I’m done with men! Not because I hate them, but because everyone I meet, and is just fine enough to pique my interest, I compare to him. And it ends right there and then. The ridiculous thing is that my love interest isn’t real. He is a figure that hunts my nights and brings pleasure into the few seconds that I’m captured by my sleep paralysis. I know that, and I am totally okay with it. Just as I start a new job, and my life seems to take a better turn, determined to forget the man from the shadows, I find my forbidden pleasure standing right in front of me. Suddenly my dream man wears a tailored suit and frowns at me. He is my boss. And he is very real.
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Ah, it must be one of those dreams again. Or what do they call it… Sleep paralysis. I groan, but the sound is only in my mind because, like the rest of my body, my throat isn‘t responding to the impulses coming from my brain. I fail to move again while my eyes are wide open, staring into the blackness of the room. The first subconscious impulse I feel is panic, which climbs along my legs, expanding into my stomach, but slowly, another feeling takes over, my heartbeat accelerating as a strange heat pushes the panic back. My dick hardens under the covers and I cuss myself out as it rubs against the bed sheets as it grows, making me feel like burning up. And I can’t even close my eyes. I just lay there staring into the darkness, concentrating on my breathing to calm down, like my doctor instructed me to, even if I don’t want to get out of it. Not yet. The reason for it finally moves out of the shadows, materializing in front of me. My breathing pattern changes as my eyes roam his broad shoulders and his muscular frame. His gorgeous face has a small smile playing on his lips that seems rather mocking as he looks down at me. His squared jaw and his dark eyes seem a bit friendlier because of the dimples forming as his smile broadens. He moves slowly as he comes closer, leaning over the bed and making me gulp as I watch him with my heart beating fast in my chest. It is like seeing a deadly predator nearing its prey that is already trapped for him, ready to eat it up alive. And my cock twitches as it is insanely hot. My eyes move, following the movements of his hand as he lifts my blanket, exposing my naked body and my hard cock. “So you have been waiting for me.” His deep baritone travels through me, hitting my heart with a direct blow. “And here I was, thinking that you didn’t like it last time.” I try to open my mouth, but it’s no avail. The words die in my throat and I haven’t even the ability to part my lips. I should have talked to my doctor about it, but as in the beginning I was afraid that I would be sent to a psychiatrist's ward, I’m now afraid of him not coming back. I know exactly how unhealthy that is, and it makes my life worthless as I project all my joy into these moments. First, it happened once a week, and now nearly daily, and if you might think that it is exhausting, it is. But every day that I start without him is hell. Our interaction has always been kind of sexual. It started out with stares and morphed into simple touches. To the extent that I had to masturbate every time after I fully woke up. Last time was the first time he dared to undress me. To my surprise, he lowered my shorts to give me a blowjob. And as it was the absolute best feeling that I had ever had, I chose to push my luck this time. ‘Suck me again,’ I beg to myself, not able to speak those words even if I’d like to shout them at him. He grins as he lowers on me, licking from my balls up my shaft only to end up kissing my tip. ‘Fuck,’ I moan internally and I would give everything to bury my fingers into his black hair. Releasing spit onto my cock, he takes it into his mouth fully, taking me deeper with every bob of his head. I feel my entire being burning up as he sucks my cock eagerly, making me reach my release faster than I would like to. I love having his lips on me, his tongue pressing along my shaft as he blows me. His mouth is so incredibly hot, his sucks increasing until he gulps, making me hit his throat. ‘Fuuuuck,’ I groan silently as I squirt off, and my heart twists as I watch him gulping my release down, licking his lips as if he enjoyed every drop of it. I’d like to reach out to touch him, feel his skin under my fingertips, let my hands run along his muscular body hiding under the t-shirt. It’s a month now that I have been dreaming of seeing his cock, or for me to beg him to take me raw, but I guess, my dream will stay a dream as I can’t see him turning me to fuck me while I’m paralyzed and muted. What an absolutely shitty situation. I have tried to beg him with my eyes but he never read it right. I dream of him kneeling on my bed, and taking off his t-shirt, the sweat droplets running down his chest as he positions me to take me… Hard. He straightens his spine, and my eyes widen as instead of moving back into the shadows, he bends over me again. Moaning, I enjoy him running his tongue up my neck, he nibbles at my skin, my heart stopping as he wraps his hand around my cock. He starts moving his hand up and down, my cock hardening under his touch. As soon as he has me hard for him again, he starts moving his hand faster, squeezing me while my lungs practically implode at the moans trapped in it. He continues to nibble at my skin, sucking and biting into it gently. ‘Shit,’ I cuss in my mind as I come again. While my cum spurts out of me, I suddenly feel him bite into my neck. My heart stills for a second as he seems to drink from me, my senses turning dizzy as it increases the high I’m experiencing. I breathe out a moan, my sleep paralysis slowly lifting as I succumb to the overpowering feeling of ecstasy. Damn those lucid fantasies.TheodoreI always knew that I was just the side piece. But seeing him