Chapter 82VladimirCars slid past me in a blur. The city felt like it was on a standstill even though streetlights, and lights coming from the open stores and other buildings illuminated the road.It was past 11p.m. I should be home right now, better still, I should have been with her. This wasn’t how I planned my night. When I was alone in her room after wishing Dalian a good night, I’d envisaged her being happy to see me when she returned.But it was the opposite. When the door flew open and her eyes met mine, I saw surprise flicker for a while. It vanished and got replaced immediately by yearning, but that disappeared quickly too.By the time we were done talking, she was already fuming, sending me out of her room and shattering my heart into pieces.“Fuck!” the word flew out of my lips as I rammed my foot against the breakpad, pulling the car to a stop.I’d almost hit a passerby. How foolish I was to drive when I was under the influence of anguish and distress. I could understan
Chapter 81GuiliaI didn’t just cringe when he said it as though he was certain that I’d like his new idea of being fed, I was disgusted.His hands traced my collarbone in unsteady movements, his other hand grasping my dress wanting to tear it off. I struggled against him, fighting to keep my dress in place. This isn’t how I envisaged that this night would go.I knew that I’d be trying to fight against a man sexual urges, but I didn’t think that I’d be protecting myself against rape.“Stop, Carlton!” my scream seemed to have quieted the evil voices that spurred him to do what he did as he rolled away from me. “I asked you to feed me not to shove the food down my throat,”The lust in his eyes vanished. He fell on his knees on the bed, clutching onto my arm, wide-eyed. “I’m so sorry, I didn’t know what came over me,” his gaze strolled over my skin in careful scrutiny. “Did I hurt you?” he tried to touch me.I shrank away from him, flipped my hair to the back and ran my fingers through t
Chapter 80GuiliaThe tension in the air hung low, very palpable. One glance at him and I saw it all; he was tense, fingers clutching tightly onto the wheel in anticipation of what would go down this evening. I sat still on my seat, strung and apprehensive of the next turn of events.This was a bad idea, I thought.I shouldn’t have dressed provocatively, worst still, stirred up that beastly emotions that lurked in his eyes. Dmitri and I should have come up with a better plan. We should have thought of something better.One way to know a bad evening was one that was filled with ‘should haves’.“You good?” his jaw clenched after he asked.I almost admitted that I wasn’t. It almost left my mouth that I wanted him to turn the car around and take me back home, but the words never made it out of my mouth. Instead, I said. “I’m very excited, Carlton. I’m pumped, I can’t wait for you to show me how much you like me,”Bile rose to my throat, a bitter taste spreading throughout my tongue. What
Chapter 79VladimirThe basketball court seemed to be the best place to exert my energy while clearing my head. I was an average player, never aspired to win championships or take it to another level, but I liked the game. I enjoyed playing it.And since my brain kept working on overdrive, I decided that throwing the ball into the net blindly would help relieve the bone of jealousy that was stuck in my throat.First attempt. The ball got into the net and I shot my fist into the air, happy that I’d been able to win something after failing so much recently in nearly everything.I saw her this evening. After all the drama with Marian at the house, the argument which made me send her out of the house because I felt like I was losing my damn mind, I drove down to Dmitri’s to see her, to tell her how much I enjoyed the night we had just shared together.But there she was, seducing him, her semi-nudity shoved up in his face. He wanted to devour her. The hunger in those eyes couldn’t be dism
Chapter 78Guilia“I’d take it that you’re having a good time with my brother, eh?” Dmitri probed, throwing his stress ball into the air as he swung casually on his executive chair.A sigh breezed out of my lips as I leaned properly on the back rest of the chair. “I wouldn’t assume that if I were you,” He scoffed with a look of amusement spreading over his face, slightly reminding me of his brother. I almost snorted. It was difficult having people walking around, carrying the face of the man you wanted to toss into the recycle bin in your brain.He ensured that I wouldn’t forget him.“You slept in his place last night, am I right?” he questioned with a smug grin on his face.I had to snort. “That meant nothing,”Lies.“You could have refused sleeping there, but you did,” he pressed on in a way that was becoming irritating.“Dalian wanted us to spend time as a family and I just wanted to make him happy because of the injury he incurred, the one your brother watched him incur," I knew
Chapter 77Guilia I woke up to Dalian peering at me wide-eyed, curiosity blaring in his gaze. “Hey, handsome,” I ruffled his hair with the memories of last night flooding into my mind.Like a teenage girl who just had her first kiss, I giggled, sheepishly. He had taken everything I had to give and I did the same. We had no need to be wary of neighbours as our voices crossed the roof, our moans pouring out in endless pleasure. We both decided that it was best for me to stay with Dalian in case he needed anything, but that was after we’d gone on three extra rounds.Like every forbidden act, it was always sweet, but it ended up leaving a sour taste afterwards. Our lovemaking was great because I was still very much in love with him, but when I climbed down from the high he’d put me, reality began to set in.At first it was noise resonating from the downfloor. While I took care of Dalian’s injury, arguments ensued between Vladimir and a familiar female voice I knew too well, but despised