What do you fear the most? Matthew's only fear is coming out as gay to his family, who are devoutly religious and consider homosexuality a sin. But when he heard from his doctor that he had less than three months left to live. Matthew decided that living his truth was more important than his fears. He planned on telling his family his sexuality, and also, confessing his feelings to his longtime crush, the son of a Deacon, Keith who was every lady's dream in college. But what if Keith is just like everyone else? Would Matt's last wish come true before the end of his days on Earth? And what happens when all that glitters does seem to be gold?
View MoreAttention.
This book is a work of fiction, any resemblance to real-life incidents is purely a work of fiction. And no religion is intended to be disrespected! Enjoy as you read. "Amen!" My parents responded to the priest's prayer, and I shifted my gaze back at my two sisters, who were talking to some church members. I was standing alone on the terrace under the sun while my family was busy talking to some friends and a priest, and I? I don't have friends. I'm an introverted introvert who hates talking to people whether online or physically. I enjoy being on my own with my cat and laptop, watching movies, and playing games. You don't wanna know what movie I enjoy watching. "Call your sisters, it's time to go home." My mother instructed me to walk with my dad to our car. I huffed, walking to my sisters, who were laughing and talking to their friends as if they couldn't live without them. As I got closer, I avoided eye contact with my elder sister's friend, who was crushing on me. "We're going home," I whispered to Ruth's ear. "Hi, Matt," Naomi called and I smiled a little in response to her greeting. "Get your butt to the car. We're leaving." I said to my younger sister before walking away, and I could hear the ladies teasing Ruth's friend Naomi, who seemed to still blush at how I smiled at her. I walked to my dad's car, which was parked at the front of the church, and slid in, adjusting to the left side so Ruth and Leah could sit. "Where are your sisters?" My father asked. "They are coming," I replied looking out of the car window. My sister's arrived and entered the car, still talking as though if they didn't do that, they'd be dying. I find their conversations irritating because it's always about people, crushes, and clothes! Why can't they talk about animals, places, books and movies? "Is that what you were taught in the church today ladies?" My dad seemed to have heard how they giggled at the mention of the clothes they wished to buy. "We aren't talking about something bad Dad," Leah replied. "It's just clothes, and it's not as if it's bad clothes. We're planning on buying it for our upcoming church anniversary." Ruth chimed in. "I asked if that you were taught in church." My dad repeated, glancing at them from the rear-view mirror, still driving, and they shook their heads. "Henceforth, you won't be talking about material things, and start discussing about the Bible. How many times would I tell you that?" He nagged and I laughed inwardly. That would make it one decade of a time that I've heard my dad say that to my sisters, and they'd go back to saying Bible and religious kinds of stuff then the next day, they are back to talking about their usual discussions. "You should be grateful I haven't made one of you to be a nun." My dad added his usual phrase. "If Mum's parents had made her a nun, you wouldn't have married her," I muttered. "And that's why I haven't made them be one yet, but that shouldn't make them unholy." My dad preached. "You should be lucky. That's their flaw," I mumbled, closing my eyes and wondering how come my dad, who is a typical businessman, has always been this righteous. His rules are strict! Live by the Bible, don't break any commandments, and ' I trust you all don't know about LGBT, which always makes me feel guilty. We finally arrived at our house and I was the first to alight from the car. I walked to the gate and unlocked it, opening it wide enough for my dad to drive in. As soon as he drove in, I closed the gate and padlocked it because every Sabbath day, we aren't allowed to go outside but stay indoors, which I always enjoyed anyway, except for my sisters, especially Ruth, the blonde girl who doesn't take after the rest of us brown hair. She is always the one who breaks Dad's rule and would tiptoe to go have a date with her boyfriend, Theodore who I once had a crush on. I walked with my family inside our sitting room, shutting the door behind me. As we stepped in the middle of the room, we held our hands, forming a circle, and my dad led the thanksgiving prayer. When he finished praying, Ruth and Leah walked to the kitchen to fetch us some chilled water while I took off my suit which I always find uncomfortable. If I ever mentioned it to my dad, he would scold me and might even ask me to wear a suit to school throughout the weekday. The long trousers I was wearing were making me feel like it was my first time wearing the trousers, probably because my dad made our tailor alter and I couldn't wait to get it off my tiny legs. I walked with my suit in my hand and collected a glass of water from Leah which I gulped down to my heart's satisfaction before continuing my walk to my bedroom. I walked down the hallway before entering my bedroom, and Jennabeth, my Himalayan cat, ran to me. I smiled at her, squatting to her height and I ran my fingers on her furs. "How are you, Jenna?" I asked staring at her grey eyes while her tail wagged in response. I walked to a side of my bed, checking if she ate her food and drank enough water and I was pleased to see that she must have finished her food. I unbuttoned my shirt, put off the trousers that looked baggy on me,, and walked to the bathroom while Jenna licked some of the water in her bowl. I stripped off, turning on the shower which ran down my brown hair and white body. I was still showering when I started feeling pain in my chest. I groaned, clenching my fist on my chest as if it would suppress the chest ache, but the pain remained, my body was frozen with terror, and I could hear my heartbeat in my ears, my breath coming in a short, shallow gasp, and the pain was starting to overwhelm me. "Ah!" I shouted gritting my teeth as I began wondering if this was the end of me. I had always known my heart disease could be serious, but now it felt like the threat was imminent.6 Days Later... "Hey, Matthew," Keith called as he walked into the kitchen hugging his boyfriend from behind. "Good morning sweetheart," Matthew called softly with a smile on his lips. "How was your night? Had no idea when you woke up." Keith said, his hands placed around Matthew's waist. "You worked hard last night and even forgot to have dinner. I wanted to make you something special." Matthew replied, turning swiftly to face Keith who was beaming with smiles as though Matthew was the only one who could bring him joy. Definitely yes, Matthew was the only one who could bring him happiness, but what will happen to him now that his happiness is gone? Slowly, Keith opened his eyes, finding himself once again in the bedroom which used to be for him and Matthew. Birds were chirping and the gentle sound of trees waving from the distance was the only noise in the quiet neighborhood. He would love to fall asleep again. Rather, sleep and never wake up. Why does this dream alw
