9

"Where I am?" I asked myself as I looked around.

"You shameless woman! The strength of your loon to fool me!" That voice! Dad! I immediately felt the trembling of my body. The trembling of my chest grew stronger at the same time as dad came down with mom. Even if the faces were blurred they are but I know they are my parents.

"Ahh! Shan! Let go of me!" I wanted to run but my legs seemed to be statuesque. My body didn't want to follow my wishes. Stop! I don't want this! Why am I here! I sighed when I saw dad dragging mom down the stairs.

"M-Mom... Mom.." I felt weak, my fist clenched especially when dad suddenly left mom who was now lying on the floor due to falling down the stairs. Dad went to a room, when I was young—That's my room! My eyes widened, I can't! I don't want to! I don't want to be here anymore! I was caught in my ear when I heard the very cry of my younger self.

"You child! Come here! Hurry up!" Dad gripped my wrist tightly as he walked quickly.

"Lucky! Look what I will do to your daughter!“

"Our child Shan! Not just my daughter!“

“You’re a liar! I no longer wonder if she is not my real child!“

"How can you say that to your own daughter!? Shan! He's your child!" My younger self harshly sat up because of the force of the crash, dad kicked mom so she almost lay down on the floor.

"You're so liar! Come here! Hurry up!" My younger self eyes were full of tears, she could hardly see her eyes as my poor mom and dad were just watching them.

I was the younger self opening the gate while mom was in the middle while tied to seat, dad got in a car and without saying a word he ran over the car to crash mom.

"Mommy! Mommy!" My younger self screamed and ran to where mom was.

I felt like a statue, the tears in my eyes were unceasing. My heart was full of grief. Pity, pain and sorrow. I looked at dad, It slowly got out of the car. It seemed to realize where it was and quickly went to where mom was.

Mom's head was filled with red liquid, while her skin was almost as pale. Her eyelids were closed while she was gone. alive.

"L—Lucky.. I didn't mean to. Lucky! Wake up!" Dad tried to move mom's body but a few minutes later we received no answer.

I looked at dad, he immediately stood up and put mom in the compartment in the back of his car while trying to clean himself. My younger self was left on the road while I was stunned while looking at the blood left on the floor.

What will he do!? Where will he take mom!? Isn't he still satisfied? I cried before taking a deep breath. This memory, this is one because of everything because of this my normal life started to change. The hell world that dad gave me.

My fist clenched. You are so bad dad! I hate you! When I woke up I immediately stood up, I didn't think at the time that if not that dream— The bad dream.

”Ahhhh! You are so bad! You're so bad!" I messed up the things here in my room.

My fist clenched as I slapped and threw things in it, as if I lost myself especially when I saw the mirror. I immediately picked up the vase on the side. I and threw it in the mirror.

There was a loud noise and a crash. I looked at my reflection in the mirror. My hair was messy while my eyes were full of tears, not only that. My eyes were full of darkness and glare. My eyes would sharpen as I gripped both sides of the make-up tightly.

"You are so bad! I hate you! You killed mom! You killed! You don't even matter —bothered!" I look different now, I look so strong and its like I can do everything. I can hurts while no one cares.

"Ahhhhhh! You are bad! You're bad!" My head turned to the right and to the left as the whisper continued.

I was now holding my hair while breathing steadily. I was about to touch the glass when the door suddenly opened. I ignored that and touched the glass.

"Hope! Damn! Stop that! Hope! Hope!” I didn’t listen to him.

"I will kill him.. He killed mom! He's bad— " I was shocked to feel a pair of arms wrap around my waist.

"Please.. Stop.. Hope... Come back to yourself please." I just circled him and properly grasped the grip on the mirror even tighter as I felt pain but I ignored that.

"Hope! No! Stop!" But I didn't listen until I saw my own blood on the floor.

I immediately let go of the mirror before backing away. I fell to the floor weakly and because Theo hugged me from behind I leaned on him.

"M—Mom.. Mom.. No.. No.."

"Sshh, calm down Hope.. Please..." Next grain of tears fell from my eyes while holding my mouth.

"My mommy.. My mommy Theo."

"It's gonna be right... Everything's fine too, come back to your senses Hope." I swallowed before looking up and looking up at him.

His eyes were talking and full of worry. Nothing, I leaned my head on his chest. I was squeezed there before crying. He immediately hugged my waist while kissing my head.

"Hope.. I'm just here, I'm just here." He whispered over and over again while continuing stroking my hair.

"Mommy... Mommy... Dad killed her.."

"Hush Hope.." For no apparent reason I had peace. The salvation I have always sought, the peace I have now felt again. His two arms seemed to be ready to protect me, and his caresses my hair as if to say that everything would be fine as well.

I smiled faintly before tightening my hug with him who in turn responded. We hugged for a long time until I felt my system calm down, as if my body knew his hugs.

Familiar that I do not understand. I close my eyes tightly before savoring the peace I feel now. I even leaned my head on his shoulder like a child before hugging him around the neck.

Would I be selfish if I wanted to stay with him in this position first? I closed my eyes softly but before I could fall asleep I still heard what he said.

"You're not alone anymore Hope, I'm here. I will never leave your side even if you beg me to do it. Let me stay by your side again." My chest throbbed before being swallowed slightly and none of my own nodded.

I can't keep you away either, Theo. I shook my head before took a deep sigh, I want to sleep. I'm tired, I want to end this. I hope, I can but I know he don't want to.