What do you fear the most? Matthew's only fear is coming out as gay to his family, who are devoutly religious and consider homosexuality a sin. But when he heard from his doctor that he had less than three months left to live. Matthew decided that living his truth was more important than his fears. He planned on telling his family his sexuality, and also, confessing his feelings to his longtime crush, the son of a Deacon, Keith who was every lady's dream in college. But what if Keith is just like everyone else? Would Matt's last wish come true before the end of his days on Earth? And what happens when all that glitters does seem to be gold?
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This book is a work of fiction, any resemblance to real-life incidents is purely a work of fiction. And no religion is intended to be disrespected! Enjoy as you read. "Amen!" My parents responded to the priest's prayer, and I shifted my gaze back at my two sisters, who were talking to some church members. I was standing alone on the terrace under the sun while my family was busy talking to some friends and a priest, and I? I don't have friends. I'm an introverted introvert who hates talking to people whether online or physically. I enjoy being on my own with my cat and laptop, watching movies, and playing games. You don't wanna know what movie I enjoy watching. "Call your sisters, it's time to go home." My mother instructed me to walk with my dad to our car. I huffed, walking to my sisters, who were laughing and talking to their friends as if they couldn't live without them. As I got closer, I avoided eye contact with my elder sister's friend, who was crushing on me. "We're going home," I whispered to Ruth's ear. "Hi, Matt," Naomi called and I smiled a little in response to her greeting. "Get your butt to the car. We're leaving." I said to my younger sister before walking away, and I could hear the ladies teasing Ruth's friend Naomi, who seemed to still blush at how I smiled at her. I walked to my dad's car, which was parked at the front of the church, and slid in, adjusting to the left side so Ruth and Leah could sit. "Where are your sisters?" My father asked. "They are coming," I replied looking out of the car window. My sister's arrived and entered the car, still talking as though if they didn't do that, they'd be dying. I find their conversations irritating because it's always about people, crushes, and clothes! Why can't they talk about animals, places, books and movies? "Is that what you were taught in the church today ladies?" My dad seemed to have heard how they giggled at the mention of the clothes they wished to buy. "We aren't talking about something bad Dad," Leah replied. "It's just clothes, and it's not as if it's bad clothes. We're planning on buying it for our upcoming church anniversary." Ruth chimed in. "I asked if that you were taught in church." My dad repeated, glancing at them from the rear-view mirror, still driving, and they shook their heads. "Henceforth, you won't be talking about material things, and start discussing about the Bible. How many times would I tell you that?" He nagged and I laughed inwardly. That would make it one decade of a time that I've heard my dad say that to my sisters, and they'd go back to saying Bible and religious kinds of stuff then the next day, they are back to talking about their usual discussions. "You should be grateful I haven't made one of you to be a nun." My dad added his usual phrase. "If Mum's parents had made her a nun, you wouldn't have married her," I muttered. "And that's why I haven't made them be one yet, but that shouldn't make them unholy." My dad preached. "You should be lucky. That's their flaw," I mumbled, closing my eyes and wondering how come my dad, who is a typical businessman, has always been this righteous. His rules are strict! Live by the Bible, don't break any commandments, and ' I trust you all don't know about LGBT, which always makes me feel guilty. We finally arrived at our house and I was the first to alight from the car. I walked to the gate and unlocked it, opening it wide enough for my dad to drive in. As soon as he drove in, I closed the gate and padlocked it because every Sabbath day, we aren't allowed to go outside but stay indoors, which I always enjoyed anyway, except for my sisters, especially Ruth, the blonde girl who doesn't take after the rest of us brown hair. She is always the one who breaks Dad's rule and would tiptoe to go have a date with her boyfriend, Theodore who I once had a crush on. I walked with my family inside our sitting room, shutting the door behind me. As we stepped in the middle of the room, we held our hands, forming a circle, and my dad led the thanksgiving prayer. When he finished praying, Ruth and Leah walked to the kitchen to fetch us some chilled water while I took off my suit which I always find uncomfortable. If I ever mentioned it to my dad, he would scold me and might even ask me to wear a suit to school throughout the weekday. The long trousers I was wearing were making me feel like it was my first time wearing the trousers, probably because my dad made our tailor alter and I couldn't wait to get it off my tiny legs. I walked with my suit in my hand and collected a glass of water from Leah which I gulped down to my heart's satisfaction before continuing my walk to my bedroom. I walked down the hallway before entering my bedroom, and Jennabeth, my Himalayan cat, ran to me. I smiled at her, squatting to her height and I ran my fingers on her furs. "How are you, Jenna?" I asked staring at her grey eyes while her tail wagged in response. I walked to a side of my bed, checking if she ate her food and drank enough water and I was pleased to see that she must have finished her food. I unbuttoned my shirt, put off the trousers that looked baggy on me,, and walked to the bathroom while Jenna licked some of the water in her bowl. I stripped off, turning on the shower which ran down my brown hair and white body. I was still showering when I started feeling pain in my chest. I groaned, clenching my fist on my chest as if it would suppress the chest ache, but the pain remained, my body was frozen with terror, and I could hear my heartbeat in my ears, my breath coming in a short, shallow gasp, and the pain was starting to overwhelm me. "Ah!" I shouted gritting my teeth as I began wondering if this was the end of me. I had always known my heart disease could be serious, but now it felt like the threat was imminent."Tell them I'd pluck a tooth if that got to my ears." I heard Keith say and I bit my lower lip, embarrassed at the way my body was reacting to what I heard.Is this what love feels like? It's so energetic than the feeling of when I was crushing on him.I feel so special, so energized.I blinked my eyes repeatedly still hearing Keith and Billy's conversation.Keith needs to practice the word. 