LOGINAlexander’s calmness fills the elevator like gravity.
I stare at my reflection against the panel—blonde hair secured in a neat bun, my teal silk skater dress falling perfectly—a 360-degree improvement from the last time I was here.
He slowly holds my hand and locks our fingers with gentle possessiveness. Then he meets my gaze in the panel, looking at me like I’m already his. It feels undebatable.
My breath flutters.
The first and last time I was here was by chance. This time, it’s by choice. Whatever happens to me is all on me.
Ding.
The 69th floor.
And the elevator doors open.
I clench my free fist as I follow beside him.
The drive here was quiet. Nothing surprising; his silence does all the speaking.
We’re waiting until marriage. He told me that himself, yet it feels like I’m walking into dangerous storms I don’t understand.
“Eleven, eleven, two…” he mutters as his fingerprint gets scanned.
I look at him.
“That’s my passcode.”
His passcode?
“It’s the same for the private elevator.”
I give him a nod, committing it to memory.
The door clicks open.
A quiet tremor rolls through my chest as we move inside.
I know to stop at the console table.
He drops his phone on it and crouches, taking out a small pair of pink fur slides. “These are yours.”
“M-mine?” The word stutters out of me.
He holds my leg, and I almost choke.
“Your shoes,”
Slowly, I raise a leg, watching him unwrap the chandelier from my shin.
“Are you nervous?”
I press my lips together instead of answering.
“Don’t worry, I’m not going to eat you… At least, not tonight.”
My pulse slams hard, sending an ache through me. I grip the console, releasing a deep breath. When he asks, I give him my other leg so he can unwrap my shoe.
Once my feet are inside the soft slides, he rises. They’re my perfect size.
He holds my gaze now, stepping out of his dazzling black shoes into his slippers.
Just then, his phone buzzes.
My eyes flick to it on instinct.
Dimitri: {You left? Lucio said he saw you leaving with Sophia. Why?}
Alexander sighs softly, takes his phone, and types back without hesitation: {Relax. I’m just dropping her off at home. I’ll see the guys later.}
Immediately, he pockets his phone and meets my eyes again, leading me inside as if the world outside this penthouse is irrelevant. But my mind is still processing what he said about ‘eating’ me.
“Give me a minute, Soph. I’ll be right back.”
I respond with a nod.
He turns around, heading for his bedroom. I still remember because it’s the only room on that wing.
My mind races as I watch him move with effortless elegance.
When he’s out of sight, I consider taking my phone out, but the thought of seeing messages from my mom or even Dimitri worries me more than what might happen to me tonight.
I focus on my slippers instead, wishing I could take pictures of them. It’s a first-time experience for me. A nice one.
And soon, he returns. Changed into a gray ribbed long-sleeve top that sticks to every contour of his body; two of three buttons are undone. He gets closer, and my mouth opens, my eyes fixed on his chest instantly. The piercings.
It’s not a faint outline this time. The barbells are right there, with dangles—sharp. Obvious. I picture him without the shirt, and my brain empties for a moment. I shouldn’t be staring, but… I can’t stop.
“Come,” he reaches for my hand and locks our fingers. “Let me show you around.”
I follow his lead quietly, struggling to ignore all that I’m feeling and the image etched in my head at the moment.
“The living room,” he says, gesturing. “You’ve seen most of it already.”
We move into a sprawling kitchen, sleek and modern, but he doesn’t linger.
“This hallway leads to the dining room, pantry, and the back entrance,” he explains simply.
Then his fingers brush the small of my back to guide me forward. Heat sizzles through me.
“Let’s go to the seventieth floor.”
Upstairs, he pushes a door open.
“This is the library.”
Awed into silence, I stare at a vast space of books, floor-to-ceiling shelves, warm lighting. So calming.
“You love books,” he says softly, staring at me as if he knows me.
We continue.
“This is the media room. For movie nights… still setting it up, though. Maybe we can finish it together.”
We?
Another door: “The gym.”
We return downstairs.
“My home office is down that hallway. Just books and a desk,” he says, seeming to wrap up the house tour.
Back in the living room, he pulls me a little closer.
“You’ve seen two of the bedrooms, including mine… What do you think?” He questions, standing tall before me.
My eyes glide over his chest before settling on his face.
“Good enough for you?”
“W-what?”
“This is where we’ll live once we’re married.”
I freeze. Again, indisputable. I just stare into dark eyes, remaining quiet.
He comes closer and brushes hair away from my face.
My eyes shut in realization of how much effect he has on me. Being with him renders me speechless, thoughtless, wanting.
“Would you wait on the sofa for me?” His voice dips as his touch lingers on my face.
“Okay,” I answer.
He lets me go slowly and turns, headed for the kitchen.
Now alone, I walk to the large sofa, fingers curling on my purse as I sit. My chest won’t stop growing tight as I wonder what comes next.
In a few minutes, he’s back, a large bowl in one hand and a bottle of wine with two glasses in the other.
I instantly smell popcorn.
