I’m done with men! Not because I hate them, but because everyone I meet, and is just fine enough to pique my interest, I compare to him. And it ends right there and then. The ridiculous thing is that my love interest isn’t real. He is a figure that hunts my nights and brings pleasure into the few seconds that I’m captured by my sleep paralysis. I know that, and I am totally okay with it. Just as I start a new job, and my life seems to take a better turn, determined to forget the man from the shadows, I find my forbidden pleasure standing right in front of me. Suddenly my dream man wears a tailored suit and frowns at me. He is my boss. And he is very real.
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Ah, it must be one of those dreams again. Or what do they call it… Sleep paralysis. I groan, but the sound is only in my mind because, like the rest of my body, my throat isn‘t responding to the impulses coming from my brain. I fail to move again while my eyes are wide open, staring into the blackness of the room. The first subconscious impulse I feel is panic, which climbs along my legs, expanding into my stomach, but slowly, another feeling takes over, my heartbeat accelerating as a strange heat pushes the panic back. My dick hardens under the covers and I cuss myself out as it rubs against the bed sheets as it grows, making me feel like burning up. And I can’t even close my eyes. I just lay there staring into the darkness, concentrating on my breathing to calm down, like my doctor instructed me to, even if I don’t want to get out of it. Not yet. The reason for it finally moves out of the shadows, materializing in front of me. My breathing pattern changes as my eyes roam his broad shoulders and his muscular frame. His gorgeous face has a small smile playing on his lips that seems rather mocking as he looks down at me. His squared jaw and his dark eyes seem a bit friendlier because of the dimples forming as his smile broadens. He moves slowly as he comes closer, leaning over the bed and making me gulp as I watch him with my heart beating fast in my chest. It is like seeing a deadly predator nearing its prey that is already trapped for him, ready to eat it up alive. And my cock twitches as it is insanely hot. My eyes move, following the movements of his hand as he lifts my blanket, exposing my naked body and my hard cock. “So you have been waiting for me.” His deep baritone travels through me, hitting my heart with a direct blow. “And here I was, thinking that you didn’t like it last time.” I try to open my mouth, but it’s no avail. The words die in my throat and I haven’t even the ability to part my lips. I should have talked to my doctor about it, but as in the beginning I was afraid that I would be sent to a psychiatrist's ward, I’m now afraid of him not coming back. I know exactly how unhealthy that is, and it makes my life worthless as I project all my joy into these moments. First, it happened once a week, and now nearly daily, and if you might think that it is exhausting, it is. But every day that I start without him is hell. Our interaction has always been kind of sexual. It started out with stares and morphed into simple touches. To the extent that I had to masturbate every time after I fully woke up. Last time was the first time he dared to undress me. To my surprise, he lowered my shorts to give me a blowjob. And as it was the absolute best feeling that I had ever had, I chose to push my luck this time. ‘Suck me again,’ I beg to myself, not able to speak those words even if I’d like to shout them at him. He grins as he lowers on me, licking from my balls up my shaft only to end up kissing my tip. ‘Fuck,’ I moan internally and I would give everything to bury my fingers into his black hair. Releasing spit onto my cock, he takes it into his mouth fully, taking me deeper with every bob of his head. I feel my entire being burning up as he sucks my cock eagerly, making me reach my release faster than I would like to. I love having his lips on me, his tongue pressing along my shaft as he blows me. His mouth is so incredibly hot, his sucks increasing until he gulps, making me hit his throat. ‘Fuuuuck,’ I groan silently as I squirt off, and my heart twists as I watch him gulping my release down, licking his lips as if he enjoyed every drop of it. I’d like to reach out to touch him, feel his skin under my fingertips, let my hands run along his muscular body hiding under the t-shirt. It’s a month now that I have been dreaming of seeing his cock, or for me to beg him to take me raw, but I guess, my dream will stay a dream as I can’t see him turning me to fuck me while I’m paralyzed and muted. What an absolutely shitty situation. I have tried to beg him with my eyes but he never read it right. I dream of him kneeling on my bed, and taking off his t-shirt, the sweat droplets running down his chest as he positions me to take me… Hard. He straightens his spine, and my eyes widen as instead of moving back into the shadows, he bends over me again. Moaning, I enjoy him running his tongue up my neck, he nibbles at my skin, my heart stopping as he wraps his hand around my cock. He starts moving