I tightened my hand into a fist, trying to mask the envy that was written all over my expression.I can't believe I just confessed I don't like seeing him with Billy. It was the truth but no! Fuck, I better get my head in order."I... How about we, I mean, you follow me home so we can plan about the project." I say almost wondering why his look suddenly changed to a bit of sadness. He had looked comfortable with me a few minutes ago."No..." Matthew pronounced but then he seemed to have a rethink, this time his sad look already disappeared from his face. I bet we are both good at hiding our own emotions. "No problem." He stood up about leaving but I stopped him holding his wrist again.It feels as if my body is the one moving on its own. Matthew raised a questioning look at me and I quickly let go of his hand. "Will... Do you mind having lunch with me?" I asked out of nowhere.I think he's the type of person my mom used to describe when we were kids - the kind of friend you feel so co
This wasn't how I had planned my day but as expected, an event for each day has been recorded down even before it happens.I felt the warm grab on my arm and just like a fool I was following him out of the classroom but I stopped when Billy pulled me by the arm."Let's go---" Keith stopped his words and I saw his death glares at Billy. "Get your hands off him," Keith commanded, I'd never heard him talk so coldly with no trace of emotions, his plain straight face seemed to speak more goodness of his beauty, and his grey eyes that were busy glaring at Billy didn't allow me to stop staring at him, but I was snapped back to life when I heard Billy talk."You should be concerned about yourself Keith," Billy says and I begin nibbling on my lips, my head bowed, the attention right now suits them but not me who's in the center of them both. "You are acting sus, might think there isn't a difference between you and me." He added in and I did understand what he was saying.I felt Keith's grasp o
It was another bright day in school, and I had planned on confronting Matthew for ignoring me.I had sent him a text message yesterday, and even though he must have seen it, still he had decided to ignore him and I hadn't even wondered why anyone would. I mean, everyone had always been happy whenever I texted them. It wouldn't be over a minute before I got a reply back, but Matt was such a different person.My first text message to him must have stained my ego because I had had sleepless nights questioning myself if he was just busy or was purposely ignoring me.I had stayed up for more than an hour but his replies weren't even coming.He was online, I saw that!I walked into the class, of course, I came late as the exam was about to start.I glanced at Matthew as I went to have my seat but in all glorious name, he was ignoring me just like he did yesterday. I am not the one who is crushing on him so why would he feel mad at me? He should be mad at whom he thought was a best friend, b
I remained seated on my bed, my back resting on the headboard as I stared at the laptop on my lap. I was in the Google section and I had no idea what to type although I did know what to type I just don't know if I should or if I'm just been weird.With a gentle plaintive meow, Jennabeth caught my attention. I glanced at her and our eyes met. She must have been staring at me ever since I entered Google, wondering what was wrong with me. I had been sitting and staring at the blank search section for over ten minutes."I'm not being weird am I?" I say slightly patting her head, her facial expression did say I was being weird but I didn't want to admit that as a yes. "It was hectic today," I started, I might just tell her how my day went and what was troubling me. She was the only one who knew I was gay anyway and it had been quite an eventful day when I told her. Surprisingly, she had come close to me and I had realized she wanted me to hug her, it had soothed my depressed self back then
"Where have you been Mathew? You had everyone worried." The teacher scolded."I'm sorry." I bowed a bit after apologizing. Thankfully, the whole class was busy with the exam, so I wasn't getting much attention; as I raised my head, my eyes caught Billy, who I would have guessed was also worried about wherever I had been.Whatever had happened in the restroom with us wasn't of much concern at the moment as I slowly walked back to my seat, Billy must be feeling guilty for having feelings for me if only he knew it was a good thing for me, at least I would get to date someone as cute as he was before dying but what I had discussed with Keith's elder brother was what had been on my mind when I stepped into the classroom.I went to have my seat having an idea Billy must have done the same. I took my pen and started jotting down whatever answers that came to mind.."Who's that?" I had asked whoever had been in the toilet since he must have heard what we had talked about in the restroom.I w
I exhaled sharply as I walked into the classroom, only to find Billy absent. Honestly, I was already wrestling with a sense of guilt.What drove me to spark that argument? What made me react so intensely to the hug? It seems like something only someone consumed by jealousy would do.I took my seat and pulled out my phone, hoping that browsing the web might distract me from these remorseful feelings.Darren and Mark entered the classroom and as soon as I noticed them, they walked towards me. "Hey man, what's up? Why did you go with Billy? You didn't even finish your food," Mark said while sitting on the chair facing me. Meanwhile, Darren stood next to the table and focused his attention on me. "I lost my appetite," I responded. "Also, you shouldn't interfere with me and Winifred next time," I added, referring to the milk incident he had caused in class. The milk was meant for Matthew, but it was such a stupid idea after all. Thank goodness I didn't give it to him, or I would have been