Shock is overtaking me, standing here looking at him, and it feels like I have limited time left in his presence. Why do I feel like this is going to be the end? Will I ever see him again? Why does he have to agree to go on this mission?“Alena, everything will be alright.” He walks over to me, his arms wrapping around my body, cradling me, trying to comfort me from my own thoughts.“We’ve been going on missions together for years and have never had any problems. I will be coming back to you, I promise.” I look up at him. How can he be so calm and so sure? It is possible he will not be coming back, no matter how small a chance there is.Embracing him, I guess if he is leaving in a week, I will spend this time wisely with him. I won’t waste a second moping around, complaining or crying. I will spend every second with him until he leaves.“How long will you be gone?” I smile, secretly hoping it will be a few days but knowing deep down it will be longer.“A week or two; it depends on how
“Okay, pick a safe word. I have no idea how far you're willing to go, so you need a safe word. I don’t want to choose for you, so red is gone. You decide. Not something hard to remember though.” His voice is teasing as he walks around me, trailing the leather flogger across my body.“A safe word, really? Okay then, how about ‘peach’?” I question why I am asking if it is okay, as he told me to pick anyway. He is looking at me like he is going to laugh, but he isn’t.“Okay, so ‘peach’ it is. You use this word when you have reached your limit when you can’t take any more. Don’t throw it out every chance you get to try and get your own way. You say ‘peach’, everything stops.” His voice is right behind me, and his breath rushes across the back of my neck. The fact he is saying ‘Choose a safe word’ makes me smile. I am getting more. I know I am. At the same time, I can see on his face that he is unsure. He doesn’t want to do anything that might hurt or scare me.“If I have to gag you, which
I don’t understand it. Sure, when he created it, obviously he used it, but why give it all up? Why not find a way to still get to use the business? “I used to, then I met Caroline. We dated, and I don’t even know how we got to date. I didn’t date, but with her, I did. I put that part of my life behind me. I would be just as willing to do the same for you if you didn’t like any of this. Caroline didn’t even go to Seductive Vibrations. She refused, saying that she wanted nothing to do with it. That is how against it all she was. My playrooms were set up before I met her. I gave up everything for her. So, I would easily give up all this for you,” his hand motions around the room. I now realise what he is saying. Caroline had not been into anything like this. He has had this part of his life hidden for years. I feel like he is opening up to me and telling me things I didn’t know, and he is willing to tell me. “It is not like after Caroline I went back to it, I couldn’t. It just didn’t
Walking into the apartment feels so weird. I cannot help but smile at Georgina as she runs towards me. Her grip is so tight as she wraps her arms around me. I feel like crying. Why do I feel like crying?“Finally! Come and get dressed; we are off out.” She begins trying to pull me towards the bedroom. Realising I have my feet firmly planted on the floor so as not to move, she turns back to look at me.“What?” Her face looks confused. She should know what. It isn’t that hard to know why I am refusing to move.“How many times must I say it? I don’t like going out and, after last time, can you blame me?” I look at her, expecting her to nod and agree. Instead, she starts laughing, like I am crazy and missing something. Clearly, I am if she thinks my response is funny.“Clearly, Jackson did not tell you then.” Her eyes flicker to him and roll. “We are all going out to the student bar. They will be at the bar, and we will be at the tables. Totally safe, then we can finally have a girly talk
I cannot believe I am about to ask this, but I need to change the subject.“So honestly, what did you think of Seductive Vibrations?” I instantly regret asking. This is going to end badly.“I won’t lie, I think it is weird. I don’t know. I can’t really say, as it is not something I myself would look into. Are you sure you are okay with it, though? The fact he goes there and has used it before. At least I assume he has used it for his own pleasure before.” She is being honest, and it is not as bad as I had expected. I was waiting for her judgmental opinion, which I believed was disgusted with the whole business and disagreed with it.“I understand, but yes, I am fine with it. He doesn’t use it anymore and told me he hasn’t in ages, not since before Caroline anyway.” I do wonder why he never went back. He stopped because of Caroline. Why didn’t he go straight back there once she left? Maybe he did just see it as a business and not really for pleasure. I need to ask him. I know he said
I feel my cheeks blush, thinking back to that first night.He begins to kiss my lips. “Are you staying here tonight?” His question catches me off guard.“Yes, why?” I look at him, hoping he will stay here with me, but I am not so sure.“I want you to come with me tomorrow. I need to sort a few things out before I leave next week. It won’t take long,” he explains to me, but I don’t like the sound of it.Trying to push the thoughts out of my mind, I smile.“You know I will come with you, but seeing as you’re here, you may as well stay the night. It is getting late,” I offer. It does seem silly, him driving home when he can just stay here, and I hope he agrees, but I am not so sure he will agree to stay here.“Lead the way.” His words shock me. Smiling, I nod, leading the way to my room. It feels unusual being in here with him, standing with him watching as I get undressed and climb into bed, lying next to him. Lying here, we talk for what seems like ages about if I knew what business I
Arriving, we walk in, everyone greeting us. We walk straight up to his office. I feel I can walk through freely without feeling uneasy or awkward anymore. I could easily do it without him by my side as well.“Sit,” he orders as we walk into his office. Obeying him, I sit and wait for him to begin talking.“Before you interrupt, listen to everything.” He looks at me, waiting for acceptance. I don’t like the sound of this. He clearly knows whatever he is going to say is going to make me stop him. Nodding, I wait for him to continue.“My lawyers are here today. We will be making you chairperson of the business; your say has the most authority while I am gone.” His words make me dizzy.“No, what? Why?” I feel scared and fire all the questions at once, but he stops me.“Wait, and listen! You don’t have to accept the money side of it. I would, however, like you to be in control. See it as work experience for university. You are close to finishing the course and being qualified. I don’t want
About half an hour later, we pull up to a shop. ‘S.V. Pleasure’ the sign reads. I turn to look at him, confused. What is this place?“My other business. You will also have the most say in this as well.” I look at the shop and wonder if this is going to be another four-hour meeting. I don’t think I can do that, so hopefully, that one meeting covered both sides of the business.“Let's go inside,” he smiles, opening the car door. I follow, walking in together, he is greeted by the staff who clearly know who he is. They don’t linger though. They quickly return to their jobs, not wanting to interrupt him. The shop is full. I follow him around while looking at everything. We walk into a corridor with several doors leading off it.“These are rooms set up, not to be used, but for inspiration and ideas. Customers can come in and look and see what they think. They can test anything in these rooms.” I turn, looking at him in shock. He can’t be serious, right? His chuckle at my reaction worries m