'Kindness.'Why does he seem to be giving attitude to Billy? Even though he wasn't directly showing it.I could tell with his voice and each reply he gave Billy. Right now, I think I need to wake up and acknowledge Billy else Keith might just continue to be ruder to his friend.Even though Billy had caused me to cry, that didn't change him being a good person..if I can remember, Keith was the one who always made me aware that I needed to cry.I feigned a yawn, tossing to the other side of the bed where Keith had laid and I pretended to be looking for him with my hand."You're awake?" Billy was the
"Join me here," Matthew suggested patting the side of the bed he was lying on and I smirked pinching his cheeks."You don't want your parents seeing us in that position. They will freak out." I say and he feigns a frown."I don't think they would even come visit. So you don't need to worry." He said. "Besides you must be tired, heard you had stayed by my side throughout last night." Matthew chipped in, his eyes dancing from its socket as if he was being shy by the thought that I had been with him all through the night."Hmm, if you insist," I gave in. I rose on my feet and I walked over to the other side of the bed, I dropped the plate that we had both eaten from on the desk before joining him on the bed.Okay, this is weird but no matter how weird it is, it seemed right.I've longed to protect him like this, be with him, and spend more than the days George had claimed he had left.No nurses might come in for the next three to four hours since he has already taken his drugs and I am h
Slowly and steadily, I opened my eyes and the brightness of the sun was what made me shut them back.Ah, my chest... I groaned silently as I opened my eyes again."Matthew..." Ruth called standing beside me."Ah..." I groaned again."Are you okay?" She asks with a worried look and I slowly nod blinking before remembering how I had ended up in this state.The words from my mother and father still rang heavily in my brain, I'm sure I can't get what they said to me out of my head yet.I should understand them, I had told myself when my mum slapped me thinking I'd change my word but I had repeated I was gay, and there was nothing they could do about it.And Keith? He had visited our home.Did he see me crying? Did he know when I fainted?I glanced at Leah who returned with George in his doctor's coat."How are you, Matt," George asked as he got closer to me."I'm awake at least," I replied with a small smile.He checked on me with his stethoscope and then checked if I was having a fever.
The next morning...I was still in Matthew's ward, staring at him.After rushing him down to the hospital where he was admitted, I couldn't even feel myself anymore.Each event that was happening to him seemed to be a second-season scenario of what had happened with my mother...I had maintained my composure as he was pushed on the cot to the ward and we had been asked to remain outside."God please, this is not happening." Mrs. Harry had wailed while Ruth was still the one coaxing her.I had stood at the front of Matthew's ward, clenching my fist on my jeans, I know Mathew has heart disease, he has told me. But what if this disease is more than what I thought?I still remember Ruth mentioning death and just the thought of it with Matthew had my heart pounding fast...Christ! Nothing should happen to my Mathew.A tear slid out of my eyes without Matthew's family knowing, and I quickly wiped my face when the familiar doctor, whom I guessed to be George since I'd seen him once or twice
"Again, y'all tried, I hope we get one more score from them in the second half." The coach said, then he walked away from the dressing room.I downed the rest of the water in the bottle as I breathed out a sigh taking my phone to text Matthew but instead, a call came in.As I glanced at it, it was an unknown number. With hesitation, I rejected the call scrolling over to the text message to chat with Matthew who must have left me a message since I hadn't checked my phone since when we arrived, and the second half was starting in a few minutes.The call came in again and I sighed, it must be one of those girls who usually get my number from my friends.I guess it's high time I told them not to give any female my number again since I've found a partner.As I swiped the answer Icon, I said. "Whatever it is, I'm not interested, click on the red button before I do." As I brought the phone to hang up the voice stopped me."Wait. This is Ruth, Matthew's sister." I recognized her at once."Hey
It was yet another day.I was seated in the front rows of the church as usual while the reverend preached.My dad was busy with other church activities with some other Deacon, and my mother and sisters were seated beside me.Keith didn't come to church today, he had told me about the school match which was later postponed to today. Even though his dad wanted him to attend church and skip the match, his coach had done well in convincing Mr. Schuler.Once I get home, I should give him a call, because right now... I swear with the cross of Jesus Christ at my front that I'm already missing him.And he had even kissed me in his car after we had gotten interrupted by the little kid.Gosh! I'm feeling hot already."Are you okay?" Leah muttered beside me and I turned to look at her with a slight nod before looking back at the reverend who would soon round off his preaching.Calling Keith should even be the last thing I should be worrying about... I'm telling my family that I'm gay, and I have
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