"I'm so sorry, dear, but we need someone who can… understand… take… orders?"
Rejection number six.
I forced a tight-lipped smile, nodding as if I hadn't already heard variations of this all day. No matter how much I tried to explain, the answer was always the same. They needed someone local, someone fluent, someone who wouldn’t make their job harder. And honestly? I couldn't even blame them.
"It’s fine," I swallowed my frustration.
But it wasn’t fine.
"Have a good day."
I hesitated. That’s it? Not even a second of consideration? I needed this job—desperately. My fingers curled tighter around my bag strap as I bit back the urge to plead. Instead, I turned on my heel and walked out, head held high despite the burning sting of rejection gnawing at my chest.
Lucky number seven, right?
The bitter cold greeted me as I stepped outside, icy tendrils creeping through my jeans like little reminders of just how unprepared I was for this country. I shoved my hands into my pockets, rubbing them together in a futile attempt at warmth. My breath curled in the air, disappearing as quickly as my hopes for employment.
Note to self: never trust the weather forecast.
By the time I reached my dorm, exhaustion weighed heavy on my bones. Between humiliating myself in class, spending hours buried in books at the library, and scouring every café and store for work, I had nothing left to give.
I skipped dinner, changing into warm clothes before sinking into bed.
For once, I didn’t overthink. Sleep came easily, my mind too drained to replay every awkward moment of the day.
Tomorrow, I reminded myself hazily. Get the damn glasses fixed.
❁
"Everything good, dorogaya?" Alina asked as I slumped into the seat beside her.
My gaze dropped to my breakfast—a bowl of soup and a piece of bread—and my mouth twisted in distaste. "If getting rejected from six places in a row is considered good, then yeah, I'm fucking marvelous."
I didn’t even feel like eating anymore. Hope had officially packed its bags and left the building. If only I’d taken Russian seriously in high school instead of assuming English would be enough.
"Told ya." Alina smirked, stirring her coffee. "You can still consider my offer, though."
I scoffed, narrowing my eyes. "No thanks. You enjoy your shady part-time—I’m fine."
"Oh, come on, it's not shady," she said, grinning mischievously. "It just offers… more."
I shot her a deadpan look. "More what?"
She leaned in, eyes twinkling with mischief. "See, you just have to dress pretty, sway your hips a little, and they’ll throw money at you."
Dress pretty and sway my hips? Sure. Because I totally had the grace of a swan and not the coordination of a drunk giraffe. Maybe I could charge people for entertainment—watch me trip over my own feet and somehow set an entire table on fire.
"You mean a bar dancer?" I sighed, shaking my head. "No, I'm good."
Alina shrugged and turned away, diving into a rapid conversation in Russian with another friend. I stared at my soup, my brain spiraling into its usual morning existential crisis.
Maybe I should consider stand-up comedy. My life was a joke anyway. Or mime. How hard could it be to pretend I was trapped in an invisible box? Knowing my luck, I’d probably end up in an actual one.
A girl plopped down beside me, her oversized round glasses sliding down her nose as she tucked a newspaper under her arm. My gaze flicked to the paper, then to my own glasses—currently being held together by duct tape. Right. Another thing to add to my ever-growing list of responsibilities.
But just as I resigned myself to my sad excuse of a breakfast, something caught my eye.
One word.
One beautiful, job-securing, fate-altering word, printed in bold letters in the sea of Russian text.
Employee needed.
My spoon nearly went flying as I lunged for the newspaper, my heart hammering against my ribs.
The girl shot me a murderous glare, but I couldn’t care less. With shaking hands, I shoved the paper at Alina, practically vibrating with perseverance.
"Translate this. Now."
Alina blinked at me, startled, then skimmed the ad. Her expression went from mildly intrigued to utterly shocked.
"Holy shit," she breathed. "They're hiring a caretaker... and it offers—fuck!"
I grabbed her arm, my pulse skyrocketing. "What?"
Her wide eyes snapped to mine. "Ten… Thousand. Dollars."
I swear, my soul left my body for a second.
Ten thousand dollars?
My eyebrows shot up so high, they nearly disappeared into my hairline.
Top of Form
Bottom of Form
Alina’s finger trembled as she jabbed at the bottom of the newspaper, as if she’d just discovered the lost treasure of El Dorado.
"The details...!" she squealed, her Russian spilling out in excitement.
I half-expected her to break into a full-blown celebratory dance, complete with jazz hands and dramatic twirls. Luckily, she limited herself to fist pumps and ear-piercing squeals, which was still enough to turn heads in the cafeteria.
Meanwhile, I sat frozen, my brain lagging behind reality.
Ten thousand dollars.
Was I dreaming? Did I accidentally sell my soul in my sleep and forget about it? Because that was the only reasonable explanation.
With shaky hands that felt more like overcooked spaghetti noodles, I fumbled for my phone and dialled the number. If I landed this job, I’d be making daily offerings of chocolate and coffee to every deity in existence. Maybe even throw in a cinnamon roll for good measure.
As the phone rang, my heart pounded so hard I was convinced the entire cafeteria could hear it.
Pick up, pick up, pick up—
"Привет?"
I swallowed hard.
"Am I speaking to Kyle Molotov?"
Silence.
A long, awkward pause stretched between us. I mentally kicked myself—English, really? Of course, he wouldn’t understand.
I took a deep breath and tried again, my Russian wobbling like a newborn deer.
“Hello, this is Seraphina. I saw the advertisement and wanted to know if this vacancy is available.”
The man’s voice was deep yet polite. "I'll send you the address, and we can meet here to discuss.”
"Oh, yes, yes!"
I jumped up so fast I nearly knocked myself into the wall. My fingers fumbled as I tried to steady the phone, and before I could say anything else, the call ended.
