LOGINNaomi’s Pov; By evening, the base felt too tight. Too many people, too many whispers, too much movement. The kind of crowdedness that didn’t come from bodies but from pressure invisible, quiet, heavy. Everyone sensed a shift. They didn’t know it was personal. They didn’t know it had nothing to do with the mission and everything to do with the way Cassian had looked at me in that warehouse, like I’d just peeled open something he had spent years burying. I stayed busy. Checked inventory. Cleaned my gun twice. Helped Mara reorganize surveillance footage. I wanted to outrun my own thoughts, but they kept catching up. It didn’t help that I could feel Cassian’s presence even when he wasn’t in the room. That was new. Scary. Unavoidable. And every time I passed a doorway or rounded a corner, some part of me wondered if he might be there not because I needed him to be, but because some part of me wasn’t ready to admit I wanted him close. Rubio found me in the tech room, wires and
Naomi’s Pov The next morning came too bright. Too loud. Too… normal. I hated it. Nothing inside me felt normal after last night. My whole chest felt like someone had pulled a thread loose and left it hanging, waiting for the rest of me to unravel behind it. I dressed slowly, half-distracted, half-annoyed with myself. My hands shook a little when I buttoned my shirt. I told myself it was from the cold. It wasn’t. When I stepped into the hallway, Cassian was already there. Standing by the railing. Drinking coffee. He looked like he’d been awake for hours. He didn’t hear me at first. He looked tired in a way that made my heart do that stupid thing, squeeze and soften all at once. His hair was messy, his eyes shadowed, and the sun from the window hit the side of his face like it didn’t know he was the kind of man you shouldn’t shine on. Then he turned. Our eyes met. And something inside me… paused. He didn’t look away. He didn’t pretend last night didn’t happen. He didn’t lo
Naomi’s Pov The strange thing about distance is how close it can feel. That night, even though Cassian and I barely spoke, even though the house was quiet and nothing dramatic happened, I felt him everywhere. In the hallways, in the echo of footsteps, in the soft creak of a floorboard near my room. He didn’t come to my door, and I didn’t expect him to, but his presence moved like a shadow that kept brushing against mine. I tried to read. My eyes didn’t move. I tried to sleep. My body wouldn’t settle. Every thought drifted back to him. Not in a fantasy way, not in some dramatic romance-novel kind of picture. No. It was the small things. The way he watched me earlier, the way his voice softened when he said I didn’t have to prove anything to him, the way he stood close and breathed like he needed the world to slow down. It was all too real. I finally gave up and went downstairs for water. The base was dim and quiet, lights set to night mode. Something about the soft blue glow m
Naomi’s Pov There’s a strange kind of tiredness that comes from not sleeping because you’re afraid of what you’ll dream. I’d been living in that kind of tiredness for weeks, the kind that makes your bones ache and your thoughts splinter. The base felt like a place of borrowed time; everyone moved like they were pretending nothing would change tomorrow. I woke up with the taste of metal in my mouth. Not blood, just the metallic tang that memories leave behind. I made coffee because the motion steadied me: grind, scoop, water, wait. The simple things hold you together when everything else wants to fall apart. Cassian wasn’t in the war room yet. He’d left a note tacked to the board: Sweep the northern route with Mara. Recheck the old docks. No lone moves. His handwriting was clean, no flourish, like he’d written it twice and erased the parts that sounded soft. He didn’t trust soft, I reminded myself. He refused it. But sometimes the part of him that refused was also the part that sc
Naomi’s Pov The morning after felt heavier than the night before, like my body hadn’t caught up with everything my mind had lived through. Sleep didn’t help. I kept waking up, seeing flashes of the docks, the way Cassian grabbed me, the way his voice cracked when he said I split him open. I washed my face twice, but it didn’t wash away the memory of him standing close, breathing like he was trying not to let the whole world out of his chest. When I finally stepped out of my room, the house was too quiet. The kind of quiet that made you feel like someone had gone around and turned down the volume on life. In the kitchen, Mara stood by the counter, pouring coffee like she’d been up for hours. She looked at me over the rim of her mug. “Rough night?” I shrugged. “Something like that.” She hummed. “He didn’t sleep either.” My stomach tightened. “I didn’t ask.” “You didn’t have to.” She poured a second cup and slid it my way. “He walked around until dawn. I heard him in the hall
Naomi’s Pov The house felt different that night. Not dangerous. Not loud. Just… hollow. Like the walls were breathing slower, like even the air had calmed itself so it wouldn’t make noise. Maybe it was me. Maybe I was the one who felt hollow. Ever since the shootout at the docks, something inside me wouldn’t sit still. Not fear. Not confusion. Something else. Something that felt like I’d walked right up to a line I didn’t even know was there, and now every step felt like I was walking along the edge. After we got back, Cassian went straight to his office. He didn’t say a word. Didn’t even look back. He just disappeared into that dark room of his, where every shadow looked like a thought he didn’t want anyone to see. I showered, changed, tried to pretend the water washing down my arms could rinse off the sound of gunfire still ringing in my skull. I tried to pretend my hands didn’t shake when I touched my own hair. But the truth was simple: I wasn’t shaking from the bullets.







