As I slowly opened my eyes there came a headache.
I groaned, blinking rapidly, using my palm to press my forehead. With the smell and aura, I knew I was in a hospital as I rested my back on the pillow, sitting comfortably on the bed, still moaning at the headache. "Matt!" Leah and Ruth stood up reaching for my hand. "Are you okay?" Ruth asked with a worried look. "Of course, I am," I replied with a small smile, still feeling my head spinning. "You should have obeyed Dad when he instructed you not to come to school today!" Leah said and I shrugged a bit. "I fainted because I forgot to use my drugs early." I chimed in. "Of course, that's not the cause. Isn't it because of Keith?" Ruth fired. "Please, it's not Keith's fault... He was only trying to get friendly with Matt." Leah defended and Ruth scoffed. "I see you prefer your crush to your brother, huh?" I said jokingly. "Come on, of course not," Leah said hitting me playfully. "Where am I?" I finally asked, even though I knew I was in a hospital, I still had no idea which hospital I am since this is not the hospital that has my medical records. "Just a nearby hospital," Ruth replied. "But Doctor George is the one who treated you." She added, and I sighed, seeing that my finger was already clipped to a clip-like device. The heart monitor and blood pressure cuff are hooked up to a computer that records and stores my vital signs, and I guessed I would be in the hospital for a while. "I hope everything went well in school?" I asked knowing I must have drawn too much attention from the students and professors since it was my first time fainting in class. "No, Keith was blamed for the incident," Leah answered lowly. "Ignore her, aside from that, everyone is doing fine, and they all wished for your recovery. Mum and Dad would be here soon." Ruth said and I sighed gratefully. The door creaked open, and my familiar doctor walked in with a lesser smile, holding some documents. "He just woke up," Leah told him as he walked over to us. Doctor George glanced at the heart monitor, and the small smile which has been on his face ever since he walked in suddenly disappeared. I guessed something was off, but I didn't get too inquisitive, and I tried to act as if I didn't notice his scared look or, dare I say, sad face. "Your mother and father haven't arrived?" He asked Ruth. "They will probably be here soon," Ruth replied. "When they get here, tell them to see me at the doctor's office." That said, doctor George turned and left not sparing me a look. "What's up with him?" Leah questioned thoughtfully with a weird look as George exited the ward. "It could be personal," I suggested. "Or he might be having a bad day," Leah added. "You should rest now; we will get you something to eat," Ruth said, and I smiled at her. "Thank you." I appreciated as she urged Leah out of the ward. I breathed out a sigh and closed my eyes as if meditating on my breath. I could hardly hear my heartbeat, but I didn't worry too much as I forced out a smile and recalled what had happened at the school. I blushed silly when Keith held my hand, and I liked the feeling at that time, but when I noticed the change in my body, I wanted to exit the classroom to take my drugs, but he wouldn't even give me a chance to. Although I struggled he was too strong for me to run away from. Nevertheless, I held no malice against him. In short, if it was possible I would like to be in that situation again. I smiled sillily in my dream at Keith's grey eyes and golden hair and his voice... God! "Excuse me!" I heard George's voice, and I opened my eyes thinking he was inside the ward, but he wasn't. "Oh! Doctor George." I heard my mother's worried voice and I confirmed that they were outside the ward. I went back to my fantasies of thinking about my crush, Keith whom I will never come to hate because life is too short to be all about hatred. "What!" I heard my parents exclaim at the same time and I quickly opened my eyes. "Please, lower your voice, I don't want him to hear this news." I heard George's voice and I knew they were talking about me. Still opening my eyes, I paid attention to their conversation and I heard my mother whisper worriedly. "How in Christ's name would you say my son has less than three months to live!" My mother was trying her best to lower her voice but I heard that. And my heart, which I couldn't hear beat, seemed to have shifted to my lungs. Stingingly, I blinked my eyes not realizing my hot tears were beginning to stroll down my cheeks. "Never! In Christ's name. My son would live, and won't die until his old age!" My dad argued. "Please, take it easy Mr. Harry, you've gotta know I'm heartbroken at this news. But I'm afraid it's medically true." George also sounded sad and I realized why he couldn't look at me when he walked in. Was it because he was feeling guilty? That I'm dying soon? I felt the words hurt me again, and the rest of my parent's words of Christ, this and that didn't get to me, and I reminded myself that I was fucking dying soon! In less than three fucking bad months! Why! My heart was breaking into tiny pieces when I hugged myself, and I felt disheartened, unable to control the hot tears that streamed down my face; my lips were trembling, and even my heart began to beat in my throat. I wanted to die when I heard about my heart disease. But now, I don't want to. "I don't want to die." I cried in a whispery manner, clenching my fist and begging for life. The heart monitor began sounding crazy and I knew it was how my body was behaving. I was suddenly feeling weak, and I hated it that I couldn't even cry properly. The monitor was going crazy with how urgent it was sounding. In a blurry vision, I saw Doctor George entering the ward with my parents. My mother's face was soaked with tears, just like mine. And the next thing I could feel was my body automatically shutting down and... Blackout!"Oh, never mind," I