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CHAPTER 20:The Conversation They Almost Didn't Have
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Staying with him CHAPTER 44- What Marcus Said
On the third day Marcus called her, which she had notknown was possible, because she had never given theman her number.Damien gave it me, Marcus said, before she couldask. Months ago. In case. He did not say in case ofwhat and I did not ask. He is funny like that. Heprepares for the thing he is most afraid of and thenrefuses to name it. He always has.How is he, Olivia said, and hated how fast it came outof her.Bad, Marcus said, with the bluntness of a man whohad no use for cushioning. He trained this morninglike he wanted to break something. The managerpulled him after forty minutes. He is sitting in a flatbeing very calm and very still and it is the worst I haveseen him since the year after the girl died. He paused.You know about the girl.Amara. Yes.Then you know what he does, Marcus said. He goesinside and he locks it and he calls it coping. He did itfor a year after her. Took me eight months to get a fullsentence out of him. He turned a corner eventually,but h
Staying with him CHAPTER 43-The First Day
She went to work the next morning because she didnot know what else to do with her body, and she wasbad at it for the first time in years.She sat across from a woman who had been comingto her for eight months and she lost the thread twicein fifty minutes, came back to the room to find thewoman watching her with mild concern, the patientchecking on the doctor, which was the worst thingthat could happen in that chair and which Olivia hadbuilt her entire professional life around preventing.She got through it. She always got through it. But shewalked the woman to the door at the end and stood inthe empty room afterward with her hand still on thelatch and understood that she had given that hour tosomeone and not actually been in it.She had not texted him. He had not texted her. Thephone sat in her bag through every session, a smalldead weight she was aware of the way you are awareof a bruise, and at lunch she took it out and looked atthe blank screen of it and put it bac
Staying with him CHAPTER 42-What He Did Not Tell Her
How long, she said again, because he had notanswered, because he was standing in the middle oftheir kitchen with the careful, total stillness of a manwatching the precise thing he had spent three monthsmanaging arrive in the single worst way it could have.Since January, he said. There was an enquiry inJanuary. That was the letter. It turned into a real offerabout a month ago. A formal one.A month, she said.About a month. Yes.She nodded slowly. She was aware, with a horribleclarity, that she was doing the thing, the calm thing,the level voice, the temperature dropping. And shewas aware that he knew she was doing it, that he hadlearned her well enough by now to find the level voicemore frightening than any amount of shouting, that hewould have given anything in that moment for her toraise her voice.You told me, she said. In the dark. Two weeks ago.You said, I will tell you when there is something real totell you. A month ago there was something real to tellme, Damie
Staying with him CHAPTER 41- The Offer
She did not ask him that night.She had meant to. She went home from Priya's withthe whole sensible plan assembled in her head andher oldest friend's voice in her ear, ready, finally, to bea woman who said the frightened thing out loudbefore it grew teeth. And she let herself into the flatand he was in the bedroom on the phone with thedoor pulled most of the way to, and she heard thesharp voice, the Marcus voice, and she stopped in thehallway beside the shelf where Amara's photographsat in its small wooden frame, and she heard him sayit.She was not trying to listen. She would hold on to thatsmall, cold comfort in the days that followed. She wasnot crouched at the door. She was standing in herown hallway taking off her coat, and his voice carriedthe way every voice carried in that flat, and she heard,clearly, in the certain sharp register he kept for oneman alive:It is a serious offer, Marcus. I know it is. Three years. Iknow exactly what it is worth. A pause. The lo
Staying with him CHAPTER 40- Priya Says The Thing
You are doing the face, Priya said.I am not doing a face.You are absolutely doing the face. The managingface. I have known that face for eleven years. You didthat exact face at university when you found outabout the thing with Daniel, do you remember, youwent and made everyone tea and rearranged theentire kitchen and did not cry for nine days, and thencried, if memory serves, for about two.They were in Priya's kitchen, which was small andloud and the precise opposite of Olivia's flat, everysurface covered in a child's drawing or a singleabandoned sock, a bottle of wine open between themthat neither of them was really drinking because Priyahad to be up at six with the children. Olivia had comeover on a Wednesday evening without admittingclearly to herself why she had come.There is a thing, Olivia said.There is always a thing. You do not come over on aschool night because you are relaxed. Tell me thething.So she told her. The cream envelope on the second ofJanuary,
Staying with him CHAPTER 39- The Thing He Is Not Saying
By the middle of March she could no longer pretend,with any conviction, that she had not noticed.It had been building for the better part of two months,slowly enough that on any single day she couldpersuade herself she was imagining it, that he wastired, that the season was long, that she wasimporting tension that was not there. It was only whenshe let herself look at the whole two months laid endto end that she could see the line of it, the slow steadydecline of something in him that had nothing to dowith how he was with her.Because he was not unhappy with her. She was nearlycertain of that, and the nearly was its own smalltorment. He reached for her exactly as much as healways had. He came home the same, ate dinner thesame, slept with his arm out the same so she couldfind the space in the dark. Whatever the weight was, itwas not about them, and that single fact was the onlything that let her keep carrying it without coming apartat the seams.But he was carrying so
Staying with him CHAPTER 22-The Last Night Across The Hall
She had not expected to feel anything about leaving.It was a practical matter. The lease was up. She was moving sixfeet across a hallway into an apartment she had been sleeping in everynight for four months and which contained the majority of herbelongings and both of her favourite coffee cups
Staying with him CHAPTER 21 -Telling People
Her mother said good and put the kettle on and that was the whole ofit.Olivia had called on a Sunday morning deliberately — Sundaymornings were when her mother was least scattered, the particularwindow between ten and noon when the house in Birmingham settledinto a reliable quiet. She had been
Staying with him CHAPTER 19:The Match
She had not meant to become a person who went to football matches.There was nothing wrong with football matches, philosophically.She simply had not had cause to attend one in thirty years of livingand the idea of sitting in a cold stadium with twenty thousand peoplewatching eleven people run af
Staying with him CHAPTER 18:December
December arrived the way it always did in London — not with snow,nothing that cinematic, just a drop in temperature that meant businessand the particular grey of a sky that had given up pretending it mightclear.She started keeping a spare set of work clothes at his place.Not a big thing. Pract
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