The air was thick with smoke, and the stench of burning flesh was enough to make my stomach churn, but I didn’t move.
I couldn’t.
This wasn’t my first raid.
It wouldn’t be my last.
But it never got easier.
I adjusted the binoculars, scanning the chaos below.
Families were dragged from their homes, mothers screaming for their children, men beaten or shot for the smallest resistance.
And then I saw her.
She was fighting like a caged animal, her dark hair flying as she clawed at the man who held her.
There was something about her—something that made my chest tighten.
It wasn’t just the way she fought or the fire in her eyes.
It was her face.
I recognized her.
I reached into my pocket and pulled out the photograph, its edges worn and frayed from months of handling.
Her father had given it to me in a refugee camp, his hands shaking as he pleaded with me to find her.
“Her name is Noura,” he had said. “Please, if there’s any way—”
His voice had cracked, and he couldn’t finish the sentence.
I had nodded, not because I wanted to give him hope, but because I couldn’t bring myself to say no.
Now, seeing her dragged toward one of the waiting trucks, I felt a surge of something I hadn’t felt in years: purpose.
I didn’t know how I was going to do it, but I was going to get her out.
Even if it killed me.
3
NOURA
The truck smelled like sweat, urine, and fear.
We were packed so tightly I could feel the ribs of the girl next to me pressing against my arm.
She was whispering a prayer, her voice trembling, but I couldn’t bring myself to join her.
I stared at the floor, at the blood smeared across the metal, and tried not to think about Ayaan.
Or Mama.
Or Baba.
They were gone.
All of them.
I squeezed my eyes shut, willing myself to disappear.
To become invisible.
But I couldn’t escape the weight of the man’s words as he had shoved me into the truck.
“The warlord likes them pretty.”
I bit down on my lip until I tasted blood, the pain grounding me.
I didn’t know what was waiting for me at the end of this journey, but I knew one thing: I wasn’t going to give them the satisfaction of seeing me break.
Not yet.
4
NOURA
The camp was suffocating, a maze of makeshift tents and cold stares.
My wrists throbbed from the rough rope binding them, and the acrid stench of sweat and smoke burned my nose.
I tried to steady my breathing, but the panic clawing at my throat made it feel like I was inhaling shards of glass.
I was dragged like livestock through the camp, surrounded by men with rifles slung over their shoulders.
They jeered as we passed, their voices a sickening mix of amusement and hunger.
I kept my eyes on the ground, focusing on the dust clinging to my bare feet, trying to ignore their words.
"Pretty one."
"The warlord will enjoy her."
"Don’t damage her too much before the wedding."
The wedding.
The words felt unreal, like they belonged to someone else’s nightmare.
Not mine.
We stopped outside a large tent, its dark fabric billowing like a shroud of death.
One of the men shoved me forward, his grip bruising my arm.
My knees buckled, but I didn’t fall.
I wouldn’t give them the satisfaction.
Inside, the air was colder, heavier.
The warlord sat on a low cushion, a rifle resting casually across his lap.
He was a massive man, his presence filling the space like a storm cloud.
His face was scarred, his left eye clouded and sightless.
The good eye, sharp and black as obsidian, raked over me.
“Bring her closer,” he said, his voice low and gravelly, like the growl of a predator about to pounce.
I was forced to my knees before him.
The position was humiliating, degrading, but I refused to lower my head.
If he wanted to break me, he’d have to try harder than this.
“She has spirit,” he remarked, almost amused.