say with a small smile, looking away from him.Whether it was true or not I shouldn't even be asking, "I'm sorry for---" I was about to apologize when Matthew cut me off"What if it were true?" As he said these words I couldn't shift my gaze away from that hazel eyes of his.So? What if he has a crush on me? I rephrased his word in my headWould I yell at him as I did with Jude and Billy? Call him a fucking nutcase?Matthew's look held the one that wanted a desperate answer but how should I reply to him? I was even feeling stupidly happy inside of me. What am I now?A gay like him?I stood up immediately. "I think we've overstayed our visit; we still need to work on presenting it at my home," I said, taking some stuff of mine.I began climbing down the mountain ignoring Matthew whether he was coming along or not.Perhaps I was just running away from his question... I would love to tell him he was not being serious but why did a part of me want to admit I like his c
"Heart disease?" He repeated lowly and I smiled dryly knowing that he was already feeling compassion for me by the way he stopped on his track and glanced at me, his lips looked pinker from up close with how his hair smelled and his cologne must have started smelling from me."Hmm... I'm being treated by the way." I assured with a small smile."I wish you a speedy recovery." He says and I try to hide the sadness in me.He mustn't know I'm dying soon, no. No one should know."Yes, I would get well soon." I lied but no doubt there wasn't the grace of hope in my voice.Keith exhaled heavily, adjusting his grip as he carried me. He walked on, his silence stretching on like a tense cord. I guess his thoughts were consumed by me. He might not seem to care about anyone but I was sure he does seem to care about some people and I might be part of those people."Do you wanna go on a walk after we finished at my home?" He asked in a low whisper."Huh... Billy and I are to ride a bicycle later t
"Oh, never mind," I say with a small smile, looking away from him.Whether it was true or not I shouldn't even be asking, "I'm sorry for---" I was about to apologize when Matthew cut me off"What if it were true?" As he said these words I couldn't shift my gaze away from that hazel eyes of his.So? What if he has a crush on me? I rephrased his word in my headWould I yell at him as I did with Jude and Billy? Call him a fucking nutcase?Matthew's look held the one that wanted a desperate answer but how should I reply to him? I was even feeling stupidly happy inside of me. What am I now?A gay like him?I stood up immediately. "I think we've overstayed our visit, we still need to work on presenting it at my home," I said taking some stuff of mine.I began climbing down the mountain ignoring Matthew whether he was coming along or not.Perhaps I was just running away from his question... I would love to tell him he was not being serious but why did a part of me want to admit I like his cr
I secretly blushed when Keith wanted me to go out with him again with Jennabeth.I slightly looked away from him to the mirror as I finally got myself to calm down after blushing at his words. Why am I so silly? I thought biting my lips so I wouldn't start smiling again at how smoothly we had had a conversation.I was still in my thoughts when the car stopped abruptly making me hit my head on the headrest. I quickly glance at Keith. "What?" I say since I guessed we haven't even arrived at the location yet.He didn't reply and from the corner of his face. He seems to be battling with some thought. "Are you okay?" I say seeing that he wasn't smiling as he had done.This new side of him reminded me of when he had approached me in the class and how I had fainted.God! The atmosphere went tense and I could only hear my breathing as I waited for Keith to reply.Suddenly he heaved out a breath as he started the engine not even giving me the reply I deserved.I looked away from him, feeling a
I'm standing at the school compound waiting for Matthew to show up since we're going to go check the mountain together for the tour.Throughout the exam periods, I hadn't even talked to him, because I had arrived in the class late and had left before him because of the teacher who asked to see me.Winifred had gone after we had a conversation in the empty classroom after Matthew left. I had even been the one who yelled at her to leave.After hearing what she has to say about Matthew I couldn't even take her words for it. Still, I didn't understand why she disliked him for her to accuse him of such. Just thinking about it is beginning to piss me off but when I saw Matthew approaching me, I suddenly feel calm but not when I saw Billy walking with him as well.Billy was still my friend but I can't just seem to control the emotions that always stir up whenever I see him with Matthew, as they got closer they finally stopped at my front. "Hi," Matthew called and I smiled at him."Hi," I rep
As I dashed away from the classroom leaving Keith with Winifred, I expelled a breath as I finally felt comfortable my stomach had twitched throughout the session with them, and it was finally unknot itself.I had felt that way after Winifred had cursed me with my health, I had feared I had pushed her to her limit and she might just tell Keith of me.Jesus Christ, she's becoming more than a threat, she probably had me under wraps when she noticed I had gone quiet and calm. "It won't take long before my family finds out and I will tell them this Sunday after visiting George in the hospital," I tell myself as I finally approached the front yard of the school and Billy came running to me.I smiled at his presence as he stopped at my front. "Where have you been? I've been looking for you, are you alright?" He asked at once."I'm good man," I assured. "How was the presentation meeting with Darren?" I decided to ask."He's never serious. We might take the last position." Billy said and I chu