Birthday truths

kicking monaye feet off me I go to wake up realizing it’s almost 1 pm that’s the only thing that sucks about my job the odd work hours I sleep until it’s time to go to work and when I get off I’m up when everyone I love is asleep I reach over to grab my phone to find only i*******m notifications and a few snapchats I place the phone disgust crawling through I decide to check i*******m and as I’m looking around through likes and comments I see the activity of my boyfriend he is posting and liking things on social media and we haven’t spoke in 2 days he haven’t even texted me since I called last night .. our relationship has been a little off even before his brother being sick but I’m brushing it off because I hate to come to the horrifying truth that I mean nothing to this man and that I’m wasting my time with someone who doesn’t care about me it’s now 4 days away from birthday so I try to focus on this I go to text Arron I hope your feeling better today and I kept your brother into my prayers and your whole family I hope he recovers good morning I hit send then I hit the heart emoji and send another message making him read it but he doesn’t reply I see he is typing so I come out the message so he doesn’t think I’m just waiting which I am I see he is still typing so I get up and go to take a shower and get dressed as Jackie warned me to not be late today as I’m done applying make up to my face and looking at me basking in my beautiful face I go to check the message from Arron and it’s nothing just a read message I look at the phone side ways disturbed is all I can say out loud my mom walks past me “ aww Lena you look beautiful can you do my make up “ thanks mom I say as I get up “ I’ll see you guys later love you “ I shut the door getting into the car with Jackie seems like she is in a better mood today music blasting she had a j rolled and smile on her face I get into the car and begin to state “ well look at you in a better mood today “ I say this knowing she is going through relationship problems as well she shrugs her shoulder with a little smirk I guess so she says then she ask have I talk to Arron because he followed her on i*******m this morning “ those words stung every organ in my body hurts I begin to say I texted him this morning I know he is going through family problems I say feeling like the biggest fool on the planet I turn the music up a little more. Trying to drown out my thoughts, I go to triple-text. I’m a little upset now. “ really, Arron, you're on social media, and you followed my friend, but you couldn’t respond to me? I’m not even a bother. I have given you space to come to me, but if you don’t want this, let me know so I can move on. I don’t wish to look foolish . “ by the time I’ve sent this message, it’s time to get to work. I leave my phone in the car as I get my badge out. It’s been 3 hours or more since I’ve seen my phone. I'm at my first 15-minute break, searching through my phone to see no message was left. At this point, tears begin to form, with realization coming over me. I mean nothing to this man, but I am at work, and I can't be seen crying, is what I tell myself. I go to the bathroom, rinse my face, turn my phone off, and return to work. My work day has ended, and I've decided not to worry about him. I'm feeling petty. If he doesn't text or call me, then I won't text or call him.