He drops the bowl on the sofa before sitting at the other end. My eyes fall to it. The sweet smell wafts into my nostrils, making my throat dry.
Seated in the middle, I watch him place the wine and glasses on the coffee table. After uncorking, he fills both glasses.
“Yours,” he says, giving me one.
I hold the stem, feeling my stomach flip as our fingers brush. He lifts his glass to mine, and we clink them.
Seconds pass as we stare at each other until he takes a sip of his wine.
I take more than a sip, hoping my nerves would calm.
Then he drops his glass and meets my gaze. There’s a soft smile on his face that naturally sends warmth to mine.
“Come sit on my lap, Sophia.” He utters, his voice low and relaxed.
I stop breathing.
He stares, waiting like it’s the most normal thing.
My brain scratches. But slowly, I rise, remembering I was on his lap when we kissed. My purse slips off my shoulder onto the seat.
Wine in hand, I obey, going over to him.
His dark eyes don’t stray once, glued to me, lifting when I get to him.
Standing before his knees, I lower myself onto his lap. Too carefully.
And the worst happens.
His thighs part because I sit with half-butt. I nearly slip, but his hand closes around my waist to steady me.
“Easy,” he murmurs, holding firmly, taking my wine glass from me. “I’ve got you.”
The warmth of his hand, the solidness of his chest against my back—it short-circuits every thought in my head.
He drops my glass first on the table, then adjusts me until I’m settled properly on his thighs, my legs draped and dangling beside his. When I stare at him, embarrassment washes over me, prickling my skin.
“First attempts can be messy…” he says, slipping his right arm around my lower back. “Comfortable?”
I swallow hard and give him a nod.
“Popcorn?” He offers, raising the bowl.
I slowly dip my hand inside, scooping some. He does the same, before dropping the bowl. We chew in silence, our eyes completely locked.
“Tell me something you enjoy,” he says, voice quiet but genuine.
I glance at the popcorn briefly, until my gaze accidentally drifts to his chest.
“Football,” I answer.
His shirt clings too well. Metal pressed against large pecs, leaving little to my imagination. My brain fogs from staring. I curl my toes in my slides.
“American football, or…?”
I lift my eyes quickly, seeing the ghost of a smirk on his lips.
“European,” I mumble, fighting the urge to look again. “Europeans never say s–soccer. I got to enjoy it in London…”
“So, you call it football… wasn’t expecting that…” He says, putting popcorn in his mouth. “What’s your team?”
“On most days, it’s Chelsea. Manchester United on other days…” My eyes track back to his piercings.
“Sophia,” he murmurs.
I look at him. My lips fold. My breath trembles softly.
“If you keep looking at my chest like that,” he says, voice lowering dangerously. “I’m going to think you want to touch them.”
My entire body lights on fire. “I–I wasn’t—”
His gaze darkens, stealing my voice and breath, daring me to deny it. I’m unable to. Without warning, his strong arms firm around me, slowly pulling me close.
My breath hitches.
He stretches a hand, reaching down to the lower shelf of the coffee table, and pulls a small mahogany humidor. He opens it, and my eyes fall to an array of premium, chocolate-colored cigars. He picks one and meets my gaze.
“You want to feel them, don’t you?” His palm slides a little higher on my waist. It sends goosebumps all over me. He leans closer to my ear and says so quietly, “They’re sensitive. But I’ll let you touch them… only if you let me touch you, too.”
I can’t breathe. I can’t move. I just stare at him, my head floating in realization that I’m not stopping this.
“I’ll take that as a yes,” he utters firmly.
Alexander’s POVThe car stops, rousing me from the unmoving position I’ve been in throughout the ride—head leaning against the headrest, hands gripping the armrests. Still, I don’t move. My mind just recycles my horrible session with Psycho several hours ago, which only left me in a much more miserable state than I was before I entered her office. What a way to realize I’m past redemption.I slowly open my eyes; they ache from hours of screen time and tears, and land on Sophia’s two cars across from mine, the distance painting a terrifying picture of the chasm threatening to form between us. Just last weekend, we were kissing on my bike and making plans to have sex on it.Garvey hasn’t moved in his seat, either. He witnessed my episode after I left my psychotherapist’s and was there to help me back to normalcy before driving all the way back to the company, where I spent the rest of my day, locked up in my office, having given my secretary strict orders to let no one in, no matter who
Penelope’s POV (Psycho)Folded in the passenger seat with my eyes closed, my hands trembling, my heart drums in my ears as memories bleed into my mind—memories of Wade and me, him locking the doors, hiding the keys, and trapping me in a corner to…I sigh deeply, take off my gloves, and shove my fingers into my hair.“Pen, what’s wrong?” Scott asks, worry coating his voice as he drives me to wherever. I don’t know where. But as long as I’m with him, I know I’m safe. I feel his hand on my shoulder, gently squeezing. It’s somewhat calming. “Was someone at your apartment?”I meet his gaze. “I don’t want to talk right now. Please.”He nods, then fixes his eyes back on the road. ****I’m much calmer now, sitting alone on a gray sofa in Scott’s living room, my clammy hands fisted in my lap, my head processing the events of today, wondering how in the world everything led me here—to his home. I would turn down any invite to a guy’s place, including Scott’s, but I must admit that I’ve alway
