Chapter 2

2

LOSING MY VIRGINITY THE HARD WAY

What the fuck !

I didn’t want to be distracted. I tried to turn over to my back to conceal what I did.

But it was late.

“What the heck are you doing?” he asked with a flicker of surprise on his face, trying to turn me to see what I had on my hand.

The heck you couldn’t do, I replied in my mind. “Please leave me alone.” I said, hiding the dildo between my legs.

The tall man turned me over with a stronger effort. I could see his length had come up to his full again.

“How can you do this ?” he said and tried to take the toy from me, but I instinctively resisted. With more effort he dragged the toy from me. He tried to continue, but I avoided him, closing my legs tightly. I was tired of him. I wanted to do it myself.

With much struggle he had his way. It was no more as painful as it was when we started. The toy was the miracle worker-He had made a way where there was no way.

I moan for pain and pleasure. It went so deep I wanted to scream out.

I forced myself to stay stable. This will only happen once and now is the time.

I grabbed the bedspread seeking comfort. It was painful though.

He was so tightened inside me there was no space. So fused I feared if he could disentangle when he was done.

The tall man continued plowing my sheath until his voice came panicking, he pulled out quickly and his energy like liquid spilled all over me. Heavy deep breaths.

****

I cried like I have never. The whole thing is just dawning on me right now.

I can’t forget the day I helped take my own virginity.

The man had dropped huge bills of money on the table for me before leaving.

‘Call me.’ he had said and dropped his contact card. All of that didn’t matter. I couldn’t have done this because of a man that moved on with another lady. I could have kept it for another good man or even dash it out to a serious future man as a surprise.

Now who is going to cherish this priceless gift wasted? I cried more.

I picked the contact card and tore hell out of it. Two bad incidents in one day for a small girl of 21 like me.

I wanted to tear the bills too, but resisted the evil urge. Those bills will be useful when I am fine.

Blood began to flow out slowly. The sight of it made me scream my cry. The people in the next two rooms could have heard me clearly.

****

I left the hotel to my house shattered and battered with broken dreams. My physical nature has become less beautiful and attractive than it used to be. I have just fucked up, and i know. But it will live with me.

I thought about the way forward from here. My mind was empty. But the only thing i remember clearly is that i was never going to be a good girl ever in this fucking life. Never!

While I took my bath at home, I heard my phone ring continuously. There have been 16 missed calls from Kova. A dangerous anger rose in me seeing the caller. Why was he calling me? What for?

This was his wedding day. Was he calling to have me in attendance? Unsettling questions raced through my mind.

He shouldn’t bother to have me on his occasion. I can end up pouring the occasion meal, or even killing either him or his wife.

I don’t know if i have the mind to do that, but if the anger that came upon me last night happens in his face, something might go wrong. There is a beast awakened in me.

I put my phone on silent and slept naked covering my clothless body with a duvet.

No dreams..

Shadows I didn't understand in my dreams. No specific thing. My head aches. I picked my phone to check the time, the missed calls on my phone screen made me forget i was to check the time.

Incredible 61 missed calls. Kova again. How could he?

In this twilight he should be having fun with his new bride.

Is he feeling guilty?

Does he want to know if I am safe? Because he knew how much I loved him. I gave him everything I could afford. I gave him my three months salary in a roll. The only thing I denied him was sex, because I wasn't ready.

Kova paid me back with evil. Tears began to roll from my eyes. Streams of it.

My phone rang again. I want to receive it and scream leave me alone fucker. Concentrate on your stupid wife. But I resisted the urge.

It kept ringing. This time, a strange number. I knew it was Kova using another line to call me. I didn’t want to hear any apology or excuses from him, he should fuck out with his cheating life.

I connected my phone bluetooth to the CD player in my house and went to the kitchen to make dinner for myself.

I am sure this meal is going to be sweeter than a cheating man. The aroma filling the air from an unfinished meal is worth a taste. It wasn't long before the food got done. I didn't have an appetite for any food. But the blood shortage had made me more hungry than I could endure.

I had to rush through the meal to finish it before it became late for dinner. Thank God all this happened when dad was away, he could have discovered it in a glance. My Dad is more observant and smart than 10 wise men put together.

I took a portion of the ready meal into the parlor. It's still very hot.

The sound of text messages and calls disrupted the music playing. I knew it must just be him. But why can’t he leave me alone and concentrate on his wife.

He had in mind to get married, why didn’t he discuss it with me, probably we can get married and have ourselves.

All he did was marry another woman and disturb my line. Perhaps the new wife was asleep while he bothered me. Or could it be he got the lady pregnant and decided to marry her.

My phone kept ringing and disrupting the music. It became so much that it was insane. I came back to check.

Kova still.

Please take your call.

It was a prank.

Everything, fake wedding bill.

No wedding !

No nothing!

What a brain buster !

My craving appetite for the delicious meal vanished like a mystery ghost.