Today is the day of my birthday, October first

As I'm waking up, I'm feeling great. I take a deep breath and squeal. I am finally 21, and I already feel loved. My sisters Monaye, Gaia, torrine, and Jessie surprised me with birthday breakfast and drinks. Even though I have to work today, it does feel good to be thought about. Even though I said I wouldn’t text or call Arron, he had been on my mind. We said we would celebrate together. I had high hopes, but that’s ok. Gaia wishes me happy birthday again while I’m getting dressed, asking me my plans. Of course, I remind her, “Please Dont ask me. You know I Don't wanna go to work today. I would rather hang out with you ladies. “ reaching over to give her a hug, torrine chimes in, saying,” Well, Lena how does it feel to be 41 today “ giggling thinking she was funny “ hey that's not funny I'm not trying to be old any time soon “ I respond by the time I'm done getting myself together Jackie is here she comes inside to wish me happy birthday and to see what I wanted to do I remind her of work Jackie says “well it's your birthday and it's Friday we should go out I'm going to call willow she knows all the spots and have many connections “ we love a reggae joint. I've decided to call off work and enjoy my birthday. As the evening goes by, I can't help but think of Arron. I start to get dressed for the club we planned to go to, and of course, we are drinking. I go to my parent's room to grab some of my mom's perfume. mg dad stops me to tell me happy birthday and that I looked beautiful; being the father he is, the request I will be careful while I'm out is a command. I took a picture of him and my mom lying in bed before I left. Gosh, I love that man. My father taught me many great lessons of life. I'm grateful for him. Me, Jackie, and Willow head out to the club. I decided to ride with Willow for the night. I'm always with Jackie, and I wanted to give them some space. We arrive at The Club, and we head over to the bar. My friends are borderline harassing the bartender. Willow says, “It's my friend's birthday. She is 21. Can you make her a drink she won't remember? “ I look back fast. “Excuse me, ma'am, I would love to make it home tonight, “ the music loud, but through the loudness, I can hear Shavona screaming Happy birthday bitch hugging me from behind and ordering me another drink on top of the one I still have again telling the bartender to make it special for my 21st I'm starting to feel my first drink I'm in the music I decide to text Arron I told him it's my birthday and asked if he would come out to celebrate with me I told him I was lit and wanted him. Arron replies in 2 minutes, saying he is getting dressed and will be on the way before he arrives. I realize I’m so drunk that I can hardly keep up stumbling to the restroom. I closed the stall door and decided to force myself to vomit to reduce the alcohol that was already in my body. By the time I was done, I got a call from Arron saying he was there. I try to move quickly, but I’m still very much drunk; I’m sure he noticed. I’m kissing all over his neck and mouth. We start walking to his car. I’m holding onto him because I can hardly keep myself up, almost regretting having had so much to drink. We make it to his car in the back seat immediately pulling clothes off I can tell I’m taking him by surprise I see he is into it but I’m so drunk that I can hardly move in this car so we decide to go to his apartment he lives 10 minutes from the club while pulling up at his apartment I text willow I'll be staying at arrons for the night we make it to his apartment I rush to the bathroom to freshen up some I head to his room with nothing on crawling to him I reach his chest and begin to kiss on it pulling his shirt up at this point there hasn’t been much conversation he says he is sorry and that there is a lot on his mind but in this moment I’m not hearing it I’m in full blown euphoria I want him and I want him now he smell so good and feel so rough I love the way he is looking at me I lay across his chest kissing his bottom lip while giving him a hand job long and slow strokes I can feel him kissing back he wants to control this moment and I let him flip me over so he is on top kissing my lips over and over saying happy birthday in between each kiss he gets to my neck and down my collarbone he is now at my favorite spot trailing his tongue in circles on my skin I moan with pleasure ripping through me I place my hands on the back of his neck gently squeezing he swirls his tongue around my nipples making them harden he begins to suck on them grabbing my ass with complete force he looks up at me and says this ass is mines smacking it over and over until I cry out I bite my bottom lip Arron begins to finger me while sucking my nipples he start to suck harder while placing a second finger into me he groans “ fuck your so wet , your wet for me Lena cum for daddy babygirl cum “ I’m starting to lose control this is what I’ve been feening for his touch and smell and he fucks me so good I’ve never had dick like this so aggressive but yet so tender I feel my body tense up shouting for him to keep going he is at my g spot making me go crazy the tenseness continue until I reach my orgasim once I reach he lifts me up so I’m sitting on top he whispers in my ear “ ride it “ as he slowly enters me I gasp starting to slowly come down on his dick feeling it throb each time I come down I pick up the pace when he grabs both my ass cheeks and spread them putting a finger up my ass I look at him this is new but I like it as I’m riding him I get faster feeling the sensation go through my whole body he flips me back over and puts both my hands above my head, holding them so tight I can’t move. He starts to fuck me so hard I could cry, but it also feels so good I don’t want it to end. He asks if I like it. I scream yes while fucking him back. He then cums, emptying himself into me. He rolls off top of me, and we hold each other. We both state we love each other. He kisses my forehead, and we blackout for the night.

Lena

Waking up with a big yawn and stretched, feeling sore, I open my eyes to see Arron getting out of bed. He claims he will work soon, and I could leave after him. While walking to the shower, I get up and sit on the edge of the bed reminiscing on last night and how perfect it went I go to stand up hardly having feeling in my legs I see his closet door is open so I go to shut the door I’m a little ocd about things being in order I’m closing the door when I see a painting it catches my eye drawing me to take a closer look “ wow this is beautiful” different shades of purple blue and black consumes the canvas it looks like maybe two people in a swirl of romance I’m looking at the bottom when I realize it has his initials on it I begin to wonder did arron paint this I come closer looking at the painting I feel something poke me on the foot I go to kick it away looking down it look like a bra strap that isn't mines and a cardigan balled up on the floor immediately I’m disturbed because I’m not that size I’m more curvy sensational filled out type of woman large breast but still perky wider hips big ass and thighs to match I walk out the closet after taking pictures I try not to think about it but it’s hard I shouldn’t have been in his closet to begin and it seems like we are on better terms as of right now I would hate to bring something up that causes silence between us I put it out of my mind and instead of waiting for him to return from work I take a Uber home I text him that I was leaving and locks the door from his phone which is very cool. Entering my Uber, it all sinks in the hurt and confusion, going back and forth on what to do because I’m not one to hold my tongue. I speak my mind boldly, and without sugarcoating, I’m blunt: why does he make me feel weak? After arriving home, I shower and nap some more, still extremely tired. Once I wake up, it’s dark outside. I go to check my phone. I can see it’s now 6:39, and Arron should be home. I text him, “Hey, with a few spaces, can I ask a question ?” He replied, “Go ahead. “ I asked. “ why do you have a petite bra and cardigan in your closet I explained I was looking at this beautiful painting and saw it randomly. He says it’s nothing. It was for a friend. I’m irritated at this point because I already know what’s going on, and I can’t force myself to come to terms with it. I get up out of bed, put some clothes on, heading to the stairs. At this point, I'm angry and just filled with rage.