It was another day, but not just another day.A day of sadness? A day where I'm gonna realize I can cry like an infant. Yes, D-Day.During the rest of the ten days, I had to make sure to give Matthew the best life, I had made sure no hour passed without seeing him smile, and even though his legs were swollen and he could hardly walk on his own, I had always given him a piggyback whenever we're out of the house and I've never been tired of that.It was only when he told me three nights ago."Hey, Keith." I looked down at him, we were in a cuddle snuggled up on our bed."I've been keeping track of my days." He has told me and I had forced out a smile even though he always sees through me.I hadn't even realized the days were so short, has it even been a week since we eloped out of the hospital? I thought we still had twenty days left.I had hidden my fears, heartbroken self, and had hugged him tighter without saying a word.We didn't have any outdoor activity ever since then and most ti
It's been a long week.From visiting amusement parks to eating my favorite meals, hearing Keith sing lullabies every time we are to fall asleep, and with slow and romantic sex of course.It still feels like a dream that I'm achieving all this before dying, in short, I'd have said I'm still living in a dream in which I prayed hard for it not to be a dream cause when I wake, I'd cry that all the good times I had with Keith had been a lie but staring at the calendar right now, I sincerely wish I was in a dream.Ten days. I bit my bottom lips, ten days and I'd be a dead soul.Keith had no idea I still keep track of my days, he once said we shouldn't talk about it and none of us should check what date or day it is but I couldn't help it.Now I was beginning to pity him, pity myself, and--- "Oh," I groaned at the sharp pain I felt in my leg.I glanced down at my leg which was yet to appear swollen but when I had showered last night I noticed how much it had swelled and I had even worn trous
"It's been more than fifteen minutes that we've been up," Matthew whispered, I could feel his breath on my bare chest. My hands were hovered around him pulling him closer to me while my chin rested on his head which was leaning on my chest."Five minutes, I promise we'll be up," I say again, the words I've been saying ever since we woke up after the pleasurable sex we had last night - I mean shouldn't I call it like a honeymoon?It was damn good! His mouth around my shaft and how he had relentlessly made me cum down his throat was something I had to reward him for with a good fuck.I can't believe I was good at fucking a guy myself, I had given him his first cum and I was sure he was a virgin, well he has also jokes about thanking me for not going to make him die as a virgin.We had had sex for a couple of hours and had settled on the bed, both of us snuggled up to each other until this morning, and I'm not even ready to let go of him yet.I want to feel myself inside him again but ju
We remained seated in the car, both of us not saying a word but I could feel Keith's eyes on me.We haven't even said many words to each other ever since we left the cinema. I know I ruined it with my sudden burst of tears and Keith had sympathized with me which is always appreciated.I can't imagine going through my end days without anyone with me, but Keith is with me which made me stop crying and I was reminded that there are still twenty beautiful days ahead of us. Even if the days will quickly come and go, I promise not to waste a single minute crying again."I'm sorry for that." I was the first to talk glancing at Keith's whose gaze was on me. I knew he was staring but not with that look that always makes me feel more and more special."What's there to be sorry about," Keith whispered. "I should be the one to say sorry for everything.""Sorry?" I smirked. "For what?""For not loving you sooner," Keith answered.Oh, yes he's guilty of that. I gave him the look and he scoffed look
"See who took all the whole time to get dressed, "I say when Matthew walks toward me in the sitting room.He was putting on the same outfit as me. Blue sweater with white shirt and white canvas.Matthew's hair was brushed to a side cut and he had to smile shyly when he caught me still checking him out."I wanna kiss that tiny body under that sweater." I teased pulling him closer to me."You smell like me," I whispered, sniffing my nose into him, and Matthew giggled."I think if you continue flirting, we're gonna miss the movie." He snapped and I brought my head to look him in the eye.Gosh! He's beautiful. I lowered my head, placing a deep kiss on his lips, which he reciprocated, before pulling away."Your Excellency," I said, formally opening the door. Matthew smirked as he walked out of the door, and I followed behind after locking the door.We climbed down the stairs of the cottage and I took it upon myself to open the car door as well for him. "Am I ever going to get used to this?
Welcome to GoodNovel world of fiction. If you like this novel, or you are an idealist hoping to explore a perfect world, and also want to become an original novel author online to increase income, you can join our family to read or create various types of books, such as romance novel, epic reading, werewolf novel, fantasy novel, history novel and so on. If you are a reader, high quality novels can be selected here. If you are an author, you can obtain more inspiration from others to create more brilliant works, what's more, your works on our platform will catch more attention and win more admiration from readers.
Comments