It's Twins

The money hit my bank account at 3:07 p.m. on a Tuesday.

I didn’t feel rich. I felt like a target.

I’d opened the account two years ago with $20 I found under a booth at Lou’s Diner—crumpled, sticky with syrup. Since then, the highest balance I’d ever seen was $812, after I picked up six extra shifts during Christmas week. Now, $600,000 sat in it like a spotlight had been turned on me in a dark room. Exposed. Watched. Temporary.

I didn’t tell Rosa. Didn’t post about it. Didn’t even let myself stare at the number for more than ten seconds. Because money like that isn’t freedom—it’s a leash. And someone always holds the other end.

I used $300 to pre-pay Rosa for two weeks of meals—stacks of carne asada burritos, rice bowls with extra beans, hard-boiled eggs wrapped in foil—all tucked into the mini-fridge I’d bought off a guy in a parking lot for $40. The fridge hummed like an old dog, but it worked. $150 went to prenatal vitamins with DHA and folate, the kind the clinic handout said “optimized for twin gestation.” The rest? I left it. Didn’t touch the balance again. Didn’t even log in. Because as long as I didn’t see it, it couldn’t tempt me. And it couldn’t remind me that my body now had a price tag.

At work, I moved like a ghost. Double shifts. Triple coffee refills. Smiled when old men pinched my arm and said, “You’re too pretty to be working here.” Nodded when Rosa frowned and said, “You look tired, mija. You eating?” I didn’t tell her about the nausea that hit every morning like clockwork, sour and sharp, or the way my jeans were already tight at the waist even though I’d only been pregnant eight weeks, or the dreams I kept having—of two tiny hands gripping mine, then letting go as someone in a suit carried them away.

Then, on Thursday, the clinic called again.

“Your progesterone levels are slightly low,” Dr. Lin said, her voice as smooth and cool as glass. “We’re adding a daily intramuscular injection. You’ll need to come in every morning at 7 a.m. for administration.”

Every morning. Before my shift started at 9. That meant leaving the apartment at 5:30 a.m., walking ten blocks to the bus stop in the dark, riding across town while the city slept, standing in the sterile hallway of AQUA West while a nurse prepped a needle the size of a toothpick.

I said okay. What else could I say?

The first injection burned like fire in my hip. I bit the inside of my cheek so hard I tasted blood, determined not to make a sound in front of the nurse—a young woman with tired eyes, a silver ring on her thumb, and a small bird tattooed on her inner wrist.

“First time?” she asked, pressing a cotton ball to the spot.

I nodded, eyes fixed on the floor.

“It gets easier,” she said. But her voice was soft, like she knew it was a lie. Like she’d said it to a hundred girls like me.

That night, I came home to a voicemail.

“Remy?” My father’s voice, too casual, too smooth—like he’d practiced it. “Heard you got paid. Call me back, yeah? We should talk. I’ve got an idea.”

I deleted it without listening to the end.

But the next morning, as I stepped out of the clinic, rubbing my hip, he was waiting by the curb.

He leaned against a black sedan I’d never seen before—clean, shiny, probably rented with part of the money he’d already taken. He wore a new leather jacket, his hair combed, face shaved. He even smelled like the kind of cologne they sell in department stores, not the dollar-store stuff he usually used.

“Hey, kid,” he said, like we were old friends meeting for coffee.

I didn’t stop walking. “I have to get to work.”

He fell into step beside me, hands in his pockets. “Look, I know how it looks. But I’m trying to do right by us. Got a lead on a steady gig in Vegas—piano three nights a week at a lounge off the Strip. Good pay. But I need a stake to cover travel and a deposit on a room.”

I kept walking, eyes on the sidewalk. “Then get a loan.”

“I can’t. Bad credit.” He glanced at me, voice dropping. “But you’ve got money now. Just… lend me some. I’ll pay you back with interest.”

“With what?” I asked, stopping finally, turning to face him. “Your next poker win? Your next bottle of whiskey?”

He flinched like I’d slapped him. “That’s not fair.”

“Neither is taking $120,000 from a girl who’s carrying twins for a stranger.”

He looked down at his shoes—new, too. “I didn’t know it was twins.”

“Now you do.”

We stood there on the sidewalk in West LA, two broke people pretending one of us wasn’t drowning. A BMW slowed as it passed, music thumping, girls laughing inside. Another world.

Finally, I said, “I’ll give you $20,000. One time. No more after that. And you don’t come near me again until after the birth. Not one call. Not one text. You disappear.”

He hesitated. Wanted more. But he saw my eyes—how tired they were, how final. He knew I meant it.

“Alright,” he said. “Deal.”

I wired it that night from the library computer, using a fake email so the transaction wouldn’t link back to me easily. Watched the balance drop to $579,983.21. Felt nothing. Not anger. Not sadness. Just a heavy kind of relief—like I’d bought myself a few more months of quiet.

The next morning, the injection still hurt, but less.

At work, Rosa handed me a folded napkin. “From table six.”

I opened it.  

> *“You looked like you needed this.”*  

Inside: a $50 bill and a banana-flavored protein bar.

I tucked the cash into my tip jar. Ate the bar in the break room, slow, savoring the sweetness. Let myself feel grateful for five whole minutes. Then washed my hands and went back to work.

At home, I started researching twins in earnest. Library books with cracked spines. Medical websites with diagrams of shared placentas. Online forums where women wrote about carrying two—how one kicked at 3 a.m. while the other slept, how they made you waddle like a penguin by month six, how your ribs ached from the pressure.

I traced my fingers over my lower belly, still flat but changing.  

Are you Leo? Nate? 

I didn’t say it out loud. But in my head, they had names. Personalities. Futures.

One night, I dreamt they were born. Nate screamed the second he hit air—loud, furious, alive. Leo opened his eyes slowly and looked right at me—calm, knowing, like he’d been waiting for me his whole short life.

I woke up crying into my pillow, hand pressed to my stomach like I could hold them in.

The next day, I walked to a thrift store in Koreatown and bought two tiny stuffed animals—$2 each. A blue elephant. A green frog. I hid them in my sock drawer. Just in case.

Then, on Sunday, I passed a playground near the bus stop. Two little boys, maybe three years old, racing down a slide, shoving each other, laughing like the world was made just for them.

I stopped. Watched. Imagined Nate and Leo running like that—side by side, wild and free.

A woman with a stroller smiled at me. “You pregnant with twins?”

I froze. “How’d you know?”

“Your walk,” she said gently. “And the way you’re holding your belly—like you’re protecting something precious.”

I didn’t answer. Just nodded and walked away fast, heart pounding.

But her words stayed with me all day. All night.

Precious.

Not “carrier.” Not “gestational vessel.” Not “contract fulfillment.”  

Precious.

That night, I sat on my mattress, hand resting low on my stomach, and whispered for the first time—not in my head, but out loud, quiet but clear:  

“I’m keeping you safe.”

Not them.  

You.

Because in that moment, something shifted. I stopped thinking of them as a transaction. As a payout. As someone else’s future heir.

They were mine.  

However long I got to have them.

And I’d be damned if I let anyone forget that.

Even if the world said I signed them away.  

Even if my own body wasn’t mine anymore.  

Even if the only thing I truly owned was this quiet, stubborn love—

I’d hold it like a weapon.

Because it’s twins.  

And that changes everything.

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