how small a chance there is.Embracing him, I guess if he is leaving in a week, I will spend this time wisely with him. I won’t waste a second moping around, complaining or crying. I will spend every second with him until he leaves.“How long will you be gone?” I smile, secretly hoping it will be a few days but knowing deep down it will be longer.“A week or two; it depends on how
“Okay, pick a safe word. I have no idea how far you're willing to go, so you need a safe word. I don’t want to choose for you, so red is gone. You decide. Not something hard to remember though.” His voice is teasing as he walks around me, trailing the leather flogger across my body.“A safe word, really? Okay then, how about ‘peach’?” I question why I am asking if it is okay, as he told me to pick anyway. He is looking at me like he is going to laugh, but he isn’t.“Okay, so ‘peach’ it is. You use this word when you have reached your limit when you can’t take any more. Don’t throw it out every chance you get to try and get your own way. You say ‘peach’, everything stops.” His voice is right behind me, and his breath rushes across the back of my neck. The fact he is saying ‘Choose a safe word’ makes me smile. I am getting more. I know I am. At the same time, I can see on his face that he is unsure. He doesn’t want to do anything that might hurt or scare me.“If I have to gag you, which