Sebastian
If I found it difficult to work yesterday, today, it is impossible. I may as well not even try. I’ve been sitting behind my desk in my office for hours, trying to concentrate, but all I can think about is Aria.
Her face this morning when she saw me walk out of the bathroom wearing only a towel is burned in my mind. Of course, she was shocked, but that’s not the only thing I saw behind those eyes.
I saw the same emotions I have been feeling inside since I first met her. Longing. Lust. But even more than that… attraction. It isn’t just that I want to ravish her. Of course I do want to take her. I have no doubt the two of us would be magical in bed. Beyond that, I am drawn to her for who she is. Not a former Alpha’s daughter, but an intriguing, intelligent
AriaSebastian is acting weird. I’m not sure what’s gotten into him, but when he came into his room to do his work, I could sense something was going on. Every time I turned to look at him, he’d look away, like he didn’t want me to know he was watching me. I could feel his eyes on me, though, so I knew he had been watching me clean. I couldn’t blame him for watching. What else was he supposed to look at while he was on the phone? I was moving around… naturally a person’s eyes would be drawn to that movement.He left, and when he did, I was kind of glad. Not that I don’t enjoy his company. I do… but not when he’s acting all weird and stressed out. He didn’t say anything, only slipped out while I was straightening up his bed. I’ll admit… I was fantasizing about
SebastianI have a problem. A huge problem. A problem I don’t know how to solve.I am infatuated with Aria, and I don’t know what to do about this. After all, she is a servant, and I am her supervisor, or boss, or whatever you want to call it. So I know it’s not appropriate for me to be thinking about her in a sexual fashion.And yet… I can’t get her out of my mind.I have tried to take care of it myself, but when you’re as turned on I am, it’s difficult to get it out of your system without a little help.I shouldn’t admit to this because I sound like a major jerk, but there’s a girl who lives in town that I’ve had
SebastianI am awake before my alarm goes off in the morning. My eyes fly open with an intensity they haven’t in years, not since I was a little kid on my birthday, and I realize why about half a second later.McKayla is still here, in my bed, draped across my chest. I need her to go home before Aria sees her. Why? I’m not sure. I doubt that the maid will even care that I have another girl in my bed. But I still feel compelled to make her go home before Aria comes in to clean.I glance at the clock. It’s just a little past 7:00. I don’t usually get up this early. I don’t usually get up until at least 8:00. But I am wide awake now. I decide to go ahead and take a shower and get ready for work. The floral scent of McKayla’s perfume, or whatever it is that make
SebastianI can’t concentrate again, and it really sucks. I speak on the phone with a few people, but everything they say goes in one ear and out the other. I stare at emails. I open files and close them. I get absolutely nothing done. By 4:00, I am done pretending to work and decide to head upstairs.I want to see Aria. I want to watch her clean. I want to smell that fragrant scent of vanilla and hear her sing another song in that beautiful voice I heard the other day when I snuck up on her. I want to hear her say my name. I want to hold her in my arms. I might not be able to do that last part, but the rest might be enough to at least get her off of my mind for a little while.I know that’s not the case, that I simply can’t get her off of my mind, but if I don’t see he
AriaI get a letter from my parents that afternoon. It is the only thing that keeps me from freaking out. I am upset about the situation with Sebastian. When I tell Mim about it, she says not to worry, that of course he has a booty call girl, that all of the guys his age have that, but she’s not his fated mate, so it doesn’t matter.I say, “Neither am I,” and Mim pulls me to her shoulder to cry for a few minutes. I get myself back together, and we finish cleaning, and then, after dinner, we return to our room, and I see the letter on my bed.I squeal as I rip it open. It’s only the fourth letter I’ve gotten from my parents, and it’s been a few weeks since I got one, so I am so excited to get it.Mim smiles
SebastianI run until my lungs are burning, and then I hop the fence and run some more. I left Dez far behind, not because I don’t want his company, although maybe I don’t at the moment, but because he can’t keep up with me when I’m running like this. No one can. I’m not running toward anything or even away from anything--except for myself.By the time the sun is about ready to come up, I know I need to return to the house. I will have a long day today having gotten no rest, but I do have work to do, so there’s no sense in trying to get out of it. Instead, I return to my room and take a shower, lying down on my bed afterward for about an hour before I’ll have to get up and get dressed.I have a towel around my waist, and it reminds me of when Aria walk
AriaI don’t know what to do. I don’t know what just happened. I was almost done cleaning Sebastian’s room when he came in. It doesn’t take nearly as long as it did when I’d first started cleaning it, and now, I can do the whole thing in less than three hours. But since he was sitting there, I decided to re-clean some of the places I’d already cleaned.The next thing I know, he’s coming out the bathroom door, and we collide. His arms are around me, he’s holding me close, and then… we kiss. More than once, actually. I don't know what to do. I don’t know what to think….I can’t tell Mim about this. In my gut, I get the feeling that I shouldn’t tell her. I’m not sure why. It seems silly. She’s my best friend, after
AriaAt least I don’t walk in on a makeout fest this time when I go to join Mim downstairs where she’s cleaning an office. Dez is there, and the two of them are chatting, flirting, but their faces aren’t attached to one another, which is good because I’m not sure I can handle that at the moment, not after kissing Sebastian earlier.I start cleaning after a quick greeting, and Mim is sort of dusting as she flirts with Dez. He keeps saying he can’t stay long, that he knows something is going on based on the amount of people that Victor has in his office, and he’ll have to go check in with Sebastian soon. I don’t say anything, just clean, and try not to think about what had happened earlier.“Are you all right, Aria?” Mim asks me after about t