his hand up and down, my cock hardening under his touch. As soon as he has me hard for him again, he starts moving his hand faster, squeezing me while my lungs practically implode at the moans trapped in it. He continues to nibble at my skin, sucking and biting into it gently. ‘Shit,’ I cuss in my mind as I come again. While my cum spurts out of me, I suddenly feel him bite into my neck. My heart stills for a second as he seems to drink from me, my senses turning dizzy as it increases the high I’m experiencing. I breathe out a moan, my sleep paralysis slowly lifting as I succumb to the overpowering feeling of ecstasy. Damn those lucid fantasies.Theodore“Maybe he went to that realm. The one with the big-ass wolves. Can you bring me there?” I walk past her, feeling agitated.She turns around, following me. “I can’t send you into another realm on your own. That is dangerous. Just wait here for him. The day will soon be over. He usually returns a bit after midnight.”Checking my watch, I scoff. “It is only eight p.m. I can’t possibly wait for another four hours. Just do it. I promise that nothing will happen.”Her high heels click over the tiled floor as she tries to keep up with my erratic movements. She tries her best to convince me that she can’t do it, as it would be too dangerous, as her voice fades into the background. Looking over to a wall wit
TheodoreDesperation grows in me as I fight the bags out of the cab’s trunk and plan how I will carry them up.The driver asks me several times, offering to help me, but I decline every time, not wanting even to attract more attention than this scatterbrained action will on its own.As soon as I have all the bags out in the street, I make the decision to enter by a secondary entry, escaping the prying eyes of the bitches at the reception and the people roaming the entrance hall.I have made a fool out of myself for long enough, and I really don’t want to pull up more embarrassing scenes.While hauling my bags to the underground parking, I pray to the heavens that I won’t be run over by some r
Theodore As I wake up, it takes my brain a couple of minutes before it starts working properly. It doesn’t feel like I’m having a sleep paralysis, though. It has been a while since I’ve had one of those. It feels more like my body is too exhausted to move. Maybe my soul is just as tired as my body is as I can’t seem to keep my eyes open even if my brain is now fully functioning. By the time I can finally move, I feel like I have been run over by a bus. Every one of my muscles hurts, every move reminding me of how stupid I am. What a diva. I fight myself to my feet and drag my frame to the kitchen to make myself a cup of coffee. I smile as I open my cupboards to find a bit of sugar, and am reminded of just how pathetic my life without Nathanael is. And how empty it feels. He isn’t the type to be loud or talk too much, I would bet that all the noises that filled his penthouse came from me, but my apartment feels so eerily quiet that I would like to be able to rip my
Nathanael“Good morning,” Gilda says in a sing-song, causing me to look up at her.“Good morning,” I answer, checking her appearance and asking myself who out of the two of us really is the vampire here.“Is our pretty boy still sleeping?” she asks in a happy mood, humming as she goes to check on my fake plants as if she needed to water them.I sigh, directing my attention back to my files. “What does still mean? I sent him up…” I check my watch, clicking my tongue. “…Four hours ago.”“Aaw, look at you, having a soft spot for him,” sh
Theodore“Why don’t you go upstairs and take a break?” I jerk up, wiping the corners of my lips to free them from any trickle of drool. I must have fallen asleep, and my slow brain has to push down the paradisal vision before me to start booting up correctly. Blinking, I look up at Helades, who is standing in front of my desk, his hands in his pockets. “The systems are working fine, and the counterparty has just retreated to discuss a few transaction points and will not come back any time soon. The others have retreated into their offices and are taking a nap. Why don’t you do the same?” “What’s with you?” I ask, sitting up in my chair. His smirk lights up his face, still leaving a sly edge to it. I can recognize that he is having a perverted thought, and it is as if I can read his mind, too. “I’ll wait here for the counterparty to come back. I don’t want them to look for us. It could damage the advantage we have over them in the negotiations for now.” Biting down on my lip in
TheodoreI purse my lips as I look at the display of the coffee shop as we stand in line, thinking about whether I should take my usual coffee or try something new.“What are you guys having?” I jump at Eleandra appearing behind us, and I panicky clasp onto Gilda, who turns around with a happy giggle.“Ele! Hi.”Letting go of Gilda, I watch them hug in shock, and look around as if I were trying to find a secondary exit.What is going on here?As I observe them giggling together, talking like old friends, Nathanael’s words come back to my mind and I ‘aah’.
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