Lena

It’s a Monday night. I’ve just gotten off of work, entering my

friends car, taking my phone out and immediately checking my messages. sighing as I turn to my friend. “ hey Jackie, can we stop to get food on the way home? I’m starving. “ she doesn’t respond. I’m now looking at her. I ask again as she connects her phone to the Bluetooth and plays music. “ hello Jackie, did you hear me? “I'm already annoyed and tired, going through a weird patch in what I thought was a relationship. It’s 2 am, and I haven’t eaten anything but vending machine food, and my heart's aching when Jackie doesn’t respond. I get the picture even though it’s her car, and she is helping me get to and from work, but that doesn’t mean she has to be rude about it. I begin to let it go and decide to roll up some joints to get my mind off of Arron. I met him two months ago at a club, and before I go into that, yes, I know I never start a relationship with someone from the club, but he seems genuine, and we text and talk all day. He comes to see me, and I see him when I can for the most. Anyway, Arron was not my first boyfriend, but he is my first real adult relationship. I’m currently 20 years old. I live at home with my parents and siblings. I’ve been working and doing what I please, having fun being young. My phone dings. I quickly grab it and tap on Jackie to pass the joint. “ ehh, nobody, “ I say as I frown, scotching down into my seat. Jackie tells me, “Hmmph, it seems you are waiting for an important message. “ I glare at her as she passes the j back to me. “Well, look who decided to speak ! “ and ofc I wanna tell her exactly how I’m feeling, but I don’t want to sound foolish, and I already feel bad enough I don’t know why I’m letting this thing consume me well I guess I have a feeling why … Arron was my first time. Yes, I lost my virginity to him. I mean, I was ready to lose it. I didn’t know with whom I was about to be 21 and never got past 2nd base, which was no problem with me. Still, as I started to venture out into the world, I started to get a taste and feel of what I liked and wanted, but It did help that he was funny and cute, and he was just there for me. Overall, he made me feel comfortable. We went at my pace. I look out onto the highway as a flash back grabs my thoughts laughing echos it’s me and Arron at a bar just talking Arron says to me “ Lena what’s your thought on leaving with me to go yo Dubai, we live in Texas I go to tell him .. please don’t hype me up you know I want to go to Dubai that’s on my list of places he rubs my thigh and kisses me on the neck and says “ I wanna be the one to take you there I want to give you that experience and many more you deserve a life time of happiness my baby “ I begin to blush and look away when he pulls my face towards him and gives my plump lips a peck in this moment I’m ready to go home with him “ I snap out of my flashback as Jackie put the car into park and says “ we are here “ I put the j in the ashtray that’s in her car I go to grab my belongings “ thanks I’ll see you tomorrow jack “ Jackie snarls back please don’t be late goodnight “ I shut the door standing outside the front door checking my phone once more still nothing I’m now inside high hurt and hungry I go to my parents room just checking on everyone while they sleep I see my dad laying at the bottom of the bed with the baby James and my mom laying at the top mouth open snoring baby James is up watching tv laying on my dads back I go to pick him up “ aww what are you doing up little man “ punching his cheeks giving him little kisses “ so cute “ I go to place him down I go into the kitchen looking into the fridge I feel I’m not alone I look over to the window and I see a rat climbing out the kitchen window in this instance I’m not even hungry anymore I went ahead up the stairs to my room that I share with my youngest sister monaye I move her feet out of my way as I sit into the bed I take off my work clothes and slide under the covers I always have a surge of energy when coming home sense I’m not allowed on my phone at work and I work long hours I go to call Arron looking over his social media he hasn’t posted today and last we spoke was the day before and he had found out his brother was sick back home enters flashback “ hey babe what you doing” I go to ask while on a 15 min break at work Arron responds back emotionless “ uhh nothing I’m just not feeling like myself “ well what’s wrong what’s going on you sound upset is it me !? Am I bothering you? I go to reply, and he sounds a bit sad this time. He responded, “My brother is unwell, and I’m not with him. It worries me, but I’m sure all will be well. “ oh no, I hope he gets better. Do you know what’s wrong with him ? “ no, I’m not sure my mum has been keeping me updated, but they are not sure my brother is very sickly and needs oxygen. “ wow, I’m very sorry to hear this .. if you want I can come over so your not alone I know your family is out of the country and you have to focus on your study’s “ Arron Replies no I want to be alone tonight I will call you in the morning goodnight I love you “ I roll over in the bed holding onto the thought that he loves me and if needed he will come to me with him being 32 for heaven sake. I close my eyes, going into a slumber.