Penelope’s POV (Psycho)I sigh and keep going.Bright lights suddenly illuminate my path. I pause, turn over my shoulder, and squint at the blinding headlights as a car approaches. It takes two blinks and more squinting to know who it is.Scott.Sighing, I back up on the walkway. He pulls up beside me and lowers his window. I half expect him to have company, but the passenger seat is empty. “Pen?” He calls my name—rare but not unusual when we’re outside hospital walls—looking ravishing yet exhausted. “Why are you walking? Where’s your car?”“The hospital,” I answer and press my lips together quickly, so my teeth don’t start clattering. “I wanted to walk.”“You’re going to turn to ice before you get home,” he says humorlessly. “Get in. I’ll drop you off.”“I’m fine. I want to walk.” I turn and keep moving.His loud horn startles me. I freeze, shut my eyes, and sigh, then turn around slowly. He dims the light and opens his door.Oh, God.I twist my mouth, clenching my fists in the hop
Penelope’s POV (Psycho)“Atone?” I utter, stacking my hands beneath my chin, my elbows pinned to my desk. “Do you mean… repent?”He nods, pinching the bridge of his nose, shutting his eyes, and lowering his head. He curses all of a sudden, uncrosses his legs, and bends over, dropping his face into his palms.My pulse quickens, my brows shooting up. I drop my hands and call, “Mr. Thorne?”His eyes are red and misty when he turns them to me again, his hands now on his head as he sits straight. I open my mouth to speak, but my head is blank for a moment.What’s going on?“Why would you want to repent when—” “You don’t understand.” He groans, cutting me off. His face is back in his palm. He’s starting to shake.My own hands are also trembling. I should be used to this, but there’s no getting used to seeing him go from fine to not okay in seconds. Weren’t we talking about his wife? Wasn’t he smiling just now?I take a deep breath, drop my pen, and clench my fists, then ask, “Can you hel
Penelope’s POV (Psycho)‘32-year-old Alexander wishes he could prevent 18-year-old Alexander from experiencing something that meeting (10-year-old) Sophia at that time would have prevented.’I glance at these words I wrote on my notepad the last time we spoke over the phone, then fix my eyes on him again, still waiting for an answer. His eyes are shut, his legs are crossed, one arm is folded against him, and his other hand is fisted between his eyes, the elbow resting on the folded arm. Aside from his short greeting and him surprisingly asking about Bobby when he arrived, he hasn’t said a word since he got in twenty-five minutes ago. I’m terribly used to this, but I thought we were past the silence phase. Okay, maybe I’m not giving him enough grace because I’m having to skip work hours to be here. I can literally still see the sun if I raise the curtains.Now that he’s married, I’m assuming it’ll be hard to meet at random odd hours as we’ve always done.He does look much more relaxe
Alexander’s POVOur appointment with the doctor is for seven. But it’s 04:30 a.m. when I stand at Sophia’s door, beating myself up for not coming sooner. I could barely get any sleep without her by my side. So why did I even stay away? Guilt.Yes, that’s it. Guilt is why I stayed away instead of trying to cheer her up or taking her hand again when she said she wanted to be alone. I promised to be there for her; I assured her she could rely on me, yet I can’t shake the feeling that I’m not giving her my 100%. The worst part is, I think she feels like that, too. It’s all because of our different stances on having kids. We may have reached a consensus, but it doesn’t feel like it’s enough.I lean closer to her door, listening for any movement. I hear nothing. Then I lift my fist, about to knock. An overwhelmed sigh escapes me. I lower my hand and take the doorknob, turning it slowly. Relief floods me when I realize it’s not locked. I quietly push the door open and poke my head in, my e
Alexander Thorne’s POVPhone in hand, I tap a slow rhythm against the steering wheel, my gaze fixed on the pristine lineup of cars in my private garage. My mind is elsewhere.Dimitri left thirty-five minutes ago. I sent Garvey home, too, yet I’ve been seated inside the darkness of this car, waiting.
Sophia’s POVHe breaks our kiss, hands going still on my thighs. I lock gaze with him, seeing how dark and dilated his pupils have turned. He’s panting just as I am, looking unusually unsettled. His face is frozen—an expression of shock I don’t miss. My body trembles, but I shake my head weakly, l
Sophia’s POV“It’s a guest bedroom,” he says, rolling the strap of my purse around his knuckles. I stare at my purse, mouth dry and open. I don’t know if it’s shock from learning that I’m spending the night in his bedroom or from having my purse snatched from me. My phone, my money, my passport—all
Sophia’s POV“Your daughter’s run away?” Alexander utters as if it’s news to him. He takes the phone off his ear, taps the screen, and switches to loudspeaker.“Sophia’s never acted out like this,” my dad’s frantic voice echoes. “She’s just… she’s a little sensitive…” My heart shatters.“The news m