with her disintegrated me on a whole other level. I feel numb as I do another set of the weight-lifting machine that I’m sitting in, my biceps not hurting badly enough, if I can still feel my heart stinging in my chest. Ugh. Of course his beloved is flipping gorgeous. Also, my guilt and shame are eating me alive, my senses drifting off as I lose count of whatever exercise I am doing. Luckily, the gym is half empty, and even if my phone died halfway through my cardio exercise, I just got as desperate as my heart could take about karma getting my ass. During a mini panic attack, I managed to call the Hel Company to reach Brad and inform him about my small inconvenience. As usual, he and the stick up his arse took it very professionally, and he gave me an indication of time when he would pick me up at my apartment with his driver, giving me enough time to finish my gym routine. Bleh. Closing my eyes as I let t
NathanaelI open one of the fake wine bottles, smelling the cork. “It might not be what you are used to, but they are trying their best.” She giggles as she watches me pour a glass full of a rare type of blood. “It’s astonishing what those humans are ready to do for a bit of their currency.” “Hmmm,” I agree with her cynical comment, my guts churning as I find myself conflicted with mocking them for the first time. Not that I would suddenly care for those poor souls. “I can take you to the club one of these nights. If you want to really be left astonished,” I force up a mask, washing down Baxter’s face flashing up in front of my inner eye. Lifting her hand, she giggles again, saying something I can’t hear as my attention gets captured by Gilda standing in the door frame. How long has she been standing there? I gulp down the anxiety rising in my chest, my throat flooding with a sour taste as the fear of what her empty expression might mean. “What is it?” I ask dryly, wanting t
Theodore “Hey there,” my lips hurt as I fight to keep my smile upright and push down the urge to retreat and run out of the room again. The hulkish man, I definitely had a feverish dream about beating him senseless, steps closer with a scrunched-up expression. I try to read it to find out if he is about to attack me, but it seems unreadable, as disgust certainly doesn’t match the situation. “Baxter, right?” He grumbles, his Adam's apple bumping as his throat seems to revolt at the words he wants to force out of his mouth. And still he wasn’t that shy to talk to me in the cafeteria. I gulp, continuing to grin at him like an idiot, my stomach trying to transform its walls into iron to fend off the fatal blow coming for it. “Uh-huh.” My fingers itch, and I clench my fists to prevent myself from clasping my shirt’s collar. Oh, but at least I smell like a fairy-tale princess. Maybe that will play in my favor. The desairologist will have a lot less work to do on me. If he doesn’t
TheodoreI slip into my shirt, stumbling into the kitchen where I find Gilda staring at two steaming cups with an empty look. “Oi,” I shout out of breath, causing her to jump up. Halting to look at her, I scrunch up my nose, taking a deep breath. “Are you alright?” She nods, the light returning into her eyes as she forces a smile onto her lips once again. “Sure.” Picking up the cups of tea, she empties them into the kitchen sink. “I guess I overbrewed them.” She waves dismissively as she puts up a strange expression, making me forget what I just saw in the bedroom. “Is everything alright with you? You seem quite upset.”“Erm…” I pull at my clothes, sorting out my thoughts as I remember what just happened. “I’m not quite sure. Maybe I’m ready for the asylum for good.”We stare at each other in silence, and she blinks in confusion. “What?” “You have to see it, or you will never believe me.” Grabbing her wrist, I pull her out of the kitchen. She cusses me out, stumbling after me as
TheodoreI’m about to drift off into the land of dreams when I hear the door open and close with a bang, jerking me out of my half-sleepy state. The beloved? I turn my head to the door, waiting for the heels clicking on the shiny floors to reach me. My skyrocketing heartbeat calms down immediately as Gilda pops her head in, smiling broadly at me. “How are you feeling?” “Awesome.” I grin at her, lifting my hands filled with little bubbles. “I must be taking a bath that costs somewhat around one million dollars.” She giggles as I let my arms fall, washing my hands from the foam. “You are looking ridiculously cute.” “Just look at how fancy those bottles are. I guess this is the last straw that will get me fired,” I giggle with her, swaying one of the bottles back and forth. Stepping closer, she closes the door behind her to stop the cold from streaming into the room. “Wow, you really emptied a lot of into the tub.” “Yeah,” I sigh, lowering my head to the bubbles. “I guess his belov
Theodore Pulling at the strand of my hair, I bounce my legs as I am leaned over, my elbows propped onto my knees. I start to feel dizzy, but I don’t care. The blood sticking on me is making my stomach churn, and I would want nothing more than to just tear the clothes off my body. Oh, God, I think I’m going to throw up. Sobbing, I tighten my fists, clasping my hair harder. Not only will I be processed for an assault in a cafeteria and be broadcast on all news channels for my family to see. But I will also lose my job. Oh, God, I’m going to jail. Who cares about the job? Helades’ face flickers up in front of my inner eye, and I sob again, cuddling deeper. As I’m sobbing pathetically, I nearly miss the lock of the door clicking, and I jerk up to look at the door opening. My heart backflips in my chest as Helades steps into the narrow room, and before I can feel any fear about what he will say or do, I feel so relieved. As the scent of his cologne envelops me, I s
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