ANMELDENSorry for the slow updates, lovelies. My health is really getting in the way, but I'm getting better step by step, so no worries. And thank you lots for your patience!
Nathanael I’m already barely following what the counsel of the counterparty is saying while I watch Gilda storm into my office. Her eyes are swollen, tears sticking to her cheek, and I groan because why did I choose the most dramatic witch to be my familiar? She crosses her arms, flashing me a defiant look while she taps her foot repeatedly, and I lift my hand, furrowing my brows. Unfortunately, she remains unmoved, and I pass my fingers over my eyes, cutting the call with the excuse that there is an emergency and that I will have to call him back. “What is it?” I ask, annoyed, making her drop her arms with a huff. “You sent him back to the cave?” she shouts in despair, and I roll my eyes, gesturing to the door. Having him too close was making me go insane. “If you want to make a scene. Close the door. Because I don’t want my employees to think we are a madhouse.” She gasps, lifting her hands to touch her forehead. “The fucking audacity of yours. We are a fucking madhouse. An
Theodore I’m honestly surprised that I can still walk. But it must be the hate and desperation because the pain in my limbs and my heart would be too much to have my body functioning otherwise. I was prepared to feel bad because I had never loved someone as much as I love him, so I figured that this time, my heartbreak would crush me. But what I feel is devastatingly worse than any pain I have ever felt. I haven’t talked to Nathanael since I asked him to make me an offer, and I ignored him as much as I could while he kept scurrying around me constantly. He even continued to cook for me, serving me abundant meals, and I was so angry because that’s not what our deal was. Still, he refused to make a move to drink from me, turning paler and looking heartbreakingly sick, while I couldn’t eat much with my closed stomach anyway. That way, it just looked like I was being mean and wanted to reject his cooking, too. Taking a deep breath, I catapult myself to the present. My heart
TheodoreI got another room at first.But after having an ugly cry, curled up on the bed and throwing up several times, I got up and asked the hotel to arrange for a water plane to get me back to the next airport.Like the peasant that I am, and am supposed to be, I booked an economy seat on the next flight and passed the next hours waiting to board it with red and swollen eyes.I can’t remember ever having felt sick while traveling, but by the time I arrive back in New York, I feel like I was put into a washing machine in the highest spinning cycle.My head is turning, my throat burning, and I can’t wait to crash.“Fuck,” I breathe out, halting in
TheodoreHe scrunches up his face, obviously offended by my exaggerated comment about his age. “Theo, I…”“Just shut it. I’ll take a small hotel room, and you can call me up when you need your dose. Otherwise, you don’t have to do anything with me. I’ll stay out of your way.”His lips twitch, his face falling, seeming more and more desperate.And I hate it.“That’s not what I want…”“I don’t fucking care what you want, you jerk,” I shout at him.“Theodore, I can’t…”
Theodore“Whynot?”Angerbubblesupmythroat,mywordsjustburstingoutofme.Helowershisgaze,scratchingthebackofhisneck.“Ican’tdecideitalone.Youhavetounderstandthatitiscomplicated.”“Youkeeprepeatingthat.”Isitupwhilehestepsbacktotheendofthebed.Heremainssilent,causingmetogetmoreandmoreanxious,feelingbilerisinginmythroat.“Whatdoyoumeanby‘youcan’tdecideitalone’?”Ifinallydare&
TheodoreI don’t even know how I survived it. It felt like a nightmare, and I must have dissociated big time. But the moment I wake up to the sun shining into the room and the singing of birds, I feel incredibly light. Due to my distressed state of mind, I don’t remember much of what happened, but I keep having flashbacks. Luckily, the most recurring one is Nathanael screaming at me that he loves me through the drizzle. Where were we anyway? Did that really happen? Pushing out a sigh, I snuggle closer against Nathanael’s chest. His fingers continue to caress my back, causing tingles to roll up and down my spine. Despite managing to hold him back from making a blood bath, I got him to bring me to the Maldives, and I can honestly say that I’m in paradise. “Did you sleep well?” he asks me, his tone making the question seem awfully distant. I yawn, nodding, and he chuckles. “I’m glad. You lost a lot of sleep because of your family. I was starting to get worried.” “Says the man w