I stared at my screen, my grin stretching so wide it might’ve split my face in half. I probably looked like an overexcited puppy that just realized it was getting a treat.
But who cared?
I had an interview.
Bolting to my dorm, I yanked on a warm sweater and a fluffy scarf, wrestling them over my head like I was fighting a wild animal. Then came the jacket—except my hair decided now was the perfect time to stage a rebellion, sticking out in every possible direction like a science experiment gone wrong.
Who needed enemies when your own hair was out to get you?
I wrangled it into a messy bun, grabbed my bag and lip gloss, and called for a taxi.
This was happening.
I just had to not fuck it up.
I averted my eyes, heat rising to my cheeks, and tried to push myself up. The pain jolted through me, sharp and I wobbled. My breath hitched as a large hand gripped the knot of my towel, yanking me upright. Before I could react, I was pulled against his firm chest knocking the wind out of me.Instantly, the scent I had desperately tried to wash off flooded my senses—danger, power, and something unmistakably his. My stomach churned with a sickening vortex of fear and fury. It was like trying to outrun a shadow; no matter how fast I fled, he was always there.His hand tightened on the towel and I was afraid if he could feel my heart pounding in my chest. The closer I was to him, the harder it became to breathe.“There we go,” he murmured tilting his head at that infuriating angel that was judging me. “Can’t have you falling again, now can we?”I hated how he always looked at me like I was a toy. The mocking in his voice and the amusement in his eyes.I clenched my fists, nails biting in
I scrubbed the sweat and his heat off me. My skin was raw, but I couldn’t stop. The water was scalding, almost unbearable, but it didn’t matter. It could never be hot enough to burn away what he’d left on me. I hated how his scent still clung to me, the disgusting yet rich aroma of cigars and something that exclusively belonged to him.The insatiable man didn’t stop. Not even when I begged or when the room was spinning and my vision blurred at the edges from exhaustion.I could barely keep my eyes open, but the adrenaline kept me going, the haunting realisation he wouldn’t stop even if I lost consciousness.I trembled as I sank deeper into the tub, the water raised to my chin but the heat did nothing to soothe the ache that settled in my bones. My fingers trembled as I rubbed the soap over my skin, scrubbing harder, desperate to erase every trace of him. But he was etched into my blood.He was a fiend. An insatiable beast. The bastard didn’t just take—he devoured. I didn’t have to loo
It was a nightmare, one that I wished I could wake up from. But there was no escape, no end in sight. I clung to the hope that his eyes would soften, that he would grin and tell me he was just kidding, that this was all some twisted game meant to scare me. But I knew better. Judas didn’t play games like that. Not this time. Not ever.Nothing about him was predictable. He was cruel, his touch like the fire that burned through my soul.I didn’t understand why he suddenly wanted to know about Ivan. Ivan was just a friend.I knew he’d be more brutal if I didn’t tell him what he wanted to hear. He’d inflict pain on me and he wouldn’t feel an ounce of remorse. Why was I even expecting a psychopath to show emotions, the only two things he seemed to know were aggression and violence.I clenched my bloodied fist. “He’s just a… friend.”And I knew one thing—Judas didn’t ask questions for the sake of asking. He already had an answerin his head. He wanted me to confirm his suspicions, to feed int
A groan left my mouth and pain wrapped around me like an old, familiar shroud, something that felt like my body had been stung by thousands of needles. I didn’t need to see the bruises blooming across my skin to know they were there, didn’t need to touch the tender, aching spots to feel the damage beneath.It was as if I’d been shattered and the pieces of me scattered were irreparable.For a momentary second, I clung to the hope that it was just a nightmare—some twisted figment of my imagination. But the cold, stark reality settled in like ice in my veins as I felt soft velvety sheets under me. Cold air hit my skin and the more I tried to open my eyes, the worse my headache got.To my terror, my surroundings were suffocatingly quiet, the kind of silence that pressed down on your chest until you could barely breathe.My body screamed with every subtle movement, muscles stiff and brutally torn protesting even the smallest shift.With difficulty, I pried my eyes open and the ache in my b
My little bird tried to remain awake.Fight tooth and nail for it by clawing my face, and back, she even tried to slap me across the face and eventually gave up. Her gaze angry but she couldn’t help the moan that escaped her sinful lips as I pushed in deeper.And fuck.I was hard again.My little bird wasn’t afraid. Not yet. That defiance in her eyes, red from crying fueled the madness in me.She was perfect. Small, with wide hips begging to be gripped, a round ass that I couldn’t stop marking. Her nipples, perky and sensitive, were just waiting for the torment I had in store. And her eyes—those red, tear-filled eyes—tempted me, driving me to the edge of insanity.I planned to break her, to use her, to turn her into bait for Ivan Morozov. But first, I’d make sure she knew exactly who she belonged to.Rational thoughts didn’t exist here.Only the need.The overwhelming urge to take her, to ruin her, to make her mine in the most brutal, unforgettable way. I didn’t care about right or wr
I struggled against his grip, but he was too strong manhandling me with ease as he shoved me down, bending me over the edge of the bed. Panic surged through me, my heart pounding so hard I could feel it in my throat.One hand forced open my legs as he pressed against me. “Do you have any idea how long I’ve been wanting to do this?”Shut up, you brute.The alcohol in me was making me brave but still, I couldn’t let the words on my tongue. “No!” I cried out, trying to twist away to no avail. But deep down, I knew it was futile. After what happened last time, I should’ve been on my best behaviour, should’ve dug a hole somewhere and stay there for the rest of my life, but I had to let my frustration get the better of me and I decided not to wear what he sent for me.If I would’ve worn the lingerie, he wouldn’t be this mad.He tugged my hips back, forcing me to feel every inch of his hardness against my entrance. He was so big… too big… and that’s when I realised I was shaking my head, sti