And yet, in his eyes, there was something I hadn’t seen before—vulnerability.A raw honesty that seemed to pierce straight through the remnants of fear I still held inside.“We’re in this together,” I finally said, my voice a little shaky, but firm. “No more running, Khalid. Not from each other. Not from what we’ve done.”He nodded, his hand slipping into mine, fingers curling around mine with a strength that reassured me.It was like he was trying to hold onto me as though the world outside would try to tear us apart again.“I know,” he said softly, his forehead leaning against mine for a brief moment. “I’ve hurt you, Noura. I’ve been broken. But this... this is a new start for us. A new chance to get it right.”I closed my eyes, feeling the soft warmth of his breath against my skin.There was so much we still had to face.So much we hadn’t yet worked through.But I was starting to believe that, together, we could weather it all.Together, we could build something better.I opened my
Every inch of her distance, every inch of her distrust.I had deserved it, I knew that, but it didn’t make it any easier.I wasn’t the man I had been.I couldn’t be.I had spent the months in prison thinking of nothing but her.Of the way she looked at me when I was too consumed with rage to care.Of the way she had pleaded with me, broken, desperate.I couldn’t forget it.No matter how hard I tried.I had become something unrecognizable.Someone I hated.But I couldn’t change the past.I couldn’t undo what I had done to her.To us.When I finally stepped in front of her, I was terrified.Terrified that the woman I had loved might not even recognize me.Terrified that the woman I had broken wouldn’t be able to love me again.“I’m sorry,” I said, my voice hoarse. “For everything. For the way I treated you. For the things I did. I can never take them back. But I swear to you, Noura, I will spend the rest of my life trying to be the man you need.”She stepped back, and for a moment, I th
His presence felt like an echo of something I had hoped to escape.But then he stepped toward me, slowly, cautiously, like he feared I might shatter if he moved too quickly.And it was in that moment, as I saw him standing there, not the strong, indomitable man I had once feared, but someone so much smaller, so much more fragile... that I realized something.I wasn’t afraid of him anymore.“Noura,” his voice broke through the suffocating silence, trembling as if it had been waiting to be released.His eyes were red-rimmed, bloodshot, but there was something raw in them.Something real.“I know I’ve failed you. I know I’ve hurt you in ways I’ll never be able to take back. But I need you to know... I’ve changed. I will change. For you. I’ll do anything. I’ll be the man you need me to be.”His words felt like knives, slicing through my chest.But they weren’t the sharp, cruel edges I had grown used to.They were dull.Tired.Almost pleading.I wanted to believe him.I wanted to hold him
I stared at the floor, trying to make sense of the whirlwind inside me.“I’m not perfect,” my father added, his voice growing more vulnerable now. “And neither is he. But the love between you two... It’s real. It’s worth fighting for. If you can see that.”I nodded, unable to speak.I had never realized how much I needed my father’s approval.But now, it was more than that.It was his understanding.His belief in me, in us.The quiet that followed felt like a moment of clarity, a glimpse into a future I hadn’t been able to imagine until now.I didn’t have to have all the answers.I didn’t have to know what would happen.But for the first time in days, I felt a flicker of peace.“Take your time,” my father said, pulling me into a hug. “But make the decision that will give you peace, Noura. Not the one that is easiest. The one that will let you live. Me and Khalid have a history, and we might have had our differences. But I can see how much he’s trying, and fighting for my approval and
Each time I closed my eyes, I saw his face, haunted by what he had done and by what it had cost him.I wanted to help him.I wanted to pull him out of the suffocating darkness he had trapped himself in.But I didn’t know how.I felt lost.But I couldn’t voice it.Not to him.He was in prison, and I was outside, free.My freedom had cost him everything.I wasn’t sure what to do with it.What was the point of this freedom if it was built on the wreckage of someone else?I sat at the edge of my bed, staring at the walls, the silence heavy in the room.It was as though the house had absorbed the grief, the violence, the fractured love.It was a void I couldn’t fill.And so, I did what I always did when I needed to make sense of things.I went to my father.His face was worn, but his eyes still held the same steady wisdom they always had.He didn’t speak immediately, just gestured for me to sit beside him.And I did, my body heavy with the weight of the questions I couldn’t answer.“Father
The man who had never let me go, even when he should have.The trial went on for days, each moment dragging as I was asked to recount what had happened—each word like sandpaper against my soul.It hurt to relive it, but it also felt necessary, like a purge of everything that had built up inside of me over the years.The prosecutors were doubtful and thought Khalid was trying to take justice into his own hands and murder the warlord before the police got to him and punished him.The warlord’s face, the way he had looked at me, the way he had manipulated me—those memories began to fade, replaced by the image of Khalid.But it wasn’t just the man who had killed for me that I saw now.It was the man who had been broken by his past, the man who had never truly learned how to love until it was almost too late.When the trial was over, and the decision was made, I knew it wouldn’t be easy for Khalid.He had blood on his hands.But I knew, too, that he had saved me.The warlord was gone, and